All is going well for me, I'm coming up on 10 months sober now - I'm so happy about that. I rarely miss AL now, although there are fleeting moments when I'm going on holiday and I feel for a moment that I'll be missing out somehow. Then I remember all the good things that have come into my life since going AF, and I'm happy to stay that way.
Looking back, I can see that my journey to become AF started long before I put down my last glass. I was building up to it for a couple of years, and it took about 2 years from when I hit my drinking rock bottom, waking up in a hospital, before I was finally ready to stop.
I thank God so much that I did stop, because even on the bad days, I can see how much calmer my life is now, on the inside. However, I've found one of the strangest things to deal with was that beforehand, I thought that going AF would mean that my whole life would sort itself out, and I would be permanently happy and calm. I've since learned that I am a work in progress, and that I will always be learning, always changing, and I will always have to be vigilant about keeping balanced in what food I eat, and as important for me, how I nourish my spirituality and my mind.
I am always grateful for the people here who were there for me, and for the people who stay here and continue to support each other. I realise that I'm not one of those people who is here for the new people, and I do feel sorry about that sometimes. But I don't think it's where I'm supposed to be - I feel that my role is somewhere else. I hope that makes sense.
Thank you to everyone here, I think you are all amazing,
With love,
Neartxx
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