February Free

[Unwasted]

February Free

Hi Sharky, welcome to the thread! Tell us more about you and your moderation efforts...didn't work I take it? Familiar theme for us all

Scottish Lass - you have been through so much! As ML said, you sound great given what all you've had to deal with recently. Hopefully you just had to get it out of your system as you say, and you're on to being successful AF!

fate would have it that my divorce maybe final on our anniversary date

And, I would think that this should be a big reason to celebrate given what the ex did to you! I think someone else (maybe R4L ?) just went through it too. Nothing more painful.........so I totally get why you cratered. But, I think it's once we start making it through the really tough stuff that we're home free (if there is such a thing). Anyway, sending you big hugs :lilheart:

ML, I also ordered Antabuse as you know. Did you get a feel for how long it would take? I plan on it for emergencies, but I can't remember what River Pharmacy said about shipping time. Are you going to do AF on your own before you get the meds?

Ginger, I love your kitty avatar.

K9, thanks for being our resident Antabuse expert! So glad you made it through your tough 40 day time. I really think I've made it.........I hate to say that, but I feel it in my core! Day 86 for me...Yea!

Nora, my 90 year old dad died a few weeks ago, so I understand the aging parent dilemma. I think we made him sick once when visiting. My husband had a cough that my dad ended up with....they're so fragile, you do have to be careful! Will you drive or fly? How long will you stay? Sounds like a lovely trip.

Bird, Mama, Sunshine, Queenie (hope you're better today)..........hope everyone has a wonderful AF day!

[mama bear]

February Free

this bear is still sober
sleepy, but sober
taking antabuse too

[GingerDust]

February Free

Hi to all!

I hope you get feeling better Nora. Scottish Lass, you have a lot going on! Just don't drink today. Tomorrow will take care of itself. That's what I keep telling myself anyway . . .

I think I lost my mind a little a couple days ago. The thought of never drinking again is big and I drank up a storm on Monday. I haven't been that drunk in a long time, and there was nothing fun about it. I was really hungover yesterday but am back to being myself today. I hope that stuff gets here soon.

[fennel]

February Free

Happy February Free, all!

Nora, do you have any soup? Soup always makes me feel better, especially if I through some of that ultra-hot sambal oelek hot sauce! :h

[mama bear]

February Free

Hang in there Ginger

[bird]

February Free

Hi all
UW, think it took about 2 weeks for my antabuse to get here. Had a bad night last with asthma in the middle of the night and took me a couple hours to get it under control, so am kinda tired and have yet to make it to work..Ginger I know how you feel about that never drinking again thinking. Its hard not to think about the stuff....guess I need to get to the shop...later

[Unwasted]

February Free

Bird, I looked at my receipt and it looks like it will take at least that long. I'm ok, not drinking or anything. I'm just getting it for vacations, or situations that scare me about the possibility that I might drink. Ginger, if it's going to take that long, you might want to be careful......well, you might want to be careful regardless, but you know what I mean.

[Sharky]

February Free

mylife;1258147 wrote: Hi Sharky! Nice to see you back. Lots of good advice here for quitting as usual! How have you been? I remember you were trying moderation management last year. :welcome:

MyLife and Unwasted-
Glad to be back. Seems like I always venture back to the comfort of the board after I mess up big time. The Mod Manaegement and counseling was pretty good - all about awareness and planning. I find that I can do OK if I have a plan and goal - my challenge is that I usually don't and it spirals out of control and old habits - sneaking drinks, pounding beers - come back quickly. I do catch myself often and can correct it - sometimes too late though and the damage is done. So not sure that moderation is an option. I do need to string a bunch of days together and get back the focus and planning. That I hope will help.
Hope everyone is doing great today:thanks:
Sharky

[mylife]

February Free

Hello All,

UW - yes they said my order would arrive between Feb 20 - 27 - that means I'll have between 14 - 21 days AF before they come. So, there's your answer I'm planning not to drink until then. And who knows when they get here if I'm feeling strong I might just keep them in my purse for times when that crazy impulse hits me out of nowhere and I just shrug and throw everything away! Usually for no good reason.

Sharky - as you know I have tried modding - and I really tried it for a couple years before I came here. I was pretty successful most of the time but slowly I always wound up losing the battle. I'm just so sick of it being a battle I'm thinking that if my habit is not to drink at all life could be a lot simpler. Good luck with whatever you decide. And I agree it's a good idea to string some AF days together no matter what!

Ginger, hang in there. You will feel so much better AF. It's amazing how much better I feel already than I did on Monday this week. :l

[Sharky]

February Free

Mylife-
I do remember you had some success w/moderation. Likewise - but and there is always a but....doesn't seem to work all the time. Definite soul searching time and I do think that focusing can help. I like your thought on the battle. I sometimes feel I'm winning it that suffer a major loss. Trying to win the war but still losing alot of battles.
Best
Sharky

[WineWrangler]

February Free

So far so good for a AF 2012, went to a wine tasting yesterday, part of my job (tasted spat and rinsed my mouth out after). A lot of positive energy here on these boards and it has helped me tremendously, and I thank everyone. My GF thinks I'm a pretty boring person nowadays, not quite sure where thats going? She wants to go out dancing and partying, and she doesn't seem to understand thats not where I want to be, moderation is not an option for me. Going to go up to the cabin tomorrow, do some work around the place and take my canoe out after some German brown trout. Love to watch the sun rise, unless I was up all night .
Thanks WW

[allswell]

February Free

Hi Everybody,

I too have been thinking about getting some antabuse for emergency use. I'm a long distance runner and all of the sunblock I have has alcohol in it. I use a lot of sunblock when the weather gets warmer. Has anyone had or know of a reaction because of this? Any info is really appreciated. Thanks

[Unwasted]

February Free

WW, I totally get what you're describing. I think that's the hardest aspect of not drinking -- the whole world does it - ugh........and it's completely synonymous in our culture with the ability to have fun. I've had to shift completely - my world now revolves around quiet, peaceful things. Luckily my life dovetails with that because of my age.......but it's still very hard at times. I feel for you.......too bad your GF isn't AF. It would make life a lot easier.........hope you can work that out. Any chance you could party sober? Sounds gruesome I know......I couldn't do it, but some people can. I couldn't and wouldn't want to...........but..........not sure how to reach a compromise on that one.

Allswell, K9 can answer your question when she posts, but I think you have to be really careful. She'll probably post tomorrow. You could also ask on the meds thread - I think there's an active Antabuse thread.......

Have a good night all. :lilheart:

[NoraC]

February Free

Hi everyone. Still having my AF month.

WineWrangler - Good for you. You sound great!

Allswell - I'm not really sure about the sunblock. I've never had any reaction except when I drank after I had been off of it for about 6 days. Then I broke out in a rash. I have used alcohol wipes on wounds, etc with no problem. Actually just did that this week when my dog scratched me with her teeth. I have heard of people having reactions to perfumes, etc. but I never have. If you can't use an alcohol free sunblock, I would at least try a little bit at first to play it safe.

Well - take care everyone. You all sound great!! We are going to do this a step at a time.

[scottish lass]

February Free

Thnks All - managing still. I appreciate your understanding, it means a lot!
This is a good group and we are all at different stages, so we all have support when needed and can support when able - it works!