Armt Thread 6th April

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Armt Thread 6th April

Zenstyle;1092944 wrote: Yep... that's it... finally the body says no more.

Well... at least we are aware and some of us are in control (yous guys... I'm still not there). I sometimes slap myself on the back for having come so far... and other times I kick myself in the ass for not having taken it the whole nine yards.

Sigh....

That really resonates with me Zen. I have been like that for many months. Problem is when I am drinking daily or near enough I can have two and leave it and think it is acceptable, which for a normal person I suppose it is. But the reality of the situation is I am a ticking time bomb and its only a matter of time before I completely go off the rails as has happened recently on about three occasions. Once we cross the line and drink alcoholically in our lives there really is no way back no matter how much we want it and fool ourselves into thinking it is possible. In my case 'there is no fool like an old fool'
There is no doubt in my mind that this is progressive and that we can have months AF but it takes no time at all back drinking and its as if we have never even had the time free of it.
Blackouts and memory loss as bad as ever and behavour that makes me want to cry with the shame.

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

Yeah it is but you eventually don't see it as deprivation. Took me about three months to get there burt I did. Also if you are serious about moving back to the UK you will need a clear head trust me.
X

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

Are u and the man having issues? X

[cymru]

Armt Thread 6th April

Absolutely KT. After nearly 5 yrs sobriety I has my first drink and blacked out that night. That was 06, and it's been up and down since then. Good months. Bad months. Who knows, maybe this time will be different for both of us.
Time for bed peeps. Been a mad day. No doubt I'll be up at 4 though.
Nos Da x

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

My dad was sober for 15 years and when back to it on and off for about 11. It's a hard monkey to get off you back. X

[expat3]

Armt Thread 6th April

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o22eIJDtKho[/video]]YouTube - Johnny Cash - 'Hurt"
I remember everything.

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

You kinda just have to look at it harshly. I am a pretty logical person and logically it didn't fit into my life anymore. I couldn't do what I needed to with it in my life. I lost my drive, my motivation, my ambition. That just ain't me. Right a list of pros and cons if you have to. Think about where u want to be and how you are going to get there. X

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

You think u didn't wanna hang out because of his behaviour this weekend. X

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

Being focused isn't always a blessing, trust me. I am always looking for my next big challenge. After this move to the states I will need to find a new focus. Perhaps I can focus on quick promotion. I had a pretty crappy start to life which gave me an edge i guess.

You can do this, you know that. X

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

Yeah, it's a hard thing to carry about with you. I saw what resentment did to my dad and I was like, not going to be me. That's why I am a live and let live person. I don't hold grudges. No time for it. But I don't put up with bullshit either. Toxic people in my life get cut out quickly.

So, whatcha gonna do about the man? Z

[EnglishWriter77]

Armt Thread 6th April

Funny how we all find Johnny Cash - Hurt at some point!

I think I listened to it on repeat for about 48 hours one 'mad' weekend :H

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

Bloody hell...Portugal asked for a bailout. Chill is leaving at the right time...x

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

Yeah, just saw it on the news. Glad I am getting out of europe. America has it problems but at least it has a flexible wokforce and many ways to pick itself up.

Aye, better the devil you know vut is it force of habit??? And if you go af, will he support u? X

[Chillgirl]

Armt Thread 6th April

Hi folks, a pop in from me before bed.
Good movie "next 3 days"

Cass - i've known bout Portugal for a while the government resigned 2 weeks ago, it's a mess.
Trouble is I lost all my money last year, would have needed to get out 2 years ago before it crashed.
Never mind, it's quite exciting starting from scratch again

[Cassia]

Armt Thread 6th April

It depends what you want out of the move really. If you are going to take care of your mum then then the economic climate is less important I would have thought. I think going from floria to Lewis would be a shock to your system. I was in Lewis a few years ago and it was beautiful but there is nothing going on.

I don't know about the bf either. I guess time well tell. X