There was a time when I would wake up in the morning and hop right up and get the day going. This does not happen of course when drinking, lucky to get up at all.
But being sober I find that I rather enjoy the time after waking up and just lying there for a bit, pondering the day, expressing some gratitude etc.
This morning I thought of the expression "put your money where your mouth is" for some reason. This became the realization that I'm sober now because I out my ACTIONS where my MIND was. Before I would drink and read and cry and research and drink and look for a therapist and cry some more and drink and go to AA and on and on. I can remember back in about 1998 ordering and receiving in the mail some "quit drinking" program.
Nothing worked until a commitment was made, with a conscious decision to CHANGE.
I had to stop sugar-coating it, as if I was addressing the problem by well,,,,,READING about what to do instead of DOING.
Seems that new insights come up every day. But then that is what it's all about isn't it? Finally seeing clearly what the hell is going on. I like it.
Everyone have a great Friday-except those who could be here after Friday already.
Thanks for being here
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