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[mama bear]

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Oh hunny....back in the saddle......a place you LOVE to be....

[mario]

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Hi sunny welcome back.

You know what you need to do and you know you will have lots of support here, go for it your so worth it.

[Guitarista]

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Hi GG,

Good to see you.

Can you not remember yourself to take the antabuse if that med's still part of your plan? Or pin up a huge calender where you'll see it every day as a reminder, or a diary that you'll look at daily? Getting someone to remind us is a great back-up, but i reckon this battle requires us to be more 'hardcore' in our approach, and rely on ourselves to do the job.

Best wishes on your journey.

G-bloke.

[sunshine_gg]

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You're absolutely right, Mr. G.
But since it hasn't worked for me the way I was going at it, I'm making a change. It won't be forever, of course... but for right now it might be what I need to be accountable.

[spedteach]

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Sunshine,
Welcome back. I too have recently returned to these forums. I have taken Antabuse on and off for years and I have played so many games with it. Like if I take half a pill on Friday, I got so I could calculate exactly when I could drink without having a reaction. I would only take it when I felt like I was going to be in a vulnerable situation. Now I take half a tablet every other day religiously. I take with my calcium, thyroid, omega 3's, etc. I don't think about it anymore; I just take it.
For a period of time I asked my husband to dole it out for me and make sure I took it. That didn't work for long. It's not his problem nor his responsibility. This sobriety gig is my thing.
Good luck.

[sunshine_gg]

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spedteach;1179922 wrote: Sunshine,
Welcome back. I too have recently returned to these forums. I have taken Antabuse on and off for years and I have played so many games with it. Like if I take half a pill on Friday, I got so I could calculate exactly when I could drink without having a reaction. I would only take it when I felt like I was going to be in a vulnerable situation. Now I take half a tablet every other day religiously. I take with my calcium, thyroid, omega 3's, etc. I don't think about it anymore; I just take it.
For a period of time I asked my husband to dole it out for me and make sure I took it. That didn't work for long. It's not his problem nor his responsibility. This sobriety gig is my thing.
Good luck.

Hmm.. now you got me thinking if I should even ask him.....
Of course, you're right.. it's nobody's responsibility but ours...

[PHOTOGIRL]

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:lOh, Sunshine ... I feel for you but I also know from your past posts that you are strong. When I first found MWO your's were one of the first threads and posts that I really noticed. You were always there in the newbies nest making sure everybody felt at home. Keep strong, :rays:and don't give yourself a hard time.

Do what we all of us here do best - pick yourself up, dust yourself down and climb back up again because if you don't climb up, you may as well stay down and you know, in your heart of hearts, you don't want to stay down there forever. Good Luck!!!:l

[sunshine_gg]

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Thank you, Photogirl :l
I'm so glad you felt right at home in the nest! That's where many of us landed first

I'm definitely picking up the pieces here - there's no question about it. And, how are you doing?

[PHOTOGIRL]

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Do you know what, Sunshine, not too bad at all. Started taking Baclofen on 1st September with a view to getting through until my 45th birthday on 7/10 without having a drink. Well - haven't achieved quite that, but, more importantly, what I have achieved is 15 out of 20 days AF (a real record for me, even when I was pregnant I don't think I clocked up that in one fair swoop which is nothing to be proud of). And on the 5 days that I have had a drink, on the 4 of those I only had a maximum of 2 drinks and only on 1 day did I have anything like a "normal" amount for me on a Saturday night.
So, for me, that's a REEEE-SULT!
The Baclofen has been brilliant as even when I've had those drinks .... I wasn't getting the "high" that I used to. So why did I have them you may ask??? Habit with a capital H and that's the devil we're all dealing with.
Have you tried Bac? Silly question probably if you're now down the road of Antabuse but for me this has definitely dulled the high of AL.
I know I've never wanted to stop, full-stop. What I did want to do was stop the secret drinking that I had got into a rut doing (my SSOV (secret stash of vodka!) was my lifeline in my untility room .... I did a lot of washing for a looooooooonnnnngggg time!!!). So, my SSOV has gone and so far I don't want to replenish it. I never, though, count those little chickens before they hatch because that's when AL catches us all out.
If I can now change my Habit to being 5 days AL free, and only having a couple of glasses of wine at the weekend, then that will be great because if I tell myself I can have those on a Saturday/Sunday, then I'm hoping that as that Habit grows ..... I may think "actually, I"m not bothered about having any". If, though, I try and go completely AF - that's RRS (Red Rag Syndrome) so there's no point in even going there.
Anyway, Hun, so glad you're picking up the pieces. I'm sure that little tail is no longer between your legs!:l:l:l