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    #1

    Wine into Water

    Well, here I am at day 13 out of 18....yeah, I slipped a few times. Usually over the weekend. So this will be my first AF weekend.

    Ive been doing a lot of thinking about my new found sobriety and what I am doing instead of drinking. I have managed to drink water....and I mean like enough to sink the titanic :H but I'm still not where I want to be. I thought I would have all this energy and replace wine with productive things. Yet I find myself vege'n out in front of the tv, drinking tons of lemon water and peeing every 15 minutes. So, I'm not getting drunk which is good. But it still feels like I'm in the same rut...just with water instead of wine.

    Now my goal is to get motivated (not the easiest at 15 below zero....brrrr)

    So along with all my silly rituals....calenders....charms...etc. I will add a to do list. Give myself a couple things to accomplish a night. Gotta get busy.

    Anyways, just had to vent...
    Sending :l and support to all!
    :flower: I'm not as good as I'm gonna get, but I'm better than I used to be.
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    #2
    Wine into Water

    This is for you AKgirl,

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WSdze_yYeKc[/video]]YouTube - T Graham Brown - Wine into water

    Love you, hang in there,
    Cindi
    AF April 9, 2016

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      #3
      Wine into Water

      Thanks Cindi.... I remember hearing this before, what a neat song. So true

      :l
      :flower: I'm not as good as I'm gonna get, but I'm better than I used to be.

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        #4
        Wine into Water

        You hang in there, girl. You can do it.

        I saw a website this morning that made so much sense.

        IMPROVE

        improve

        i identify the real need
        m make it essential
        p pick and choose some new belief
        r replace the old behavior
        o over and over again
        v validate your progress
        e environmental support

        We can do this. Shall we?

        Love,
        Cindi
        AF April 9, 2016

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          #5
          Wine into Water

          You're doing great ak! Making a do list is a good idea. Don't worry, spring is coming and you can get out more. Maybe pick up a couple magazines that have some spring projects?
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          Thoughts become things..... choose the good ones. ~TUT

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            #6
            Wine into Water

            Akgirl I read a book called a sober journey through drunken Ireland and the author said that he spent 1 full year in front of the tv eating biscuits and drinking ballygowan(Irish sparkling water) He has a really good and full life today-he just needed a break from the scene and to learn what being sober felt like in his own head. I was so relieved to read this because I worried about this in my first few weeks. I just wasnt able to hop up and lead this full productive life. I restarted my social life on Wednesday-I went into town. I am day 67. The AA people say easy does it. We have our whole lives to do things but I honestly dont think that it is a bad thing to hole up for a while. It shows you how I spent my early weeks and I dont regret it. Slowly my thinking started to straighten out and I was able to take tiny steps into life again. Think of it as a convalescence period. I think its sensible. We are as weak as kittens in these early weeks so don't beat yourself up about it. Be as gentle with yourself as you need to be. Just worry about the drinking. Its enough!
            I am a sobriety tart. AA/Smart/RR philosophy, meds/diet/exercise/prayer,rabbbits feet/four leaf clovers/horseshoes. Yes please.I will have them all thank you very much.Bring them on


            There is no way the bottle is going to be stronger than I am.

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              #7
              Wine into Water

              We are as weak as kittens in these early weeks so don't beat yourself up about it. Be as gentle with yourself as you need to be. Just worry about the drinking. Its enough!
              What a great post, CF. I concur completely.

              AFGirl. Listen to what he said. We are as weak as kittens.
              Just take time to get well. You can do this. You can.

              Love,
              Cindi
              AF April 9, 2016

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                #8
                Wine into Water

                Thanks Coal :l

                and yes Cindi...I will listen to him....very good advice.

                But the thing is...I don't feel weak, I feel great. I feel renewed and want to get on with living. I thought I would have a really hard time quitting....I couldn't imagine not having wine nightly....I mean 20+ years right, but the thing is, its not been that hard. Ya, I slipped a couple times on the weekend but once I decide to pass up the liquor store....I'm good for the night. Well, except for the fear of drowning in lemon water :H

                Anyways, I will not be so hard on myself and take it ODAT. The main thing is...I QUIT! I really did it! I'm so much happier AF

                Thanks again everyone :l
                :flower: I'm not as good as I'm gonna get, but I'm better than I used to be.

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                  #9
                  Wine into Water

                  What are your life circumstance AKgirl? Are you a single out on the scene/married with kids etc. Im trying to picture you and what living might mean for you. It depends on so many things like age/culture etc.Do you live in a city?
                  I am a sobriety tart. AA/Smart/RR philosophy, meds/diet/exercise/prayer,rabbbits feet/four leaf clovers/horseshoes. Yes please.I will have them all thank you very much.Bring them on


                  There is no way the bottle is going to be stronger than I am.

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                    #10
                    Wine into Water

                    AKgirl, it sounds like you are doing great! I read a really good book that I can recommend. It is called "First Year Sobriety: when all that changes is everything" by Guy Hettelhack and also someone who really helps me grow is Joyce Meyers. She comes on every day. My favorite book or DVD by her is "Battlefield of the Mind". She really ministers to women. Best of luck to you!
                    I'm not what I should be, I'm not what I could be. I'm definetly not who I want to be,
                    but I'm sure not who I used to be!

                    There is no pit so deep that God's love is not deeper still.

                    "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME." Phil 4:13

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                      #11
                      Wine into Water

                      I have ordered that from Amazon! It should be here any day now. Its coming from America so its going to take a while. Looking forward to it even more now. ps Its bedtime here in Ireland so heading off now.Goodnight.Maybe talk 2u 2moro Akagirl.
                      I am a sobriety tart. AA/Smart/RR philosophy, meds/diet/exercise/prayer,rabbbits feet/four leaf clovers/horseshoes. Yes please.I will have them all thank you very much.Bring them on


                      There is no way the bottle is going to be stronger than I am.

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                        #12
                        Wine into Water

                        coalfire;1089165 wrote: What are your life circumstance AKgirl? Are you a single out on the scene/married with kids etc. Im trying to picture you and what living might mean for you. It depends on so many things like age/culture etc.Do you live in a city?
                        Single Mom, 15yo son, no family, small town.....to me living again means getting my butt in gear and doing stuff. Movies, dinner out, we ride 4 wheelers, used to ski, volunteer, swim......anything to stay busy. I think most of it is that is was a long extremely cold winter here. Got into the hibernation mode :H

                        Greenie, I think Ill take your advice on some projects....spring cleaning (well hopefully, if spring ever gets here)
                        :flower: I'm not as good as I'm gonna get, but I'm better than I used to be.

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