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[RingingCedars]

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And the time has come to not count Niner! You are a bit different time zone and work too. Get into chat when you kersnaffle that lappie girl. Deteroo and yoooo can talk for ages! Tis all good. Good to see you girl! xo

[sunshine_gg]

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Happy Birthday, K9!!

Have a wonderful year!!!!

[DriftyAlison0]

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windy;1195283 wrote: Hi K9 Lover,

:goodjob:

Good job in getting all the booze and cigs out of the house and refilling your prescription, but most of all GOOD FOR YOU for being so honest...I believe honesty is one of the most important aspects of this journey. Also, it looks like you have more than a couple of days AF. That's a big pat on the back for you!!

Thank you for reminding me not to get to cocky in my resolve. It is an everyday battle.

Looking forward to seeing more posts by you.

Exactly what Windy said. I quit drinking and smoking (smoked on and off for a week but I had to quit twice to get that to stick).

NF 3 years
AF Real close to 5 months (will be 5 months on Friday)

[Peacefull]

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Hi K9,

Thanks for your honesty, it really helped me as I was struggling with not coming back to this site for having been on and off for a couple of years. We are fighting a hard battle and can't beat ourselves up. I have dusted myself off and am ready, really ready to fight this head on. The last couple of times I tried to quit it wasn't really for me, it was because I wanted to redeem myself after a humiliating drinking episode and wanted everyone else not to think how awful I was. This time I am quitting for me, forgiving myself and looking forward to a long healthy life.

I had a sober time of 5 years in the past and that is when I truly was PeaceFull. We will get there.
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[K9Lover]

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Hi Peacefull,
Being honest is the key. I've recently discovered just how true this is. If I say to myself "I can drink a couple on a Saturday night"...well that is a LIE. I can't drink a couple...I'll drink 14. And it won't be just Saturday night, it will be ALL WEEK LONG. And I can totally relate to the humiliating drinking episodes. I think my last couple years of drinking I humiliated myself nightly, and I also put myself (and ultimately my daughter) at huge risks. Not to mention the hangovers that got progressively worse. As recently as last week I sat at my desk watching the room spin and thinking I'd give my right arm if I could just go home and lay down! And it's not like I'd had "fun" the night before drinking. No, I was sitting home alone on my couch drinking...that's really sad when you think about it.

So please do NOT beat yourself up or focus unnecessarily on the past. Concentrate on today, and what you can do to stay sober. You've done it for 5 year (which is amazing!!) and you admitted that was when you were truly at peace.... you CAN do it again, and we're here to help!

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K9

[Meech]

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Welcome back K9. And welcome back to you too Peaceful.

I too have tried to kid myself into thinking I can moderate and just have a few. Just because the last 1000 times I did that I failed it will be different this time? Not a chance.

We REALLY REALLY need to never drink again. We will never be in control of alcohol except when we DON'T PICK UP THE FIRST DRINK.

Here's to a sober clear headed day!

[Dewdrop]

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It's good to see you back K9 and Happy Birthday too this is probably the best birthday present you could give yourself. Take care of yourself and your little girl you both have so much to look forward to.

Dewdrop :h

[Bella]

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i just read wot u said. is that u in the photo.? how sad that your sad enough to drink so much...yr gorgeous. Im pretty good looking like u and am a massive drinker too.its so hard...life. wot can be done...man.. i ask myself everyday. anyway...good luck to u. pm me if u fancy..i will reply. Bella xx

[K9Lover]

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Hi Bella,
I sent you a PM. Also, yes that is me in the picture, and thank you for the compliment. Alcohol doesn't care what we look like! I wouldn't classify myself as sad so much, maybe just lonely from time to time. But that's life, and I need to deal with life as it comes...because when I drink out of lonliness, I accomplish nothing but wasting money, hurting my liver and lungs, embarrassing myself, waking up with a hangover, and still being...lonely. Hang in there Bella, and let me know if I can help you.
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K9