I remember it being an issue for me when I would swear I would not drink "that" day and I would get bored around 3pm and think just one drink will make cleaning the toilets more fun. Or whatever insane rationale I had - like a fun person should be having a bottle of wine by themselves and singing karaoke at 2pm on a Thursday before my kids and husband came home.
Boredom. You fall prey to the mind not being able to be still or silent or content. It can't be fulfilled for some reason and you really and truly feel bored. Nothing is as fun unless you are drinking.
But at the same time you become so isolated and removed from normal life and depression, guilt, angst, fear and so forth set in that we should welcome boredom.
The actively drinking alcoholic mind is tricky.....it wants what it wants and it wants it now. And if one or two drinks make you feel good - ten will make you feel fantastic and free.....until morning when the guilt sets in. And then the boredom.
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