Army Thread 17th April

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 17th April

nighters BB

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 17th April

Inchy - how are you feeling today?

[InChains]

Army Thread 17th April

Better than I was, still a bit confused and lost and all over the place btu I'm sat down with a big pint of water, determined that if I must still drink i won't go drunk posting around the place again xD, how're you doing?

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 17th April

Inchy - I am glad you have chosen to stick around, this is a great place as we are all in the same boat. People who think they know me in my town, joke about me being an alchie because I don't drink. I think to myself "If you only knew". They do not understand nor do I want them to. That's why I love this place, we have all been there and done that, or are still there, doing that. It is only when you have experienced that pain alcohol can cause that you can appreciate what people are going through. That is true with every addiction. If you are drinking, and of course we all wish you wouldn't, hide your laptop (but of course leave yourself a note so you can find it in the morning )

[InChains]

Army Thread 17th April

that made me giggle a little as I have a desktop pc xD

I've had a pretty huge epiphany with regards to my own personal addiction today, I'm just trying to work it through right now

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 17th April

Mollyka - thanks for your support. I have felt all emotions since he phoned me again, particularly joy followed by anger. I fell in love with this man and he crushed my soul. I think I understand why he did it, I just don't like the way he went about it. I was using him as a crutch and he made my year AF fly by. I have since learned to be AF without him. I had read that you shouldn't enter a new relationship in your first six months of sobriety, I broke the rules and ultimately paid the price.
I am lucky as I can see all that now and I will handle myself better the next time a fella comes around.
I am only wondering if it is possible to be friends with him without getting too attached to him again.

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 17th April

InChains;1100376 wrote: that made me giggle a little as I have a desktop pc xD

:H:H
Yeah probably a touch harder to do

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 17th April

Epiphanies are wonderful Inchy - just remember we are all here to support you.

[InChains]

Army Thread 17th April

so... i just told my fiancee i'm an alcoholic.... that was scary xD

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 17th April

how did he take it Inchy?

[InChains]

Army Thread 17th April

he doesn't believe me, reckons its a phase, I think partly because he's in deinal about this own problem, partly because I've hidden how much of my life is controlled by AL from him for the last 7 or so years...

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 17th April

I think too it is difficult for those that love us to admit we are alchoholics. My SIL is an alcoholic and my mother phones me to complain about her behaviour. Two years ago I was doing the exact same thing except probably worse yet she or dad have never said anything about my drinking. When I stopped drinking dad said he was proud of me, mum still offers me alcohol when I am with her. I think it is too hard for them to admit, Mums father was an alcoholic and she only ever admitted that once he had died.

Honestly have a go at being AF - you don't have to shout it out to all and sundry, just know in your own heart that you are doing the right thing. Of course shout it out here, that's what MWO is all about. The only person I ever told was my ex, and that's only because he asked when I said I didn't drink. And then I think he was only joking.

[InChains]

Army Thread 17th April

I hate to admit it, the onyl reason I haven't tried being AF yet is because I am genuinely terrified of it...

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 17th April

It is terrifying because it is new to you - I thought I had to be off my face to be funny, creative, intelligent (yes intelligent!!!). I have learned that I can be all those things without alcohol. I look back on my days at uni etc and think if only I was sober I could have got way better marks than I did.

Like with any habit your body will try to tell you that you need it, until of course it works out that it gets along just fine without it.

Have you had any AF time at all?

[InChains]

Army Thread 17th April

I did 30 days AF 2 years ago, since then I've managed a handful of days spread out all over the place