Geekteeth's Journey

[rubywillow]

Geekteeth's Journey

GT, you've got lots of supporters here, including me. :hug:

[Geekteeth]

Geekteeth's Journey

Thank you both! Will post 2 moz about how the therapy session goes!

[rubywillow]

Geekteeth's Journey

Hanging in there, Geek??

[Geekteeth]

Geekteeth's Journey

Ruby...hey! Doing good thanks. Had my one to one therapy session today, felt great to get everything g off my chest, it's amazing to just lay it all out can relive so much tension. They also gave me ear accupunture, apparently it can help with carvings and also help with insomnia which I suffer with a lot. So we shall see if I get a good nights kip. Feel very relaxed though. They also hold meetings there called smart recovery, it's supposed to help you with tools to help you in your battle and move forward, as opposed to aa's approach where they just want you to dwell on the fact that you are an hopeless alcoholic. So all in all I very productive day!

[Geekteeth]

Geekteeth's Journey

Hey. Well today I had my second session with my therapist. Just talking to her on a one to one basis has really helped. I can tell her things I would never dream of telling anyone else, so it is really helping me open up. Had my ear acupuncture again and believe me it really does relax you. Bit painful when it first goes in but worth it. Kinda makes you feel like you are a bit stoned(lol, got home last week and my mum would not belive me when I said I had not been smoking!) also, she has implanted magnets in my ear in the same area as the needles and these have telhe same affect but not as intense, they stay in for 4 days. Also whilst talking to her, we kind of had a light bulb moment as to what maybe the underlying reason why I do drink.....my father passed away 5 years ago and he was only 55....will go into it another time me thinks. So all in all progress is being made and I am feeling good. I have also signed up to a drama class which starts in October. I thought it would be fun, and it will also give me chance to meet new people who don't want to get smashed every single day. Right, ramble over...sorry! I would just like to thank all you guys for your constant support xxx

[Geekteeth]

Geekteeth's Journey

Happy Friday to you all! I had a back and Indian head massage today, but whilst I was having it I started getting a craving for AL! really, what is up with my mind? There I was, being pampered and on a sate of bliss...and then start getting thoughts like that! Well I did not act on it, headed home right after which I am very proud of considering how many pubs I had to walk past to get to the bus stop. So, it's the weekend coming up and for me a very hard time to not give in to cravings. I wish you all the best for the weekend. Take care

[Geekteeth]

Geekteeth's Journey

Well all is good on planet Ben right now. relationship with my family is improving so much, and my mum mentioned that she could see life in my eyes now(as opposed to the empty eyes that so many can read when they look at you). This is a war though, I do not intend to let th other side ambush me once again, so I need to stock up on ammo an gun them down when they start to get close! I do not intend to walk into no mans land once again. I hope you are all having a fantastic weekend! Ben

[red67]

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Great job Ben. Keep fighting and I promise it gets easier. I am six months sober today. After 10 years of daily drinking I never thought I would get here. I am doing it and you can too!

[Geekteeth]

Geekteeth's Journey

Red that it is absolutely fantastic! People like you are my inspiration!! Well done!

[Geekteeth]

Geekteeth's Journey

Red did you take any meds to assist you in your journey? Or did you just say, right that's enough and do it cold turkey? Why do they call it cold turkey by the way?lol

[red67]

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I tried meds, naltrexone, when I first came here. Didn't work for me but I also did not give it enough time. I just quit cold Turkey...don't know why they call it that either. Its just easier to not drink than trying to control it. The first weeks were difficult but it got easier with time. By about 2 months it was much easier. It is much easier to not take the first drink than trying to fight the drinking once I started. I remind myself everyday how much better life is. When the thoughts come, I just stop them. I remember what drinking did to me and I just never want to go back there again. It took to long for me to finally want to quit that I never want to go back. I know if I even take one drink I will be enslaved again. And if that happens I don't know that I would be able to quit again.

[SKendall]

Geekteeth's Journey

Good Job Ben. You are doing great, keep it up!

[Goldie_Aloe]

Geekteeth's Journey

Congrats to both Ben and Red. It's great to read such uplifting posts.

[Geekteeth]

Geekteeth's Journey

Red...you should be very proud of yourself!(I am sure you are anyway), I am very proud of you and you give me hope that it can be done! Sk and aloe...thanks for your support guys! Hope you are all well? So, I am off to BBC television studios with a friend mine to see a quiz show which has a few celebs on it. I am going with a girl who I have been on a couple of dates with, taking it real SLOW. I had to admit to her first off I had a problem as I think it's only fair that the person knows what they are getting into...she is ok with it...but like I said I am taking it very slow. On Tuesday I have my session with my therapist which is helping soooooooo much, then right after that in the same building I will be attending my first SMART recovery meeting...interested to see what it's all about. Oh yeah, wen to the shop today and a woman came up to me and asked "where am I going?"hahahaha! How bloody random! I just replied,"well my dear, where are we all going?". Kinda confused her a bit me thinks, don't think she could sense the humour in my voice. Any goo, have a great week ahead all. Will he thinking of you all. X

[Geekteeth]

Geekteeth's Journey

Good evening all! Well, I went to the BBC stuidios to watch a Celebrtity quiz show with my "gf", the booze was flowing left right and centre, and they're were many people making arses of them selves(god do I really look like that when I have a drink!), but the strange and most fantastic thing is I did not crave a drink at all!!!!! (still stunned that I am able to say that. It did not cross my mind one little bit. I even got up with the crowd and had a little sing song and dance, In the past I would not of been able to do this if I had not had alcohol in my system. Also the show was so funny and I can't remember the last time I had actually laughed so much! My face was aching from all the smiling! On the tube home(which was around 11.15, pub chucking out time) many people got on with slurred speech,being loud, and man could you smell the booze! It actually made me feel very sick. So all In all a fantastic night that I thought I would share with you all!