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    I GO TO BED DRUNK EVERY NIGHT.

    With rare exception, I go to bed drunk every night. I have been making excuses for it by constantly stating that it's only half a bottle of wine a night. But, in reality, I am drunk. Call me a cheap drunk. So I want to stop for the month of April. I have read enough on here to know to visit the toolbox and get on the L-Glut.

    I was very inspired reading the thread started recently about what people have done or accomplished since they stopped drinking. It helps to know there is life after spending evenings sitting and drinking.

    I am joining a Zumba dancing group on Tuesdays and Thursdays starting in April. That should help.

    What won't help is the fact that we are buying a "Make your own Wine" business and running it. Being a positive thinker I remind myself of people who work at bakeries who don't eat baked goods because their constant presence sickens them. Hopefully, I will fall into that category.

    I am a little scared of the future.

    Tips
    Tipplerette

    I do this for my children, my grandchildren, my health, my peace of mind, and mostly for the opportunity to learn to live with my true, unfiltered, clear-headed, vulnerable self.

    "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
    ? Lao-Tzu

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    I GO TO BED DRUNK EVERY NIGHT.

    Hey Tips,

    The exercise at Zumba will definitely help, even if for the routine of making yourself go every week, and when I go running and get back tired and sweaty the last thing I could think about drinking is AL.

    My life has gone from near disastrous to near amazing since I finally quit AL and that's in relatively short space of time since my last drink.

    The 'Make your own wine' thing is going to be a challenge - I have recently started helping promote music events, a place where drink almost (if not does) supersede the music line-up! While it is going to be difficult, I am never more fond of being sober than when I am surrounded by drunken people losing their dignity!

    Try not to be scared, when you can be EXCITED

    EW
    If you can't have one drink, don't have any - My Nan

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      #3
      I GO TO BED DRUNK EVERY NIGHT.

      Tips, your future can be as bright or brighter than you can imagine! That has been shown repeatedly here. Have you got a good solid plan? It would undoubtedly be helpful to have that underway with the onset of the new business.
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      Thoughts become things..... choose the good ones. ~TUT

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        #4
        I GO TO BED DRUNK EVERY NIGHT.

        Tips, good on you taking on a sober April challenge! I too only went to bed when virtually comatosed so I knew I would sleep - OH MY GOD I MIGHTN'T SLEEP IF I'M NOT SLOSHED sort of mentality. Now I still don't sleep very well, but shit, if the bod needs sleep I reckon it'll take enough to keep me going so I try not to worry about it as much.
        Re. the making home made wine business, we used to make copious amounts of wine, for our own consumption but every fruit and branch was used to make 5 gallon containers of stuff. It was very bad practice, at least when we bought bottles, we knew we drank a bottle. When we made our own we just poured another jug when the last one was empty. Maybe you're stronger than I was, but even my hubs, who is a totally normal drinker drank way more than he should have when making our own. We stopped thankfully when the eldest kids became teenagers and we were afraid they'd be sneaking it.
        Be careful won't you??!
        Molly
        Contentedly sober since 27/12/2011
        contentedly NF since 8/04/14

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          #5
          I GO TO BED DRUNK EVERY NIGHT.

          We make our own and have done so for the past 5 years. We tend to normally stick to sharing a bottle each night although I am hyper sensitive about getting a little more than my share. Not too worried about increasing but stopping or even slowing down seems so hard. Had lunch with second son today and he ordered a beer. I had water. We will see what the evening brings. Thanks for all the advice. Really appreciate it along with the encouragement that is always prevalent here on this site.
          Tipplerette

          I do this for my children, my grandchildren, my health, my peace of mind, and mostly for the opportunity to learn to live with my true, unfiltered, clear-headed, vulnerable self.

          "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
          ? Lao-Tzu

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            #6
            I GO TO BED DRUNK EVERY NIGHT.

            Hi Tipp,
            I use to drink nearly a bottle of wine a day ( my breath must have stank). I could not imagine life without drinking every day. But a year later and I am AF 90% of the timne. I didnt ever think this was possible.

            If there is a will there is a way. One day at a time Tipp. Zumba is a good move!
            Be strong-
            We define ourselves by the best that is in us, not the worse that has been done to us.
            Be constructive. Clear the word of CAN'T

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              #7
              I GO TO BED DRUNK EVERY NIGHT.

              Thanks again EW - the changing from feeling scared to excited really appeals to my daredevil personality. GreenEyes the plan is everything, thanks for the reminder.
              Mollyka, you hit the nail on the head. One thing I can't do is get the stuff out of the house. It's here to stay stacked in a large wine rack in the back room. It's one of my obstacles but better than having something like depression, insomnia or anxiety as an obstacle; those issues have luckily eluded me.
              Rebirth, you just sang my song. Same drinking pattern and same thoughts of how to even imagine not drinking daily.

              Today is April 1st and today I start to abstain at least for the month. I will take my supplements, get outside for half hour a day even just to sit in the sun although exercising is the goal, drink lots of lemon water and tea and I will succeed.

              I will use this forum as my journal so get used to seeing this post bumped up as it will be very therapeutic to write things down.

              This morning, while lying, soaking and thinking in the bath, I realized that the qualities that make my friends and family love me are the very ones holding me back from change. I am known to be easy going, happy, very flexible and eager to please. Well guess what. I go with the winds of suggestion. Would you like a glass of wine? Sure, why not? That's what I have to work on. Be strong, be tough. SAY NO !! I AM EXCITED. I CAN AND WILL DO THIS !!
              Tipplerette

              I do this for my children, my grandchildren, my health, my peace of mind, and mostly for the opportunity to learn to live with my true, unfiltered, clear-headed, vulnerable self.

              "If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
              ? Lao-Tzu

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                #8
                I GO TO BED DRUNK EVERY NIGHT.

                Good on ya Tippler!! Yeah the stuff hangin around is nasty! The first year I was sober(ish) my daughter's 21st birthday leftover drink was sitting in a back room and I truly didn't think I cared. Had an implosion, had hubs banish the stuff to god knows where - to this day I don't know did he throw it out (there was HEAPS of stuff left ) or stash it somewhere, he's a bit tight, so I reckon it's stashed - don't want to know - don't care, but I was amazed at the nice feeling I got that there was nothing spare in the house. There's always a bottle of red somewhere - never liked red and hubs would like a glass from time to time - but no 'oh shit I'll have a quick hit' sort of drink lying around.
                Contentedly sober since 27/12/2011
                contentedly NF since 8/04/14

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