i need to come back to mwo

[spuddleduck]

hello lovely mwo people
i havent been here for a couple of months..... dont know why but i couldnt... kinda like hiding behind the cornflake packet when you see someone you know in the shop (anyone else understand that). my drinking hasnt got better... but it hasnt got worse .... it is just still a bad place. ive got a new doctor so im thinking maybe i can go and talk about stuff in a new light????? hope so.

[spuddleduck]

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ive just been reading a few posts and i feel i am looking at them with new eyes.. when i was last here i read posts and thought ... yeah i know........ but coming back ... opening my eyes again. perhaps this is what i need . i know im not going forward at the moment. i think part of it is still looking at people around me (mr spuds maybe) o yeah we can drink.. it'll be ok... but yet again for me it is never ok. things happen.. i turn into a drunk monster.. a being that i hate...... but still i think i can can control it.

[Nelz]

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Welcome back Spuds!! I remember seeing you around. You left right about the time I was just getting started around here.

Its good to see you back, and good news about the drinking not getting worse. You have obviously come back so that your drinking will get better, and for that I applaud you!!

You know the drill, come on in, have a seat, post and ask away, you will have lots of great support, and no one judging you. Get started on day one, and then let them stack up on each other, and soon we will be celebrating your 30 day AF!

Here's your welcome back star
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[spuddleduck]

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zen, love the white kitty... anyhow.. yeah im feeling so positive about new doc.. its a woman... now im not sexist or anything but i feel a whole lot more at ease with a female doc... ive asked about and apparently she is 'really good'..... maybe she just listens ... who knows but that would be nice

[Meech]

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Welcome back Spuddle. Don't ever quit coming back. You are in a place with lots of support and everyone gunning for you and a sober life! :l

[Chillgirl]

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Spuds - its good to see you Buddy!

spuddleduck;1213781 wrote: for me it is never ok. things happen.. i turn into a drunk monster.. a being that i hate......

Why not repeat this to yourself everytime you think about picking up a drink. One think for sure Spuds is that by carrying on drinking these feelings wont ever go away. Quit and you can kick their sorry ass out the door! Remember how whey hey happy you used to be when you were sober. Its great over here on the sober side of life! Give me your feathered hand and I will pull you over.

You CAN do this! Put in the effort and the rewards are endless :l

p.s. I get the cornflake packet thingy When you catch a glimpse of someone you dont want to talk to, you usually glue your nose to the side of the packet and suddenly read the ingredients like your life depended on it! :H

[mama bear]

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Would you consider antabuse honey?

[DriftyAlison0]

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Welcome back Spuds. This time it will be different because you have opened your eyes and you know that you can't control it even though your AL side is trying to fool you into thinking that you can.

[techie]

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Good to see you Spuds. We left a light on for you. Keep posting and PLEASE keep working!

[Doggygirl]

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Good to see you back spuds! I know what you mean about looking at things in a new light. And I think I know what you mean about the cornflakes. This is a journey, that's for sure.

DG

[fennel]

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Please come back, Spuds! :l

[BlondeAFAmbition]

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Welcome back Spuds! Good to see you on here! Good luck with your new doc...I agree, I always liked having a female doctor to talk to. For me on certain exams, I like the fact that she has the same plumbing as me if you know what I mean . And I feel more comfortable with discussing my health concerns with a woman vs. male doctor in all cases.

[sunshine_gg]

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Hey Spuds!!! :l

I know exactly what you're saying - on all fronts. I hid out for a few months as well until I could muster the courage to come back with my tail between my legs. I'm on my way to 60 days now - come and join me, girl!

Btw, Mama asked if you'd consider Antabuse... give it some serious thought. It really helps getting those first few weeks under your belt.

Good luck with your new doctor... let us know how it went?

[spuddleduck]

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thanks for your welcoming words. its always great to know you guys are here. i dont have much to say for myself at the moment, still trying to get my thought together. but i am commiting myself to coming here and reading, if not posting, i think ive got myself back into a hole of thinking im the only person like this, as always coming back and reading gives me hope and insparation. some here have kicked the beast, others are trying, but we all have a common reason for being here. looking forward to re acquainting myself .

[Pinecone]

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Hi spuddleduck, I just want to lend my support and say welcome back. We all have alot in common so don't feel shy!