The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

[Mish]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

I was going to post a new thread called "A Horrible AdMishn" but I chickened out and just came here.
9 days short of a year sober and I blew it!
Big time. Spent Tuesday afternoon till Thursday afternoon consuming 4 litres of unwooded chardonay. Yes, that's right folks, 4 litres.

I didn't get to the point where I didn't know what I was doing, nor have any blackouts, I was just doing the drink, sleep, drink, sleep thing. Frustrated at not getting my tabbies and being vague and disorganised, I just dropped my bundle and went and bought a cask.

Not happy with myself, and the withdrawals Thursday night and Friday, right through until yesterday morning were a foul reminder of why I stopped drinking and didn't start again seriously until nine days short of the year. So, def going completely AF for a couple of months, maybe longer. Now, when I finish this post I'm going to be changing my signature.

Fake Lawn is roll on look alike lawn that doesn't need watering, mowing or weeding (well, the odd one pops up but I get 'em as soon as they appear). Living in WA where there are water shortages and every drop counts is one way of having a nice garden while thinking responsibly about the water supply. It stays down all year, so storage isn't an issue. It's becoming more popular as people are becoming more aware of the serious need to conserve our water.

Cycads put out new plants from the "Mother" plant, and are called 'pups.'
This is one of my pups shooting out new growth...my first success and I was on a bender and missed it. Lucky it didn't die because I wasn't watering the garden.
OK, :sofa: off to change my signature, folks. Attached files [img]/converted_files/1716804=6489-attachment.jpg[/img]

[bird]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Hi all
Gosh Mish, seems like its hard around certain milestones. I made 6 months once and sort of expected some big changes in my life, but it was just the same ol, just without beer and I started drinking again.....Rubes glad you had fun, I could not handle a lot of peeps like that.....one of my kids drining me crazy lately, really has her nose in the air, I feel like running away......been busy making mallets and drumsticks and drums and stuff for my drum circle job coming up in Jan..Hope it goes over well, it is a lot of work getting ready for it....well off to do homework...

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Oh Mishy...dang it all, huh?? I am gald you are ok....when are you going to get your "tabbies"
Was it worth it? I know it never is for me. Remember....we are all here for you. And...we have all been where you are. Almost a year is fabulous...hold on to that....
Georgie...I am sorry your family has disappointed you...I know how that hurts. I always turn to my hubs and kids and my family here when my Mom hurts me....
Rubes..get some rest
Kells...we want pictures!!! ANd tell Vicky to go read all her birthday wishes...I think I started her thread a little early, but that's ok....and we want pictures....
Sunni...as always....a joy to see you sweet friend
Rog....have a great Sunday and let us meet Smokey soon....
Hiya Bird....aren't teenagers fun!!! You are a great Mom and so involved....
Back to work today...ugh
I like hanging around the house, but money must be earned!!
bacinabit

[sunshinedaisies]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Happy Sunday everyone - MISH - I am so sorry that you blew it - you must feel devastated - but we have all been there - I got to 8 months and blew it. I did have to smile though - you really did blow it spectacularly !!!! Anyway, one good thing thing (if there is one) is that after we blow it, we can always start again. And we are always here to support you, and cheer you along.....:l:l Thanks for explaining the fake lawn and the cycads....
Jan - sorry you are working today - I am off and slept in but must try and get some presents sorted today - or I never will! Can't seem to get Christmas going in my head this year.
Grateful - hope that you are having an awesome time with Vicki - we are all really looking forward to hearing about it and seeing it too!!
Ruby - I hope that you managed to get a good nights sleep!!
Hi Georgie - hope that you are having a good sunday.....
Rog - lovely about the new kitty - she sounds so sweet - can you post a picture of her?
Bird - isn't is wonderful with kids of that age? But it passes! You always are SO busy!!!
Morning Tony - what are you up to today?? probably looking for more pics! LOL
Fen - you are back today from Tick Hollow - it will be good to see you.....
NORA YOU ARE MIA - don't make me send Ruby after you.......

Love and hugs from me X

[Georgie]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Hi all,

Mish, just brush your self off you will be fine. We all make mistakes ,it is a part of our learning and being human. Glad everyone is doing ok.
Can't wait to see pics of Smokey. My daughter would love another cat, but I fell for that once and that is how I got my dog. My youngest lost interest after the first week, now I am stuck for at least 10-12 years:upset: Don't get me wrong she is cute but I can not begin to tell you how NEEDY she is. I have tripped and fell over her twice and I am always stepping on her. She sits outside the bathroom door while I am in there. I see black tail hair peeking under the door as soon a I sit down. Ughh drives me crazy. This is why God had us be young when we have our children. T/l have good one all :hG

[bizman]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

good morning Jambers Mish same as georie says we all make mistakes so let it go and don't look back.
Well everything is calm and that is good. Wonder how Greatfull is doing 4 wheeling with Vicky????? you know those 2 are getting into trouble some where well I am off to pick up Rob and then go see my 87 year old buddy I took to Boston. Have a great day

[fennel]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Gah. Had a horrible weekend. I'm going to work out and see if that improves my mood.

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Shit fen...what happened???
are you and Mrs Fen ok??

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Precious Family...
I have a question for you. I am not drinking....but I am very frustrated as I have what I call "Brain Fog"
I can only describe it as feeling "fuzzy", a little spacey and dizzy. It is VERY frustrating for me...I am usually sharp as a a tack, but for a few months I have been feeling this way.
Any thoughts?
I have been diligent lately in taking my vitamins and I am weaning myself off klonopin...maybe even Paxil next.....I hate this and want my "normal" brain fucntion back...HAHAHAHAHA
anyway...I just wanted to put it out there....
I will go to doctor if it persists....
don't worry...I am OK, just frustrated
I even googled brain fog...and it exists!!!!

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

WHERE IS EVERYONE???
Heading off to Granma's for Sunday night din din

[ATLThrash]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Hey ladies and gents-- want to say I am thankful for you all and thanks for all your help-- Ruby-- we had a southern food overload on Thursday at my moms-- she may be a beast at times but she can flat out cook any and every southern classic out there-- Lord I ate until I could not eat then waited and ate some more!!! There is just nothing like cornbread dressing , homemade rolls, casseroles etc-- I was in heaven -- during the meal. we will skip the parts around the meal-- they were difficult and centered around my mom begging me to go back to work (so she can feel better I guess abotu me) or telling shop girls how I look so pathetic since I have not lost weight since having a baby-- 6 years ago. Anyway, hubs played in a hockey tourney-- where there were at least 3 serious injuries-- he was noting that that injsry he had when Luke was a baby was like the beginning of the end and apparently there are 2 ladies in similar situautions as I was then and he wanted me to talk to them so they would not go down the same road-- wish I had those answers but the injuries to teh hubs at times when they are at pivotal points in depression may just push them-- if I felt I actually had the answers I would talk to them! I feel like all I can say is that the same stuff pushed me over the edge and that is not exactly helpful!

mama-- I went off paxil cold turkey (as I did with benzos like a fool) but I can tell you my dad tried to get off paxil and klonopin and had exactly what you are describing and more-- there are actually loads of sites on the net about it. My dad also was not drinking and he had it big time. so I sympathize with you because what you are feeling is real! I felt fog from no benzos (which were mostly klonopin for me) for about 6 weeks. If a druggie like Steven tyler says they are hard to kick they are in my book! I think it shoudl improve but have you considered seeing a neurologist-- alot of my fog seemed to be caused from vertigo or migraines-- I still get them but at least I knwo that that is causing the fog. Good luck girl-- you are a toughie!

Fen I emailed you-- I am so sorry you are having a shit day. If you need me, email me-- not sure I can help but I am here. Vicki and Kelly I am so glad you were able to rock out together. Vicks-- I am a native Missiissippian-- you are from jackson? I was born in Starkville but raised in Bama.
By the way-- ROLL TIDE ROLL!

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Sorry, loves. Slept and rested through the day, watched movies. Read all and will be back to me soon. Just needed a break. Have had a LOVELY time with Rick's GF, and a long talk today. Something has been bothering me about Mad. She's obviously gorgeous, vivacious, troubled by her mother, but her best friend's father I noticed had 'friended' her on Facebook, and posts more to her than his daughter does. This rings SO many bells with me, and I've alerted Hubs and son about it but God help them they're men, don't really get what we watch out for. Anyhoo, told his GF, asked her to look at it, and she was immediately alarmed too. Maybe we can work together on this. I've considered contacting him myself and will if things don't change. Hopefully he's just a really nice guy, but what would YOU think about a grown man exchanging messages with your 12-14 YO? If my mind is working the wrong way or overtime, it won't be the first time. Better safe than sorry. And all I can really offer my girls is safety, protection, and love.

[tlrgs]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

hey there ladies and gents .. well had a great day and just relaxed and cleaned out shop my shop and well it was just supose to be one cat .. but we are now have two kittens boy and girl and both fixed .. and i still havent seen the other kitten but the one is so active and wont stay still long enough for me or sue to take a pic so letting them just get use to the place and oh they are litter trained ... well thats what they to sue .. so well see but the litter and food is out in the open for them to just do their bussnes ...

well moma maybe sometimes there nothing more to think about and if you are ina good mood and all just go with the flow .. but if you lose your keys and cant remember where the hell you park your car or forget to put the toilet seat down .. oh that one is me i do that all the time .. but back to the point and now i forgot where i was going with this .. but anyway if you do that way too much you could be losing your mind but really there nothing to worry about and if you worry too much you just might drive yourself crazy .. but no worries il come visit you hey we just might be room mates...
love and nighty night one and all ill get pics soon of these two cool cats soon

[bird]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

Hi all
Rubes...that sounds really fishy to me....well, I'd maybe say something to her about it....MB, I get the brain fog too when I have a good chunk of sober time in..part of the reason I fall off the wagon is so I can think things out for a bit ( I know that sounds crazy)...cool about the kittens T..I love cats....waiting for bedtime, cmon I am ready....bg

[Grateful]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!! for november

ey, y'all. I will post pics just as soon as I can and Vicki will post even more and the video Paul took of her when I came to the door.....lots to tell.

Ruby....I think there is something very hinky going on there with that man exchanging messages with your granddaughter....please ask her to do whatever it is on facebook to make him NOT her friend...and I don't think it's a good idea if she goes to his house either....please, you just never know these days. I mean, in my area, we have that Jerry Sandusky at Penn State who was such a "nice" guy and started that foundation to help young boys, etc. and look what he was doing to those little boys!!!! Everybody thought he was such a nice, caring, generous man.......Maddie's friend can come to her house or your house but please don't let her go to his house.
Wow.....I sure did voice my opinion...but I just feel so strongly about this....and your precious girls do NOT need to go thru anymore.....

I am so tired and drained...we are back at the hotel for our last night...and I've already had a good cry when Paul dropped us off....He really is a very nice man and I've grown attached to all of Vicki's family.....I hugged Paul goodbye and started crying...it's so sad that I've finally found such a good friend and she lives thousands of miles away. I swear that if it weren't for Addison I would move here...I would leave my husband in a heartbeat...he got so drunk Thanksgiving and then last night I called him and he was very, very drunk....it's just hard to see and hear him like that. But anyway, I have so much to tell about my trip....I leave here tomorrow at 11:00 so we're going to enjoy ourselves one more night and we'll boo hoo tomorrow.

I'll give my laptop to Vick when she gets out of the shower so she can look for her birthday thread.

I hope you all have a great night.

Fen....you should have come here with us....you would have had fun with us.....what happened that made your weekend so bad?

Lots of love to all.....oh, Rog.....I've written that date on my calendar......are you sure Sue won't mind if I pop in???????