NY Eve - How was it for you

[Owly]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Aye, if anything it just boosts my resolve even more, each bit of punishment I take erodes the lure of alcohol....

[betty boop]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Hang on in there Owly,

My biggest problem was drinking to get rid of the hangover, which became a HUGE problem.

Love & HUgs, Paula :h :l :h

[Owly]

NY Eve - How was it for you

:thanks: :h

Yeah that's the real killer that one, the fear of the hangover... especially when you add travel across London into the equation.

Just a few hours to go....

[shedot]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Your not alone Owly, I too got smashed. Didn't feel too bad yesterday, made myself go for a 2 hour walk outside after sleeping in till noon. This is a new year, today is a new day and I keep on a tryin'. Hopefully you will too.

[Accountable for Me]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Try and Try Again!

Hi Owly,

I agree with everyone. Pick yourself up and dust yourself off.

Like many of us, you were doing fantastic before the holidays, and whammo - Tis the Season and All of It's Pressure.

My husband had been out of town for weeks and arrived home on the 22nd HAMMERED, with a bottle of Wine (1.5 litre), and a 26er of Zambucca.... I had just been AF for almost a month, and WHAMMO - 2 day binge............... Then after a couple of days, another two day binge.... Not to mention I made a complete ass of myself on the 27th in front of his kids who were visiting from Alberta with our arguing..... UGH. Still feel completely embarrassed. They definately think I am totally insane and will probably never visit again, even after my apologies...... (Although it was their father that started it - but that is the way, your kids believe in you and it is their spouse that is crazy - and I totally expect that...)

I am still feeling SHAME, GUILT and DISAPPOINTMENT in myself for my behaviour and lack of willpower.....

BUT, I believe in picking yourself and dusting yourself off, because you can't change the fact you had the drink, but you can change your thinking into not having another.

Things will get better!

[Accountable for Me]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Oh and...

I haven't touched a drop since the 30th of December.... and after my HORRID behaviour with the anger and arguing - all from alcohol, I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOO DEDICATED to stay AF for the next 20 years! (Well at least for a month first, and then I will work on another!)

[Owly]

NY Eve - How was it for you

I wish you all the best with that Time will heal the embarrasment and soon you'll feel amazing

[Determinator]

NY Eve - How was it for you

arg. did the same thing I'm afraid. really drank too much for new years and then it started with a bloody mary yesterday...that seems to be the place where I fall apart is allowing myself to drink to recover....big mistake always.

[Owly]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Oh dear I've just found out that I was an absolute arse on New Year's eve, I must have blanked it out. Is there anything worse than hurting the people you love? I feel waves of shame and remourse, it's tangible... what a twat

The prozac just doesn't mix with alcohol, but I can't stop it...

[betty boop]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Owly, don't beat yourself up love,

We have ALL done it, it should make us all the more positive to make the changes that we need to make.

I made a total fool of myself in front of my mum and dad on new years eve (can't remember any of it), after telling that I was going to change .

To make it worse, I actually work with them as well, and for the past three days they have been nagging me, telling me that they can't trust me anymore ... by the way i'm 38 not 18 LOL

Hang in there Owly ..

Love & Hugs, Paula :l :h :h

[Owly]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Thanks Paula :h

I wish I could send out love and hugs to my friends but I don't think they want to talk to me or see me. And we don't see each other much, yet every time (nearly) I upset them, or one of them takes it turns to upset the others...

:h

I would love to be near them like you are with your parents, at least I could know I was trying to make amends and they would be able to see that. All I have are my paranoid thoughts...

[Ivygoodluck]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Ah, New Year's Eve,

We stayed in gawking at our new big ole flat TV. You know how many bottles of wine that cost? That's what I keep telling myself. I did down one bottle of chard but there was a time when I did two. I still have about six assorted that we were given as gifts. Red, so not as attractive to me. I never drink a lot at parties but ocassionally get mashed at home. I was doing well before the holidays with my no wine at home policy. But it started coming in the house from other people. So guess I have to get back to the barren larder plan real soon.

Owly, it's a new year. It's YOUR year to get where you want to go. We're all here to support you.

Ivy

[lookingforhope]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Hope I don't get "slapped" for this...but i guess in the big scheme of things.

Owly...I also suffer from terrible anxiety or at least "did". That is why I started drinking heavily. Now, needless to say, I started taking anxiety medicine and it has totally save my life. Have I quit drinking? No...unfortunately. Did for awhile after finding this site...but then lost sight again. Right now, I'm not not sure. Just reading, listening, etc.

Even though I suffered tremendously from the anxiety, for many years, I refused to accept the medication that thus helps this. Until, my Mom broke her ankle, and they gave her that in the hospital because of her anxiety in which she got a prescription, and then one evening offered me one, after a terrible attack.

It has given me new life. Sometimes, when one suffers from such a disorder, there is nothing wrong with accepting the "help", like having a disease, etc. why would one refuse medication? My life has been in such turmoil...it is settling down now, and the alcohol use is decreasing (we won't include new years eve ). I dont understand the negativity toward getting medical help to address anxiety, which you have mentioned.

Anyways, dont even ask about NYE, lol....new year, new day, just doing the best we can, eh? Quit being so hard on yourself.

[tawnyfrog]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Owly - is there any way you could make it alright again with your friends?

[Lou]

NY Eve - How was it for you

Owly

What you said about Prozac and alcohol is soooo true.......last year i ended up in hosp quite a lot due to overdosing cause i was prescribed prozac whilst still drinking...it made me so much worse

Lou-Lou xxx