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[LostInThailand]

Today, the 23rd of May at nearly 12 noon (Thailand time) my partner/wife of nearly 5 years has left me for ever! Her last words were...you are free have a party!

At 53 years old....I am now TOTALLY alone in this world...no friends...no family...no lover....
in a foreign country, where I don't speak enough of the language to get by.

Yes we had a row....I had been 3 days AF & NF....and the row was about, she dosen't want me to change....like most people she is scared of change. I realised, that she is happier if I drink and smoke!....she doesn't & has not for years BUT she'll buy beer & smokes for me ...no prob......

I don't want sympathy, or platitudes......I want to speak to the people that are still making excuses about their addiction........

YOU DO IT BECAUSE YOU LOVE TO DO IT!!!

Get real....you know the truth......you're not sick. You don't have a disease ....YOU LIKE
fu*king drinking.....it's your pleasure! You like the buzz and you like being high!
Take responsibility for your own life and your own actions!

It is SO easy to stop....STOP being so selfish, admit you love pleasure, fun...that's normal...just think about the ones that still love and care about you....and do something DIFFERENT that will make you happy....think about your life without NEVER having another drink......panic, panic.....drink....AH...that's better! Bullsh*t! or be honest.....
I LIKE DRINKING!!!
Stop looking for someone else to fix you.....YOU FIX YOU, or you accept you.

NOBODY on this site is down & out, including you & me, we're just looking for answers...BUT....we all know them already?.....
If you want to stop drinking, DON"T EVER have another drink....oh scarey!

Don't wait until you have nobody left.......
Good luck to us all...I'm going to get really pissed now.....
What are you going to do?
Love and respect from Gordon

[medic]

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Hi Thailand...

I'm sorry your partner has left for the wrong reasons. That's awful but maybe for the best if her values are like that in terms of the way it effects you.

I understand your passion and lack of bullshit but I think it's not so easy to reduce everybody here to people who are not homeless simply and maybe because we have access to the net, albeit temporary in some people's cases I'm guessing.

I wasn't going to write anything here but I felt moved to write because I have dependents and it's looking like I could be losing my job in three months. I have never been to Thailand and don't think, based on my projections about the future, that I ever will have the money to make such a trip.

I could be potentially homeless in the near future because of the psychotic downsizing fuckheads that seem to dominate the western world's affluence and play God over the majority. This is not your problem but please do not reduce everybody to people who have the resources to deal with addiction when they maybe don't .

I do wish the best for you and hope you are having a better day.

med+c

[LostInThailand]

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Thanks Zen & Medic for your comments.
Sorry about my vent....it was mainly at me!!:upset:
And I'm sorry if I upset any members who read my post
I've decided to drink and smoke again today....cause I'm pissed off...poor excuse eh?

I've also decided that tomorrow, the 25th, I will be AF & NF....
My goal is 7 days....anybody want to join the 7 day club?

Medic so sorry to hear that you might be losing your job and all my hopes go to you that you do not lose your home and things work out for you....I could not agree with you more about the f*ckheads who control us & as you say they couldn't give a toss about normal people.
Why don't the b(W)ankers who caused the problems pay the price instead of good, normal people.
All the best to you and yours :l

[sunshinetoday]

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Hang in there LIT. Frustration comes and goes. Sometimes it's good to put it out there for you own being!

[DriftyAlison0]

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sunshinetoday;1119570 wrote: Hang in there LIT. Frustration comes and goes. Sometimes it's good to put it out there for you own being!

Yeah. Letting it out can help. I will join you with being both AF and NF for the 7 days.