Atfer last posting in september I left alcohol behind. My need for desperately wanting to try for a child took over all urges and I wanted to be clear for ovulation. I Did! And I gave up smoking and ate healthy. For the first time in a while I found me again, everyone commented on how well I looked... ironic as I got caught straight away and had bad morning sickness, but I didn't care as for once all was perfect.
I miscarried this weekend gone at 10 weeks, went for a scan on thursday to be told there was no fetal heartbeat and from measurements died within the last 3 days. Everything has been taken from me in a simple stroke. From thursday I've been drinking heavily.. babe passed on sunday. I said to myself then time to get a grip, you need to stay healthy, but no each day more and more.
I've no one to turn to, I'm thought of a a successful business women with a happy life and a perfect husband, which he is just wished he worked normal hrs so I couldn't drink like I do. Tomorrow is my first day back at work.. and dear me what a hangover I'll have. I'm writing this here so when I wake up in the morning I can see in black and white how I am fooking up my life... it worked last time I did it.
I miscarried this weekend gone at 10 weeks, went for a scan on thursday to be told there was no fetal heartbeat and from measurements died within the last 3 days. Everything has been taken from me in a simple stroke. From thursday I've been drinking heavily.. babe passed on sunday. I said to myself then time to get a grip, you need to stay healthy, but no each day more and more.
I've no one to turn to, I'm thought of a a successful business women with a happy life and a perfect husband, which he is just wished he worked normal hrs so I couldn't drink like I do. Tomorrow is my first day back at work.. and dear me what a hangover I'll have. I'm writing this here so when I wake up in the morning I can see in black and white how I am fooking up my life... it worked last time I did it.
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