The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

[Barbara1234]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Hi tlrgs,

Yes you are right, it is all up to me. I will have to find a bucket load of tools to work with. BTW, I read your post about walking away from that job. For me, the pot smokers that I know, drive me crazy. They are up in the clouds, and are not dependable. I don't blame you for walking away..how could you possibly work for someone like that?????
Thanks everyone for your posts. My 30 days should have felt like a huge accomplishment, but the incident left me confused, and depressed.
Hill, I will pm you.
So now my goal will be 60 days AF, and hopefully that milestone will be a happier time.
bird, yes definitely the CD's are helping me. One of the reasons for my confusion, I thought they were working so well. I guess it's just ODAT for the rest of my life, and that's ok, as long as AL is not part of it in any way.

[sunshinedaisies]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Good Morning everyone - just a quick note to pop in and say hi, but will be back later - got stuff to do this morning. Storms in the night - dogs had me up! Sunny now though. Hugs to all, Back later,

Sun XX

[tlrgs]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

good morning one and all lets have a great day stay strong shifting forward and thinking positive

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Tony, don't know where you found the 'green guy' clip, but I always love seeing it!! How are things going with you? The job hunt,, family. I know you enjoyed your training, is there any possibility of at least another training class at the same place?
T, I'm so glad you had a great Father's Day. It's important, whether we admit it or not, for them to acknowledge to us truthfully on the special days.
Hill, I'm sure you had a wonderful Father's Day. If you take a second, and think about the difference from this and last year, I'll bet your memory and your children's will be different. They see those little things we miss, and there's no accounting for what will stick in their memories. I STILL covet that fence!!
RC, did I detect a glimmer of hope?? FABULOUS!! It sounds like your making headway in areas. Don't forget to concentrate on YOU, and re-building YOU first in your own personal
areas.
Biz, you have so many people pulling for you, you know. I can only imagine how your family felt as you went through the recent weeks. And how much more they love the man in their life, fighting back and winning. One step at a time, but winning.
Barb, I'll send you nightmares, if you want, about where 'family gatherings' can lead if AL is involved, for peeps who have problems with it. But you have made a HUGE step. Acknowledge it. I can remember when I first passed the aisles, the draw they had. Today, Hubs has beer in the house regularly. It does get easier.
Bird, can't wait to see you, love. I think Maddie's coming with me, and I know your girls will have so much fun with her. She's a love.
Fen, I sure hope those storms don't disrupt your tick breeding season!! Seriously, isn't it just heaven having a place to get away to, build from scratch (no offense, Mother Nature!) and escape. It's obvious no matter where you are, your thoughts are there, and I LOVE knowing you have that in your lives. Does Mrs. Fen share your joy in the place? I can imagine SHE has imagined all the possibilities for the place too.
MB, it's wonderful you were able to share with husband's Dad yesterday. I make jokes about my in-laws (and they are deserved!) but they gave me Hubs, for better or worse. I worry that with you being exposed to so much of the truly lower (and by that I mean - base, coarse, empty, greedy, non-productive, uncaring, criminal) class of a large portion of the people you deal with. I could get really into my beliefs here, but I won't. I hate there are deserving people in there who are treated badly because of the abuse of those working the system. I'm afraid it draws you down without you knowing to their levels, and that's not something for you. I'm sorry I've run on, but I'm worried you take the dispair, abuse, to heart. On top of what you're dealing with personally, it's too much. Call me, girl, OK?
Mish, we don't see you much, but when we do, it's wonderful. Oh, and I love hearing about your winter when this big country is sweltering. Like someone opening the freezer! :H Love hearing from you.
I started this post hours ago, have had to run errands, had dozens of phone calls, etc. since. GAWD I love retirement!
PS: T, remember when we had the guy fixed the downstairs AC? Well it went out yesterday. Dealing with that TOO!!

[fennel]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Rubes, I certainly hope that the rain doesn't affect the fecundity of my ticks! I consider myself to be a steward of the land and I now have nearly twenty acres of ticks to tend to. I suppose I could erect little tents for them to breed in.

Mrs. Fen is excited about the cabin, but she prefers that I beautify it on my own -then she can enjoy it!

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Fen, FERCUNDITY!! I love it. I'm afraid little tents would make walking impossible. Why not import a herd of chihuahuas? Then, all of tick's need are met, with minimal effort from you.
As far as beautifying, I personally love rustic. But amenities are important. I can personally say that finding the proper bush in the time of bodily need is frustrating, in fact, sometimes PAINFUL!
AGAIN, my day was screwed! AC out, waiting on the repairman. I just called the company I've used a DECADE, who was supposed to call me back (called at 8 AM), and they said I'm 'next'. Reminded them I need a call before anyone gets out and got , 'Oh don't worry'. WTF!! Every person at that company used to know TMB! Went through the process again.
Speaking of TMB, this morning I stumbled to bathroom and unfortunately she was having a nightmare (woofing, running in her sleep) . I bumped her nose with my toe, and she raised up howling like the Hound Of The Baskervilles! When I grabbed her face and spoke to her, she snapped back, but it WAS a moment!!

[bizman]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Fen why breed ticks thay are blood suckers and the deer tics will kill you. stay out of the mud. Where is Foeniculumville anyway????

[sick of being sick]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

FINALLY HOME!!! Roger, I am so very sorry for Sue's loss. Please send her my love and tell her I am praying for all family members. I'm glad you had a good Father's Day with Luke and Anthony. We have had one problem after another. The hot water heater went out and Paul replaced it Friday while I was picking garden. I had tons of veggies but no water to clean them or put anything up. Then we notice that there is water pouring from the ceiling and wruined some walls and my hardwood floors buckled up! The air conditioning unit is in the ceiling and was pouring water. Paul worked on it, but finally we had to call someone and they came first thing this morning. Thankfully, we didn't have to buy a new system, something was just stopped up and pouring water out. I called the insurance guy and they are suppose to come out and give us an estimate. We have a $1000. deductible, but they will pay for us to replace walls and floors. I am not looking forward to that! Roger, I wish I could afford to pay you to come back down and fix it, but we are in such financial trouble. Yesterday, I had a doctor appt at 10:30 but didn't get to see the doctor until 5:00!!! I would have left, but I was so concerned about Paul's elbows, now they are both swelled up and he is in so much pain. My doctor kinda treats him for free, since he has no insurance. The dr. diagnosed it as gout! The drugs he has to take every day to prevent gout is outragous and the meds to kill it is even more! Doctor says he has an extreme case and it will never go away, he just has to take meds to prevent an outbreak! I have somehow got to get him some health insurance! Our house ins is due and it is $3000. a year, don't know how I'm going to pay that! But I can't worry about any of that today or I will be tempted to drink, so I am not going to let my mind focus on all my problems, just praying God will help us get through it. It has been raining here all day, so I haven't been able to pick the garden. After 3 days of not being picked, I can only imagine how much desperately needs picking! I talked to Grateful Sat and she seems to be feeling better, just carrying a big load, like we all are these days. I'm praying for each one of you, that God would help us all out as we struggle through life. I love you all so much and I missed you terribly! Love ya, Vicki

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Vick, all is overgrown, isn't it? While you may (as your nature dictates) want to pamper him, let him have some time, understand, what his excesses have done to him. And how important it is to follow a program now. As far as ther garden, do what you can, and give the rest away. That's what I do. Lovely to have you home.

[sick of being sick]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Thank you, Ruby. I am so sorry I complain so much! I wish I could just focus on all my blessings in my life...like having friends here I can just vent to. I don't really know why it helps to talk about it, but it does and then it doesn't seem that important anymore. All will work out. I went to the pharmaceutical website and printed the app for patient assistance to get his meds free. I just feel so bad having to keep asking my parents for money, now to pay for the air expense! It makes me feel so small and degrated! I wish he would get out there and promote his company or either go get a job! Anyway, NO MORE bitchin! Some of ya'll have it so much worse. Love you all, Vicki

[sunshinedaisies]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Hi there - Vicki - I am so sorry for what you are going through - it seems to be feast or famine. Right now, you are facing so much! I am so sorry. You will get through this, I know you will. You always do. You are an amazing person and so strong with all that you face every day. Is Paul still drinking - is that why his gout is acting up so badly? I am sorry - must be so hard for you....:l

Ruby - I am sorry to you too that I have not been posting. I do the best I can. Life has sort of been crazy the past couple of weeks. Hopefully things are settling down now. I was sort of overwhelmed here too with all that was going on here, which made me back off a little. I will try to do better just to please an old lady. :H:H

Biz - so good to see you posting more - you are in my prayers and thoughts - I do hope that things go well for you. it must be so hard for you right now. Which ever method you use for not drinking, if it works for you, it is a good one. You are doing so well my friend - you really are, in the face of what you are going through. hugs to you.

Rog - oh gosh - your life is just a roller coaster isn't it? I don't know what to say to you. hang in there - once again? you know it will all work out, hard though it may seem right now. is there any where else you might be able to get work? Dear Rog - I so feel for you. You are such a sweet person. You deserve a break and I am sure it will come eventually - love and hugs rog XXX

Barb - you are doing SO well. I totally understand the feelings re the 30 days leaving you confused - my 30 days had me feeling the same way. i couldn't understand why I didn't feel wonderful! i think we all have different feelings about Al and that it affects us all in different ways - it takes longer for some than others. just hang in there - where you are is awesome.

MB - I hope all is going well with you - feel bad that I haven't been in touch - so much going on with me my end - but know you are in my thoughts. :l:l

Bird - so exciting for you to be going to Ruby's - when are you leaving? I think you and the children will have so much fun there. You will have to keep us posted.

Fen - love that you are supposed to get the place ready for Mrs fen!!! Do you want to come and clean my place up too????

Need to get going everyone - back again later - but have caught up a bit anyway

Hugs and love, sun XXX

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

Hi Peeps...I am home.
Ruby I love you so much for thinking of me......You are so right about sinking to their level, but it actually gives me strength and makes me realize what I DO have. Soomedays I deserve a good nervous breakdown, but I don't have time for it. God doesn;t give us anymore than we can handle. I listen to the Joyce Meyer's CD's Vick sent me every day in my car to and from work and they help....
Good to see everyone and Sun you arae in my thoughts too, love
Be strong Biz....I know you are struggling
Hugs and kisses to everyone else...I love each and every one of you!!

[fennel]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

rubywillow;1134553 wrote: Fen, FERCUNDITY!! I love it. I'm afraid little tents would make walking impossible. Why not import a herd of chihuahuas? Then, all of tick's need are met, with minimal effort from you.
As far as beautifying, I personally love rustic. But amenities are important. I can personally say that finding the proper bush in the time of bodily need is frustrating, in fact, sometimes PAINFUL!
AGAIN, my day was screwed! AC out, waiting on the repairman. I just called the company I've used a DECADE, who was supposed to call me back (called at 8 AM), and they said I'm 'next'. Reminded them I need a call before anyone gets out and got , 'Oh don't worry'. WTF!! Every person at that company used to know TMB! Went through the process again.
Speaking of TMB, this morning I stumbled to bathroom and unfortunately she was having a nightmare (woofing, running in her sleep) . I bumped her nose with my toe, and she raised up howling like the Hound Of The Baskervilles! When I grabbed her face and spoke to her, she snapped back, but it WAS a moment!!

Rubes! I guess I didn't mention...we have a TERLET there now!!! :H No more brambles, etc.

The place is still pretty basic, but I'm an excellent painter and have chosen some warm colors to paint the interior. I may also paint a mural up in the art spa/loft. I have a way of making a place pretty and cozy, so Mrs. Fen has a cattle prod at my tail urging me to get on with it!

Oh...and I think I would have wet myself if TMB took a snap at me in the wee (pun intended) hours.

[fennel]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

bizman;1134568 wrote: Fen why breed ticks thay are blood suckers and the deer tics will kill you. stay out of the mud. Where is Foeniculumville anyway????

I know, Biz...I should set out tick traps! I haven't seen a deer tick there yet, thank goodness. The latin name for fennel is Foeniculum, so that's why I put it as my place of residence. I'm really in WI.

[fennel]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for june

sick of being sick;1134598 wrote: FINALLY HOME!!! Roger, I am so very sorry for Sue's loss. Please send her my love and tell her I am praying for all family members. I'm glad you had a good Father's Day with Luke and Anthony. We have had one problem after another. The hot water heater went out and Paul replaced it Friday while I was picking garden. I had tons of veggies but no water to clean them or put anything up. Then we notice that there is water pouring from the ceiling and wruined some walls and my hardwood floors buckled up! The air conditioning unit is in the ceiling and was pouring water. Paul worked on it, but finally we had to call someone and they came first thing this morning. Thankfully, we didn't have to buy a new system, something was just stopped up and pouring water out. I called the insurance guy and they are suppose to come out and give us an estimate. We have a $1000. deductible, but they will pay for us to replace walls and floors. I am not looking forward to that! Roger, I wish I could afford to pay you to come back down and fix it, but we are in such financial trouble. Yesterday, I had a doctor appt at 10:30 but didn't get to see the doctor until 5:00!!! I would have left, but I was so concerned about Paul's elbows, now they are both swelled up and he is in so much pain. My doctor kinda treats him for free, since he has no insurance. The dr. diagnosed it as gout! The drugs he has to take every day to prevent gout is outragous and the meds to kill it is even more! Doctor says he has an extreme case and it will never go away, he just has to take meds to prevent an outbreak! I have somehow got to get him some health insurance! Our house ins is due and it is $3000. a year, don't know how I'm going to pay that! But I can't worry about any of that today or I will be tempted to drink, so I am not going to let my mind focus on all my problems, just praying God will help us get through it. It has been raining here all day, so I haven't been able to pick the garden. After 3 days of not being picked, I can only imagine how much desperately needs picking! I talked to Grateful Sat and she seems to be feeling better, just carrying a big load, like we all are these days. I'm praying for each one of you, that God would help us all out as we struggle through life. I love you all so much and I missed you terribly! Love ya, Vicki

Awww, Vick...
Paul understands that there is one really effective way to prevent his gout, right? Has your doctor mentioned to him that drinking is the cause? Also, does your state have a sort of health care program for people who don't have regular insurance? Here in WI we have "Badgercare". Maybe you can look into something like that for Paul.

If the rain slows down, maybe you can grab an umbrella and go out and pick veg from the garden? A little rain will never hurt anyone.

I'm thinking of you...try to relax! :h