Last week was very tough for me. Cindi mentioned something recently about days 30/60/90 being tough times for someone in recovery and it hit me last week in the 60-65 range. I craved from dawn to dusk and had lots of very dangerous "permission thoughts". The next day was no better. I ended up going to bed in the early evening just to close down the whole misery. Anyway what a difference 10 days make.
I got a new job. I hated my old one. I had been in it 11 years and the stress was killing me. It was sucking the life and soul out of me. I know that you can't blame a job on your drinking but it was not helping. I used to come home at night toxic with stress and over stimulation and over exhaustion and all sorts of nasty emotions. A bottle or 2 of booze then pass out, then do it all again. The AA people say you have to change your life as well as stop drinking and I knew that I would have to do something about my work situation. I applied for a new job I saw advertised in the newspaper. I didn't think I would get it because there is too much competition and a terrible recession on here at the moment but I did. I'm only on my 4th day but I can tell right away that I'm going to really like it.The difference I feel coming home in the evenings is unbelievable and I don't actually mind going in in the mornings. I have to go in at the ungodly hour of 6.00 every morning and I really don't mind. I am actually looking forward to going in. With no hangover its not a problem. My OH has agreed to go to a jazz concert that I wanted to see and the tickets arrived yesterday so I have that to look forward to.
Its weird because I was so scared to put the drink down and yet here I am typing this in really good form.
I am so glad I didn't cave in last week-Look at what I would have been missing. Anyway to those who are still drinking I can promise you that there is life after drink.I'm only on day 71 and I can see it starting already. To those who are having a bad day/week please hold on and don't go back to drinking. You could be in a very different place shortly. Anyway I just thought that I would share my good week with you as I am quick enough to share my bad ones!
One last thing. I ordered a book from America called First year sobriety-when all that changes is everything by Guy Kettelhack. I had heard people talking about it before on MWO but for some reason I had it in my head that you would need to have a decent run of sobriety under your belt before it would mean anything to you. I wish now that I had bought it when I was still drinking. If you are at the stage where you are sober for a few days then relapse then sober again you might want to buy it. It helps you look at some of the reasons why you are relapsing. Its very good.
I got a new job. I hated my old one. I had been in it 11 years and the stress was killing me. It was sucking the life and soul out of me. I know that you can't blame a job on your drinking but it was not helping. I used to come home at night toxic with stress and over stimulation and over exhaustion and all sorts of nasty emotions. A bottle or 2 of booze then pass out, then do it all again. The AA people say you have to change your life as well as stop drinking and I knew that I would have to do something about my work situation. I applied for a new job I saw advertised in the newspaper. I didn't think I would get it because there is too much competition and a terrible recession on here at the moment but I did. I'm only on my 4th day but I can tell right away that I'm going to really like it.The difference I feel coming home in the evenings is unbelievable and I don't actually mind going in in the mornings. I have to go in at the ungodly hour of 6.00 every morning and I really don't mind. I am actually looking forward to going in. With no hangover its not a problem. My OH has agreed to go to a jazz concert that I wanted to see and the tickets arrived yesterday so I have that to look forward to.
Its weird because I was so scared to put the drink down and yet here I am typing this in really good form.
I am so glad I didn't cave in last week-Look at what I would have been missing. Anyway to those who are still drinking I can promise you that there is life after drink.I'm only on day 71 and I can see it starting already. To those who are having a bad day/week please hold on and don't go back to drinking. You could be in a very different place shortly. Anyway I just thought that I would share my good week with you as I am quick enough to share my bad ones!
One last thing. I ordered a book from America called First year sobriety-when all that changes is everything by Guy Kettelhack. I had heard people talking about it before on MWO but for some reason I had it in my head that you would need to have a decent run of sobriety under your belt before it would mean anything to you. I wish now that I had bought it when I was still drinking. If you are at the stage where you are sober for a few days then relapse then sober again you might want to buy it. It helps you look at some of the reasons why you are relapsing. Its very good.
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