I will not pour down my throat what I now refer to as a mix of depression, fatigue, shame, and poison. Alcohol serves absolutely no benefit in my life whatsoever. NONE.
Another month has vanished...21st.......never to be seen again!!.........
Time is priceless, yet it costs us nothing.
You can do anything you want with it but you can?t own it.
You can spend it but you can?t keep it.
And once you?ve lost it, there?s no getting it back
It?s just?..gone!!!......
I'm still wasting so much time, so much of my life.......
fighting my two monsters......booze & smoking!!!!!!
I'm in a trap ...a pit...which has been getting bigger and the more I fought to get out the deeper I slide in!
AND then 2 days ago, as I give in to my monsters again, with tears running down my cheeks.....
I realise....I HAVE ONLY ONE CHOICE........ONLY ONE!!
Break free from my chains by NEVER smoking or drinking again OR continue to slide deeper into my pit of despair, misery and anger.
It then became so easy.....it was a no brainer!.....just quit and be happy that you've broken out of your prison.....
The prison that I've been in all my adult life! The prison that I built for myself without even knowing what I was doing until it was too late.
So I have SMASHED free from my chains, AND I FEEL GOOD!!
Ok, you can say, "It's not even been 2 days yet." And you'd be right.....BUT.....usually after 40 hours, without smoking and/or drinking, I am bad tempered and a pain in the ass! Today, I feel good, quite calm.....I've been out riding my bicycle, meditated for 15 mins and even done some gardening, and it's not even 11am yet......in the past, I would be vegetating in front of the TV with my internal fight getting louder and stronger, until, with a scream of despair
I would go to the local shop to buy beer and smokes. BUT I know I'm not going to do that this time!!
Another month has vanished...21st.......never to be seen again!!.........
Time is priceless, yet it costs us nothing.
You can do anything you want with it but you can?t own it.
You can spend it but you can?t keep it.
And once you?ve lost it, there?s no getting it back
It?s just?..gone!!!......
I'm still wasting so much time, so much of my life.......
fighting my two monsters......booze & smoking!!!!!!
I'm in a trap ...a pit...which has been getting bigger and the more I fought to get out the deeper I slide in!
AND then 2 days ago, as I give in to my monsters again, with tears running down my cheeks.....
I realise....I HAVE ONLY ONE CHOICE........ONLY ONE!!
Break free from my chains by NEVER smoking or drinking again OR continue to slide deeper into my pit of despair, misery and anger.
It then became so easy.....it was a no brainer!.....just quit and be happy that you've broken out of your prison.....
The prison that I've been in all my adult life! The prison that I built for myself without even knowing what I was doing until it was too late.
So I have SMASHED free from my chains, AND I FEEL GOOD!!
Ok, you can say, "It's not even been 2 days yet." And you'd be right.....BUT.....usually after 40 hours, without smoking and/or drinking, I am bad tempered and a pain in the ass! Today, I feel good, quite calm.....I've been out riding my bicycle, meditated for 15 mins and even done some gardening, and it's not even 11am yet......in the past, I would be vegetating in front of the TV with my internal fight getting louder and stronger, until, with a scream of despair
I would go to the local shop to buy beer and smokes. BUT I know I'm not going to do that this time!!
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