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**Kradle123** · January 30, 2013, 12:11 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

I see lots of stickers growing on my calander. :l

**tree23** · January 30, 2013, 01:34 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

I did not drink yesterday. This is my first time posting on this thread. I have not had many urges or cravings to drink, however yesterday was really hard for me. I woke up to a very important male figure in my life yelling that he wanted me the f* out of his life and that I was worthless. The comments really hurt, and I don't think he realizes everything I do for him and around the house. So I spent the day in a real bad depression, went to class and instead of paying attention to the lecture searched for a new place to live, and when I went home, tried to avoid the communal area. He ended up apologizing late last night, saying that he didn't even remember what he said but how that still wasn't an excuse for his behavior. In the past the way I have dealt with similar situations has been to escape with a bottle, it was very difficult for me not too...but one of his issues was worrying over my drinking, so now I am not drinking and he's worse than an ass? Anyway, I just kept telling myself that I wouldn't let some male f up my new AF life for any reason, as males are generally the root of my AL problem. I'm not going to feed that fire!
It just sucks because I was totally proud of myself for reaching my 30 day AF mark, my birthday is tomorrow (30th) and I am super excited and proud to have an awesome AF year and get really healthy and happy, and then BAM! shit hits the fan and I don't even want to do anything I had planned to do for my birthday (last year I had a broken back so not so much celebration) and I feel so bad and hurt that I believe and internalize the lies that I am not worth any sort of celebration or joyful feeling. So I didn't go to the gym last night because I was organizing some belongings (to move out) and making dinner (something I don't do for him *sarcasm*, or do too late if I go work out and he is incapable of either finding his own food or calling the take out # himself).
Today I went to work and some people could tell that I wasn't my usual happy self. Tomorrow I am going to show the system and try to have a good time and celebrate my accomplishments, even if no one else (besides everyone here) recognizes them! So I did not drink yesterday, I did not drink today, and I will not drink tomorrow. First birthday in 7 years without a drink! Pretty cool. Still f*ing hurts and the cuts are soul deep; time for a round of hypnotherapy.
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**Quakegirl** · January 30, 2013, 03:03 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

Happy Birthday, Tree, and well done for staying strong in the face of difficult times. It sounds like you have had a really tough time - buy you SHOULD be proud, and an alcohol-free birthday seems to me to be the perfect gift to yourself, for your 30th.

I did not drink yesterday. I look forward to the time of day, each day, when I get to come here and write that

I watched the airline lounge people with their glasses last night with a sort of a detached curiosity. Wasn't temped. But what I am noticing more these days, is how many people DON'T drink. I took my son out for a casual dinner tonight, and there were tables of people - one looked like a couple of families, the other a bunch of twenty somethings. Out having a good time, and no alcohol in sight. I never really noticed before, the people who DON'T drink, probably too busy perpetuating the 'everybody drinks when they go out' myth in my own head,

**199days** · January 30, 2013, 04:53 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

No drink yesterday , cravings have dramatically dropped in the last few weeks. In fact being sober is really starting to feel good . Taking me just over a year , but so worth it.

**FlyAway** · January 30, 2013, 07:32 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

tree23;1453351 wrote: I did not drink yesterday. This is my first time posting on this thread. I have not had many urges or cravings to drink, however yesterday was really hard for me. I woke up to a very important male figure in my life yelling that he wanted me the f* out of his life and that I was worthless. The comments really hurt, and I don't think he realizes everything I do for him and around the house. So I spent the day in a real bad depression, went to class and instead of paying attention to the lecture searched for a new place to live, and when I went home, tried to avoid the communal area. He ended up apologizing late last night, saying that he didn't even remember what he said but how that still wasn't an excuse for his behavior. In the past the way I have dealt with similar situations has been to escape with a bottle, it was very difficult for me not too...but one of his issues was worrying over my drinking, so now I am not drinking and he's worse than an ass? Anyway, I just kept telling myself that I wouldn't let some male f up my new AF life for any reason, as males are generally the root of my AL problem. I'm not going to feed that fire!
It just sucks because I was totally proud of myself for reaching my 30 day AF mark, my birthday is tomorrow (30th) and I am super excited and proud to have an awesome AF year and get really healthy and happy, and then BAM! shit hits the fan and I don't even want to do anything I had planned to do for my birthday (last year I had a broken back so not so much celebration) and I feel so bad and hurt that I believe and internalize the lies that I am not worth any sort of celebration or joyful feeling. So I didn't go to the gym last night because I was organizing some belongings (to move out) and making dinner (something I don't do for him *sarcasm*, or do too late if I go work out and he is incapable of either finding his own food or calling the take out # himself).
Today I went to work and some people could tell that I wasn't my usual happy self. Tomorrow I am going to show the system and try to have a good time and celebrate my accomplishments, even if no one else (besides everyone here) recognizes them! So I did not drink yesterday, I did not drink today, and I will not drink tomorrow. First birthday in 7 years without a drink! Pretty cool. Still f*ing hurts and the cuts are soul deep; time for a round of hypnotherapy.
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He doesn't remember what he said because...? Was he drinking himself?

You and you alone are responsible for making yourself happy or sad. Is it true what he said about you? If it's not true than the only thing you need to worry about is whether or not you want to continue to live with a volatile person like him. You are just fine. And you have every reason to be happy and proud of yourself for what you've accomplished. Don't use another person's assholery as an excuse to derail yourself. You are as worthy as any other human being on this planet. Treat yourself with the respect you'd give anyone else and the respect you deserve.

I hope you have a wonderful birthday and many kudos for remaining alcohol free! :l

**FlyAway** · January 30, 2013, 07:35 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

Forgot to add that I didn't drink yesterday.

**paulywogg** · January 30, 2013, 08:06 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

i didnt drink yesterday

**Hippyman** · January 30, 2013, 08:07 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

Well done! It gets better and better :goodjob:

199days;1453400 wrote:

No drink yesterday , cravings have dramatically dropped in the last few weeks. In fact being sober is really starting to feel good . Taking me just over a year , but so worth it.

**Kradle123** · January 30, 2013, 08:59 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TREE!
:bday7:

I hope you can do something really silly today like...go to build a bear or buy something from the Disney store or maybe go to the zoo

I am really sorry that man has said those awful things to you. My husband has said things like that to me...and worse I'm ashamed to say. But we have children and because I have the AL problem, I stay because I see it as my fault...

Wish I were There to help you pack. :l

**Frequent Traveler** · January 30, 2013, 10:49 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

I did not drink or smoke yesterday.
FT

**DriftyAlison0** · January 30, 2013, 11:00 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

Didn't drink last night and this morning school is closed till my night class is supposed to start, but it may get canceled too. Grateful to not have a hangover.

**K9Lover** · January 30, 2013, 01:12 PM

I did not drink yesterday.

Tree - First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY :bday3:
Second, I drank AT someone for years....the only person it hurt was ME. I know it's easier said than done, but don't let anybody derail you. YOU deserve this. We are here for you and think you're a pretty darn great person! :l:l

I did not drink OR smoke yesterday!

**nicelife** · January 30, 2013, 03:30 PM

I did not drink yesterday.

Happy Birthday Tree!!! :l

Make this birthday celebration a celebration of YOU and your recent AF achievement! YOU deserve the best and sometimes we just have to make that happen by honouring ourselves. Put yourself and the life you want first!!!!

I've been sober for a long time now and previously for over 6 years.... BUT last night I just wanted to stick my head in a bucket of grog and gulp! Thank goodness I just humphed at the thought and got on with things..... NEVER EVER think you've won this fight forever.........

I did not drink yesterday.

**tree23** · January 31, 2013, 02:13 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

Thanks for the birthday wishes and the advice. I am staying strong and the worst has passed. Thanks for the support; it was very nice to have when there was no one else to go to really. The community here is part of what makes this site and this program sooo valuable!
Merci Mille Fois!
- 33 days AF I did not drink yesterday, nor today!

**Persephone1** · January 31, 2013, 02:31 AM

I did not drink yesterday.

Happy Birthday to you! :l:wd::happy::yay: (Belated, I'm sorry)

I hope you were able to celebrate and enjoy yourself :h

Cheers, I did not drink yesterday.

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