recently, as many of you know i've been having serious craving issues. Those voices in my head are sooo cunning even trying to tell me to moderate. Over the last month i feel i sunk into a depression because of these craving and my old habits came galloping back. HOWEVER, i HAVE NOT DRUNK AT ALL. I've not given into these cravings and nor will i as i know only to well what will happen and how horrible i feel.
My bad habbits tho are turning to people who don't care or give a Sh** about me and all they do is moan about there misserable exsistace yet even tho they feel this way, they refuse to do anything to help themselves. WHAT i have found, maybe due to my sober state is that i'm a sponge to everyones emtions. If i surround myself with depressed people (like i have been) i too become depressed. if i surround myself with moody people, i become the same, bitchy people.. the same and so on.
I have found it hard but i decided that i needed to cut myself a break. SO i have ditched all of the people who are all of the above. Instead, i have surrounded myself with my family and i am lapping up the love, innocents and happiness. I feel i am turning a corner. Within the last week (after ditching those people) I'm my old happy self again. Although the cravings are still here, i'm able to just move on from them.
I'm starting to see that light at the end of the tunnel again (hoping it's not another train coming my way tho *lol*)
I've just bought a beautiful large old cottage to move into with my family. Only issue is it needs gutting and starting again so i've got my design board out and spending my evenings with hubby sorting and bugeting for it. I move in about 4 weeks.
I'm sure AL will continue to test me but i'm nearly 3 months AF and plan to go a lot bloody longer so AL Kiss my sweet happy behind and p*** off!
My bad habbits tho are turning to people who don't care or give a Sh** about me and all they do is moan about there misserable exsistace yet even tho they feel this way, they refuse to do anything to help themselves. WHAT i have found, maybe due to my sober state is that i'm a sponge to everyones emtions. If i surround myself with depressed people (like i have been) i too become depressed. if i surround myself with moody people, i become the same, bitchy people.. the same and so on.
I have found it hard but i decided that i needed to cut myself a break. SO i have ditched all of the people who are all of the above. Instead, i have surrounded myself with my family and i am lapping up the love, innocents and happiness. I feel i am turning a corner. Within the last week (after ditching those people) I'm my old happy self again. Although the cravings are still here, i'm able to just move on from them.
I'm starting to see that light at the end of the tunnel again (hoping it's not another train coming my way tho *lol*)
I've just bought a beautiful large old cottage to move into with my family. Only issue is it needs gutting and starting again so i've got my design board out and spending my evenings with hubby sorting and bugeting for it. I move in about 4 weeks.
I'm sure AL will continue to test me but i'm nearly 3 months AF and plan to go a lot bloody longer so AL Kiss my sweet happy behind and p*** off!
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