Army Thread 21st January

[Anjicia]

Army Thread 21st January

Just got back from dry cleaners and local Tesco. Not so nice here now very windy and blustery. Well on on your running success mrs A you wudn't have done it if u you caved in last night. Still thinking of going back to AA also. Going to some cleaning and ironing and cthen chill, read and watch tv for the evening.:television:

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st January

Hi Anon, if you think it might help then give it a whirl. I am very bad at opening up in front of strangers but tried AA a few times although it never really clicked for me, having said that I am sure if I checked out a few different meetings I would find one where I feel comfortable. A popular misconception is that it is religious based but not in my experience, it is based on whatever ones beliefs are including atheism. When they speak of a higher power that is whatever you personally conceive it to be, it could even be within yourself. I read a great book some time back on Buddhism and the twelve steps which looked at it from a way I never considered before. I could find you a link for it if you like.
Maybe you would like to have a read of the AA big book which is available online, here is a link:

Big Book On Line

Bear in mind it was written in a different era.
Also I have listened to some of the speakers online and found them helpful, again a link:

AA Speaker Tapes : Listen To Alcoholics Anonymous Speakers

Good luck whatever you decide.

[anon]

Army Thread 21st January

Thank you Foxy and Ktab.

I am now downloading the tapes into I tunes I would be also interested in the Buddhist approach.

Just in the process of getting loads of messages congratulating me on my new course record.
If only these people knew my dirty drinking secret.

I used to be able to run when drinking but never ever at this level and always with a hangover

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st January

Have to say I am a little saddened to hear you call it your 'dirty little secret' that implies you did something very wrong and underhanded. That isnt the case, you didnt choose this, none of us did so playing the blame game isnt being fair on yourself I think.
The only fault if we want to look for one is maybe not realising sooner where our drinking was leading us and/or deciding to carry on anyway but I think the fact that we are here trying to help ourselves and others redeems us somewhat.
Well done on the record Anon, just goes to prove what can be achieved when we make the right choices. Now I am off to find those book details.
Hi FF.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st January

Found it:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f4...ity-44698.html

[Coco-Nut]

Army Thread 21st January

Hey hey. Here I am on a Saturday! (Had to come in to work.) Made it through last night!

[anon]

Army Thread 21st January

KTAB;1248683 wrote: Found it:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f4...ity-44698.html

Book ordered thank you KTAB. I think the shame comes from my failure to control the drinking over the years and the deceit and lies involved.

[anon]

Army Thread 21st January

Hiya Coco nut

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st January

Coco-Nut;1248687 wrote: Hey hey. Here I am on a Saturday! (Had to come in to work.) Made it through last night!
Hi Coco, well done on last night and you are going to make it through tonight too.

anon;1248689 wrote: Book ordered thank you KTAB. I think the shame comes from my failure to control the drinking over the years and the deceit and lies involved.

I understand but I feel to truly move on we have to make peace with our past. There is nothing we can do now to change what happened so maybe its time to move on and forgive ourselves for our past digressions. For the most part they were probably made when under the influence of AL, a mind altering drug. In AA they talk of making amends to those we hurt, well thats fine if you think it will help but for me I understand that we are all human and everyone makes mistakes not just alkies. I am not shirking my responsibilities or trying to deflect blame but its not like we murdered anyone is it.

[Coco-Nut]

Army Thread 21st January

Hi Anon & KTAB - work done (or at least as much as I intend to do today) and am heading home again.

BTW thanks for the info on sugar KTAB - very depressing. Oh well, a bit of sugar to get through the first part won't kill me (I hope).

Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

[mario]

Army Thread 21st January

Hi ho from mario

[mario]

Army Thread 21st January

Just a drop by to say hello, wether here is not the best, for me anyway.hoping to see ladyjan tomorrow ;-) hope you are all well,

Out all day looking for presents for you all, cant find any.

[mario]

Army Thread 21st January

Going to tour the Island on tuesday, do you know the last time I was here was in 1983, nearly 30 years ago and no one remembers me :H:H

[mario]

Army Thread 21st January

Itas still nice to talk to oneself even from tenerife, It feels the same. anyway chio or chow, laters

[Chillgirl]

Army Thread 21st January

Hi Mario - you should have gone to Portugal, its sun sun sun and 20c there this week....
Say :hiya: to Jan

I wanted to drop by to give my best wishes to Stirly and to say how fantastic her attitude is and it will be such an asset to Mr S and his recovery having her around :l