Been there done that...

[Cinders]

Been there done that...

Wow,

What an outpouring of love and caring. And yet, here I am, still drinking.

Last week I showed up at the client drunk for two days. I disappeared after half a day on Thursday and went to a bar.

I don't remember doing any of it.

I showed up at the client so drunk I was blacked out. For two days. I remember nothing about them.

Great. Huh?

Oh, and when I told hubby about it, my life became more hell than I can explain. He can be so cruel.

I am at the same client this week and there is no complaining about me. Apparently, I can show up drunk, blacked out and no one knows.

I can't do that again.

I want to be sober. Every day.

I feel like even if I go years and years and years, I am a train wreck waiting to happen.

After what hubby put me through, I feel like I can't be honest with him.

What a mess.

I am a mess.

I have restarted Baclofen and I am working on staying sober. One effing day at a time.

Thank you, again, friends.

I will never give up giving up. Ever.

And, I will always be grateful for all of you.

Love,
Cindi

[greeneyes]

Been there done that...

:l cindi. I'm sorry you did not get what you needed from you husband. Every day keep doing the best you can. Did you decide against the naltrexone?

[myra]

Been there done that...

Cindi,

I have not posted in a long, long time. Still lurk. When I do get on the boards, you are one of the people I look for first. Your words have always been very helpful. I find them meaningful because they are so heartfelt and honest. Your ability to embrace us all is amazing. Thank you for that.

So sorry you are struggling. You deserve a break from this hell.

With much respect and admiration,

Myra

[theshark]

Been there done that...

cindy i dont know what to say or tell you what to do but as you can see everybody on here will support you ,we all care for you and worry about you,just try an be strong,love from the shark