A Sober Christmas?? No ******** Way!!!!

[YouKayBee]

A Sober Christmas?? No ******** Way!!!!

satz123;1596851 wrote: How you doing Blondie ? Missed you on the Army Thead this past while .
Everything ok ?

Everything's good Satzifragous.

Yeah I'm just busy these days, reading, thinking, working, seeing friends and family all the other things. Wish I'd joined army during my bad old days. Not enough time to follow at moment.

[Guitarista]

Classic.

[techie]

Yes one of the gems in storage!

[paulywogg]

I found it! This thread is both funny and sad,figured its worth a bump

[SoCali]

Oh my GOSH Paulywogg - THANK YOU SO MUCH for finding this and "bumping" it to current status (at least I assume that's what "bump" means...HA!). This made me CRY...a little in a "sad" way because I am only 24 days AF and this will be the first "sober" holiday season for me in probably 10 years (maybe a few more?). However, more of the tears I just cried were happy tears, and proud tears, and tears of strength and joy that I too will be celebrating a completely AF Christmas this year. I have been having the "pangs" every now and again the last few weeks about feeling "jipped out" that I won't get to drink wine with everyone all Christmas afternoon and evening, and basking in the tipsy glow that my beloved chardonnay would provide...until I went too far (and I always went too far...). Not really remembering the end of the evening because my beloved chardonnay has the ability to speak to me once I get the "pleasant buzz" going on. The chardonnay voice gets bigger and louder, consuming my thoughts. Convincing me that "I need a little more - I'm not tipsy enough!". Always waking up the next day wondering exactly how Christmas night ultimately ended. Did I say anything stupid? Did I DO anything stupid? Would I have to creatively try to "ask questions" to get answers about the evening without my family knowing I really had NO idea what happened? Chardonnay, my friends...is NOT my friend at all. Chardonnay, for ME, is an evil, terrible enemy and I am going to re-read the original post, as well as my response (that I am typing now), every single day until after the New Year to remind myself of this very clear fact.

What a complete JOY and TREASURE this site has been, and IS for me every single day. So, in spite of those effing "pangs" I will no doubt get on Christmas Day, I am going to re-route my brain and let those thoughts just do their "rise and fall" (because they will eventually fall if I don't give in to them), and I will think of all of you wonderful strangers, around the world, who are also experiencing the day and the holiday season CLEAN AND SOBER. We are all AF warriors, and I am SO incredibly grateful to have found this safe, wonderful place, and you amazing, supportive people. You have NO idea (well, maybe you do...) how much it helps to know you are all here and that I am not alone...

Weird, I'm crying again. HA! Happy tears though, happy tears!!!

[mario]

Brilliant post by a brilliant & very helpful poster.

[satz123]

Brilliant post by a brilliant & very helpful poster.

Thanks Pauly for digging this out

[JackieClaire]

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A Christmassy bump.........

[Rusty]

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Many thanks to [MENTION=7008]JackieClaire[/MENTION] for bumping this thread. It is a story of HOPE!

[lifechange]

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Yes, thank you..

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Ah I remember this thread well, obviously written from the heart.
I do wonder where Oney is these days and how she is doing?