I have been on this site before but lost track...thought I would post today as I have hit 9 months without ANY alcohol, wine more importantly.
My journey was different than some of those here. I tried to moderate for 2 years and simply could not, even with all the cd's, supplements, etc. I read every book out there and tried to apply each and every technique.
I was functioning, barely, at the end and needed to do something as my husband was on his last nerve. I really was not fit to watch my children because some days were very controlled but when they weren't it was ugly. It always ended with crying and hateful words followed up the next day with guilt and remorse that could not be rectified other than at least a few glasses of wine.
I went to a 30 day in-patient program. The BEST thing I have ever done for myself. I found out I have bi-polar II which was not alcohol induced but rather self treated with alcohol. No matter how hard I would have tried I NEVER would have been able to get it together without this proper diagnosis and medication.
I am alive and free of the beast today. There are definite social changes that have taken place and to some extent I am a bit boring. However, I was overly animated before so for some this is preferred.
Each person's path is different but you can do it. There is no shame in seeking medical attention in any form if you have tried everything else or your health is so far gone it is necessary. You must be honest with your family doctor, psychiatrist, etc. in order for them to help. But a word of caution - not all doctors and psych's are good at treating, diagnosing and working with alcoholics. More often than not, we are battling dual illnesses either temporarily or permanently (ie, depression, anxiety, bipolar).
Sober life is wonderful!!! I never would have believed it if you would have asked me 10 months ago....life is full choices. I finally chose to live. My guilty days are gone.
My journey was different than some of those here. I tried to moderate for 2 years and simply could not, even with all the cd's, supplements, etc. I read every book out there and tried to apply each and every technique.
I was functioning, barely, at the end and needed to do something as my husband was on his last nerve. I really was not fit to watch my children because some days were very controlled but when they weren't it was ugly. It always ended with crying and hateful words followed up the next day with guilt and remorse that could not be rectified other than at least a few glasses of wine.
I went to a 30 day in-patient program. The BEST thing I have ever done for myself. I found out I have bi-polar II which was not alcohol induced but rather self treated with alcohol. No matter how hard I would have tried I NEVER would have been able to get it together without this proper diagnosis and medication.
I am alive and free of the beast today. There are definite social changes that have taken place and to some extent I am a bit boring. However, I was overly animated before so for some this is preferred.
Each person's path is different but you can do it. There is no shame in seeking medical attention in any form if you have tried everything else or your health is so far gone it is necessary. You must be honest with your family doctor, psychiatrist, etc. in order for them to help. But a word of caution - not all doctors and psych's are good at treating, diagnosing and working with alcoholics. More often than not, we are battling dual illnesses either temporarily or permanently (ie, depression, anxiety, bipolar).
Sober life is wonderful!!! I never would have believed it if you would have asked me 10 months ago....life is full choices. I finally chose to live. My guilty days are gone.
awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, 
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