Dear All,
I am so happy I could burst lol !!
Last year I made 159 days AF and caved due to the death of my lovely dog and a holiday abroad where it was too much to cope with seeing everyone else drinking as well as my grief, good news is I have a beautiful 8 month old Labradoodle and I haven`t booked a holiday abroad this year and won`t be either
Today is my 159 day of this year without AL and I feel as if I have achieved a major
goal as I didn`t think I would ever get off the merrygo around of AL after my 8 month fest, some say the first day is the easiest and the rest is hard but to me starting Day 1 was the hardest and once that was done I knew the rest would follow.
Last year I found it easier to achieve 159 days but this time around it has been a battle and each day has been different, I can go from not thinking about it too much to moments of madness of wanting to cave and was a mere whisper from doing so, as it stands at the moment I am getting better with every day that passes and I hope it continues in this way too.
Last night my DH who was my drinking buddy for 14 years and still does everynight like a fish lol, had his Birthday meal which is always a drinks fest, last year I was drinking with him and his friends at the meal and helping myself to my secret stash of vodka in my closet but this year they all drank to excess and I stuck to soft drinks, did I enjoy it without drink yes I did, did I enjoy it more without a drink yes I probably did and I didn`t think I would ever say that.
I was happy that I didn`t start to mess up my words, I was happy to walk out and not stumble, I didn`t have to keep nipping upstairs for a top up and I most certainly was happy to be the only one without a hangover today yipee.
I am very very grateful to everyone on MWO for their encouragement be it personally or just by reading other peoples stories and of course to those by PM who inspired me or just picked me up when I`m feeling blue, this site has been the best place I could ever have found and has been instrumental in my sucess.
As for my new goal it is just to keep on being AF for as long as I can possibly can, I have no desire or intention to Mod as I can`t, one sip and I`m doomed its a simple as that, so to anyone who thinks it can`t be done it can, I was a terrible alchy, it was on my mind 24/7 and now I feel unburdoned and for that I feel truely grateful.
Luv Flossie x
I am so happy I could burst lol !!
Last year I made 159 days AF and caved due to the death of my lovely dog and a holiday abroad where it was too much to cope with seeing everyone else drinking as well as my grief, good news is I have a beautiful 8 month old Labradoodle and I haven`t booked a holiday abroad this year and won`t be either
Today is my 159 day of this year without AL and I feel as if I have achieved a major
goal as I didn`t think I would ever get off the merrygo around of AL after my 8 month fest, some say the first day is the easiest and the rest is hard but to me starting Day 1 was the hardest and once that was done I knew the rest would follow.
Last year I found it easier to achieve 159 days but this time around it has been a battle and each day has been different, I can go from not thinking about it too much to moments of madness of wanting to cave and was a mere whisper from doing so, as it stands at the moment I am getting better with every day that passes and I hope it continues in this way too.
Last night my DH who was my drinking buddy for 14 years and still does everynight like a fish lol, had his Birthday meal which is always a drinks fest, last year I was drinking with him and his friends at the meal and helping myself to my secret stash of vodka in my closet but this year they all drank to excess and I stuck to soft drinks, did I enjoy it without drink yes I did, did I enjoy it more without a drink yes I probably did and I didn`t think I would ever say that.
I was happy that I didn`t start to mess up my words, I was happy to walk out and not stumble, I didn`t have to keep nipping upstairs for a top up and I most certainly was happy to be the only one without a hangover today yipee.
I am very very grateful to everyone on MWO for their encouragement be it personally or just by reading other peoples stories and of course to those by PM who inspired me or just picked me up when I`m feeling blue, this site has been the best place I could ever have found and has been instrumental in my sucess.
As for my new goal it is just to keep on being AF for as long as I can possibly can, I have no desire or intention to Mod as I can`t, one sip and I`m doomed its a simple as that, so to anyone who thinks it can`t be done it can, I was a terrible alchy, it was on my mind 24/7 and now I feel unburdoned and for that I feel truely grateful.
Luv Flossie x
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