Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

[Scandinavian]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

Coalfire: I too find it very strange to sit in my "drinking chair" and not drink. Something is missing. I try to eat some ice cream and stuff as a substitute.

I too feel that being tired and sleepy is the best to stop cravings.

A funny fact is that before I quit I would deliberately sleep for some time in my chair if I was too tired to drink, so that I could wake up after some minutes and be ready to drink. Pretty ridiculous!

And I had my best work out in years today. I felt very strond and had a great spirit. Totally ripped the gym apart. That was perfect

My two biggest reasons for my bad conciousness are drinking and not going to the gym. So this is a double win.


Now I need to focus on staying sober!

[Reenie]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

Day 5 AF. Have a counseling appointment. My job is to call me today to let me know whether or not I have one. My husband and I agreed on a divorce. Been married 10 years. He stated he's been in pain the last 3. I feel terrible for all that I have done. Been consistent with my AA meetings, sponsor and peeps. Finally stopped crying today. Showered, make up on and off to a meeting. Look forward to getting this dreaded phone call from employer this afternoon. Need to take care of number one. Scan.. my heart goes out to you... _Reenie

[Doggygirl]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

Reenie;1083629 wrote: I'm in the process of losing my job as I too was drunk. Im embarrassed and ashamed. I'm destroying my life. First, my relationship with my husband is on the outs, I have DUI and now this. God help me! Attending AA. Just enrolled with my alcohol counselor again. I want my life back.

Hi Reenie. I just now saw your posts on this thread. I am so proud of you for 5 days AF. This is so hard, I know. I know you have heard the same horror stories I have about people recovering after hitting horrible bottoms. There is ALWAYS hope. Please keep putting one foot in front of the other, and doing whatever is necessary to stay sober today. The rest of it really will work itself out one way or the other. Nothing else matters if I don't hang on to my sobriety. :l

DG

[Reenie]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

Thanks DG. Was thinking of you earlier today. I certainly have made a mess out of my life? My God, where have I been these 5 years?! My head has been in the bottle. Now that I'm sobering up and really believe I hit bottom, I'm disgusted with myself! I want sobriety so bad. I've had so many chances to get clean and I screwed up. As you said, one foot in front of the other. How are you?

[Reenie]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

Thanks Coalfire. I've been staying really tight with the women in AA these past 5 days. My counsiling appt. is later this evening. She is someone who I've gone to before... then dropped because I thought I didn't need here. Awaiting to hear from corporate sometime today regarding their final decision about my job. My tears have finally stopped. It is what it is... Just got back from AA. Feel a little lost and alone.. waiting for this call is stressful. Job or not, I have to take care of me first.

[Reenie]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

ATLthrash, Doggie and others.... Just re-reading these posts. I didn't come clean with my company about having left during lunch and having gotten drunk, only not to return. Today is the day corporate said they will call to give me their final decision. At this point, I feel they have dragged their feet in getting back to me because they are trying to decipher my lie (Migraine, delirious) or they know I'm a drunk and are not sure what to do. I have cried and prayed these past 5 days wanting my job back. I lied as to what really happened. The web has been spun. If they don't take me back, my best hope is they fire my for some other reason, a reason where I can collect unemployment. The thing that baffles them is I have several letters of recommendations from vp's and clients of ours. I was a great employee. I think their baffled as to what really happened, and that is I was too drunk to return to work. Anyway, I accept my fate. I just hope I can collect UE if I do get axed. I don't like the idea of being fired being on my record, but some how, I'll have to overcome it.

[coalfire]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

This is a very tough day for you Reenie.I hope you get the news today that you want.No matter how horrible a day is we always seem to look back a few years down the line and realise everything has fallen into place. Have you family near you Reenie?

[coalfire]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

Oops crosspost.

[Reenie]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

Family is nearby. Network of AA's a phone call away. Plan on going to another meeting tonight. My heart raced like heck the past 4 days waiting for the call as they promised a call yesterday. Finally, I called corporate last evening. They told me they will call this afternoon (Friday). It's very hard waiting. It's very hard reliving the experience and the lie I created. At this point, my emotions seems to be in check, I believe that it's in God's hands, and in the long run, I will be ok. I'll post as soon as I know. It was a terrible thing that I did. Very irresponsible. I guess it goes along with the disease. All I know is, I have to move forward. I definately realize how sick I am and I really have to put my sobriety first. Enough of this already. I've been torturing myself for 5 years battling this disease and thinking I can beat it. I can't... Not alone anyway.

[gyco]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

live and lern

Scandinavian;1083272 wrote: Azmarkm: I don't get any help, neither did I ask for any.

Maybe I should see a psychiatrist...

Day 4 AF and I feel very good, especially good because I have good conciousness for not drinking. However I feel kind of emo and a funky feeling on the evenings/nights. Hope this will pass. Also I am not so easy to entertain when I am sober. If I had been drinking now I could have watched music videos on youtube for a few hours, ate and went to sleep. Being sober I am more restless and thinking a lot.

And now weekend is coming. What the cr@pp should I do then? And what about the next weeks with lots and lots of time to spare...

interesting thread,i m surprised know one in the company offered you help,most companies as someone said have EAP,most addicted people won t ask for help,as far as a psychiatrist, if there not aaddicted ,they can t help either, they read alot about it,but really unless there like us, haven t a clue,alchoholism and learning how to control it is ,is like learning to walk all over again,kinda like having a stroke, the mind has been so absored in drinking, that is all it knows, then the al is taken away,then your body reacts witha vengence,it is not rocket science,and after weeks of not drinking,the thoughts are still there,years of not drinking help,but the thought never changes,people like us will always have that feeling,or desire to have a drink,even through my own experiences and friends who have been stopped for 30 plus years,they wonder, i wish you well, gyco:thanks:

[Kimberley]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

Good luck Reenie. I am so glad you have AA friends and here to support you. You're doing amazingly well to get through this tough time sober. I know when I lost my job due to being drunk at work I dealt with it by getting horrendously drunk (yeh cos that didn't get me into the mess in the first place hey!). I'd even had a few drinks for courage while I was waiting for my phone call to confirm. It's so hard so bloody well done you. I hope if that happened to me today (my experience was a year ago) I'd be as strong as you. Big hugs :l

K x

[Scandinavian]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

I really don't think I am an alcoholic, but I have had a very bad drinking habit for the last ten or so years. Now its friday night and I am so god damn bored and restless.

Normally at this time I would have been with some friends drinking, laughing and having a really good time. Now I sit at home alone. But no need for self pity! I could have done 1000 interesting sober things tonight if I werent so lazy

Maybe I will drive to the store and buy some Ben & Jerrys and watch a movie or some sopranos or something

[Andrew from Ireland]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

Scandinavian;1084312 wrote: I really don't think I am an alcoholic, but I have had a very bad drinking habit for the last ten or so years. Now its friday night and I am so god damn bored and restless.

Normally at this time I would have been with some friends drinking, laughing and having a really good time. Now I sit at home alone. But no need for self pity! I could have done 1000 interesting sober things tonight if I werent so lazy

Maybe I will drive to the store and buy some Ben & Jerrys and watch a movie or some sopranos or something

I've just been out to buy a Mars Ice-Cream (king size) and I'm on the couch watching soccer. My friends are going to a party...all drinking, having a good time.....it's tough not to go. But it'd be tougher in the morning if I ended up getting drunk.

[Scandinavian]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

I just cleaned the kitchen, feeling very very restless like I should have been somewhere else...

I'll probably drive to a store thats 20 minutes drive away or so to try to make some time pass.

Its amazing how f?cked up evenings are when I'm sober. Daytime it great, nights suck...

Anyway I feel great during the days and the days last longer than the evenings

[stashia]

Just lost my job because I showed up drunk.

you wontregret it andrew Scand keep strong someone wrote on here Acraving wont kill you But the Alcohal Will! Have a grrreat weekend All!!!