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[spuddleduck]

i want very much to let people know about me but i can . trying agian... there are a few things that ibang on anbout with mr spuds that i can feel i cant talk about.. my first worry about my mum and dad is when i was 7.... i hear my dad shouting at my mum about what i have done wrong

[spuddleduck]

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i am 7.. i am in my bed listening for the firstr time bout
STUFF

[spuddleduck]

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I LISTEN ALL THE TIME WHAT IS GOING ON. I AM 7 YEARS OLD AND I WANT EVERYTHING TO BNE GOOD,,,,,, ITS NOT.

[spuddleduck]

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SORRY. IM POSTING COS I GET TIME OUT HER

[spuddleduck]

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BACK TO 7 YEARS OLD... THE FIRST TIME I REMEMBER CRAP GOINP PNM ... i remember my sdad screaming the fuck at my mum about how my older sistwer behaveved. I LEARNT FROM THAT. , my dad. i never let anyonde know what iwas doing.

[sapphire1]

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go for it spuds, your voice is heard, luv ya Saff

[spuddleduck]

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i leaned from that..../......................never ever say what you think ..... i woulsd hjave killed my arseholefather many times ....... he has u

[rubywillow]

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I've sent you a message, dear.

[Ringing Cedars]

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Aw hon hang there and pm me your cares anytime.:l:l:l

[aust_boy]

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GO FOR IT!

We all feel EXACTLY like you do about SOMETHING whether we admit it or not.

You have the guts to type it out, to let it out.

GOOD on you.

Your voice is heard with me too.

[Mish]

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Spuds, what can we do to help? Are you drinking? Please, if you are, drink heaps of water and go to bed. We really, really care about you hon.

[aust_boy]

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I figured you were drinking the first time I read this post but the last thing I needed to hear when I was drinking was 'are you drinking'. I figured that the next time you read it you'd realise you had identified something that is clearly bothering you big time, for free. That sort of stuff takes ages to uncover at a decent (if you can find one) psychiatrist. Hence encouraging you to let it out. You aren't doing anyone any harm typing on a forum, even if you did type something you didn't mean, or offended someone, this is the one place where it doesn't really matter and people understand. Every single person on this forum would have compassion for you and it wouldn't even be an issue, it's a safe environment.

I found the key to my recovery was addressing / dealing with all that sort of stuff - by myself, for myself. The stuff that really made me angry / sad / sparked intense emotion. If you can remedy those things, you'll find you need to use alcohol less as a bandage.

I should know. I had wrapped myself up in alcohol like a mummy I had so many damn bandages on.

Be brave.

[mama bear]

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let it out Spuds..we are all here

[spuddleduck]

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sorr ive been scared to be around. thank ou for understanding. mr spuds is with me and understandoing.. i havent got it sorted yet. please help me in my silly strugles

[prancy]

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One thing I can say.
These struggles and I don't mean just yours!! are not silly. They are difficult, scary and life-threatening.
I hope you will hang in here with us. We all have our own separate issues but we certainly share a lot of them.