I just want to moan and vent, because ever since going sober - 2nd December and 45 days ago, my skin is terrible ! I rarely get spots, but now,I seem to be developing new ones by the day. I'm always told how young I look, but right now Im feeling old. Old and spotty. My hair is dull and won't co-operate, and well basically I look much worse than I ever did in the drink ! It's so not fair. I keep reminding myself, that I abused my body for so many years, that it's not just gonna get better overnight. I'm also thinking, if Im gonna look so crappy, I may as well drink, cuz at least I'll look better than I do now.
I've been trying to get sober since january 2004, and have never been able to string more that 2 days together, and they were months an months apart. 45 days is an absolute miracle for me, and I still don't know how I'm doing it. The worst lowest of the low experience, to date (that 2nd December),Loads of AA meetings, and good sober company is making me hang in there for now, but damn this is hard.
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