February Free

[GingerDust]

February Free

It sounds like everyone is doing well! Sunshine Daisies, I did take a full pill an hour or so ago, right after reading your post. The question of whether or not I will drink today is a non issue.

UW, I ate before taking it, and I don't feel any unwanted effects at all.

Have a great day you fabulous Febbers.

[K9Lover]

February Free

Hi Fellow Febbers!

Mama - I miss Bud Light sometimes too, but I realize he's not my buddy anymore. Oh, we had a few laughs together alright, but mostly he just made me mean, selfish, depressed and fat. So screw him!

UW - I noticed the first week of taking Antabuse I was a bit tired, but that could have also been just my body recovering from all the drinking. I don't feel anything from my daily dose of 250mg. I can so relate to your post. Your description of how you felt after a night of drinking made me shudder, I remember it all too well.

Well it is finally Friday and I hope everyone has a great weekend! I am involved in a serious battle with fleas at my house right now, so I'll be spending all weekend washing linens and vacuuming twice a day. I'm so sick of those little buggers, I thought for sure they would have died off by now, but I guess it's time for an all out war against them. I woke up last night with one on my face and I said "That's it!"....I know it's gross...I feel itchy just thinking about it. LOL

I hope everyone has a great day and weekend....and please someone, tell me how to get rid of these fleas!!!

K9

[Sharky]

February Free

Hi all-
Hope everyone is doing great! Another thread has everyone feeling really really great today. I must echo that.. don't know what it is - other than not being hung-over
Really would like to "bottle" this feeling and take when I feel like drinking!
SSDaisies - ultimate goal would be to have a beer on occasion.... be in control... have had some success and some failures. Awareness, strength and determination will see if that works.
Great Friday to all. Beautiful day in SoCal!
Sharky

[scottish lass]

February Free

something isn't working for me - really struggling.......

[NoraC]

February Free

Hi Scottish Lass - hang in there. We are going to get this. We really are. The fact that we are here and trying means that we are ready. :h Might have a few stumbles along the way.....but we are still on the right path. :l

[GingerDust]

February Free

K9 lover, sorry about the fleas. They are buggers to get rid of! If eggs are left in the carpet, the larvae can stay dormant for over a year. You can get insecticidal carpet shampoo or a hire a professional to do an infrared treatment, which kills the both fleas and eggs. Good luck!

Scottish Lass, sorry to hear you are struggling. It will pass if you don't drink. Hang in there.

Just woke up pondering how most (maybe all?) animals have two eyes. Us, birds, fish, octopus, brine shrimp, etc. It's wonderous. That is not the kind of thinking I wake up with when hungover.

Day 1 went well for me. I went to bed with a clean kitchen, which is unusual for me.

OK, going back to bed.

[sunshinedaisies]

February Free

Good Morning everyone! Another clear headed morning - awesome !

K9 - Many years ago in England, I had outdoor cats and had the same problem and had to end up getting a professional in in the end - good luck with it - it is a hard problem to eradicate - I hate to say it, and hate to use them but have you used the flea bombs?

Ginger - LOL to waking up with a clean kitchen - but yes, yet another of the perks of being AF ! Laughed at your ponderings too....:H Way to go on your first day - for me that first day was THE HARDEST ONE. I knew once I was over that, I was good to go.

SL - sorry to hear you are struggling - I know I keep mentioning it and forget where I have mentioned it but have you tried L-Glut? It really helped me in the early days. Just worth a shot anyway...... hang in there - you will get there, I know you will. :l

Sharky - that would be great if you could have a beer now and then - how long are you planning on being AF for before you test that out? I know it is suggested that one is AF for at least 30 days before you try modding.

Hi there MB - good morning to you - hope all is well, apart of course from your ear infections!! Feel better soon. :h

Hi there to UW when you pop in - I am off to work this morning so need to go and start getting ready -

Hang in there everyone - WE CAN do this !!

Hugs, Sun X

[Unwasted]

February Free

Good Fabulous Morning Febbers,

Wow, do I feel amazing. I still can't get over the quality of my sleep. I don't ever, ever want to lose this! And, guess what.....drumroll....three months for me tomorrow! Yay, so very happy. SL, I know you're struggling, but keep at it, because if you really want to be sober I believe you'll make it. I had two very serious attempts but just wasn't there mentally. Finally, I internalized the memory of what an impossible negative alcohol was in my life. After those two serious tries, and many other "swearing off" days (that were squelched after a few hours), my brain finally realized that this jig is up. I think when we get sick enough of the roller coaster we want off, period. You'll get there, just don't give up.

Sun, have a good day at work - you're sounding very positive these days!

Ginger, I know what you mean about your brain working again. Instead of waking up and being unable to focus on anything other than the agony of our hangover, our minds actually work! What a concept, eh?

Nora, guess you're already enjoying Oregon? Hope you're having a lovely time. Such a beautiful place. We actually thought about moving there but decided to just stick it out where we are........

K9, I've always had animals but somehow never had a flea infestation, so I don't know any tricks. I know people who have had their houses tented for termites, but I don't know about fleas. The carpets are the tricky part. I think if you just clean like a crazy person you can get ahead of them. You might have to vacuum daily and throw out the bags each time, things like that............

Mama, don't let that euphoric recall make you think you miss Bud........like a bad ex, you only miss what you falsely remember as the good times. Our memories are very inaccurate, and we are not our thoughts! So, hang in there.

Sharky, and all the other visiting Febbers, keep it going. Being sober is so worth it, and the struggle lessens!

[bird]

February Free

Hi all
Seems that many of us on this thread are on antabuse. Glad for it this week, had some drinking thoughts yesterday, it being Friday blah blah, you know how it goes. Wondering too how am I going to change my thinking like that, think it will take monumental effort and must keep reminding myself over and over and over until it sticks. Can remember getting 6 months in and toward the end of it thinking I know I will never touch that stuff again. But the brain was so sneaky one spring day and went oh what the hell....was downhill from there. Right now I am on a 10 week weight loss challenge at the Y and that is really helpful. I think I will start looking for something to do when that is over cuz Im already thinking beer pizza beer pizza when the 10 weeks is up...K9 those drops you put on pets neck for fleas work good. I used to put them on cat and she would never have any fleas. I got at walmart cheap.

[Unwasted]

February Free

Bird, thanks for this heads-up about blowing it at six months. We have to always be vigilant, I guess. I too have to guard against the "it's Friday night" mentality. We're so programmed, aren't we?! Really, it's just another day, but since our society revolves around alcohol (crazy), it's gotten to be that way........

Oh, the drops on your cat are really toxic. I used to do that too but stopped......

[NoraC]

February Free

Hello everyone.

Bird - I had the weirdest dream last night. I was drinking. I can't remember it very well but I woke up feeling awful - very unsettled. All I remember is that I blew the February Free.

Scottish Lass - How are you doing today? I've been thinking of you. :l

Have a great day everyone!!!

[GingerDust]

February Free

I hate drinking dreams, Nora. I got a few months of sobriety together a few years ago, and they always shook me up.

This morning we did some shopping and around noon I had that same panic moment - I had the whole day to get through yet, and what to do with all that time since I couldn't drink? It turned out that I need not have worried. After lunch, eight trips to different hardware stores, building a couple shelves and dinner, there was not much day left over. I was surprised when midnight rolled by without me noticing.

My husband finished the beer that was in the fridge and said he's not buying anymore because he wants to support me. He's such a sweet guy! I told him that it didn't matter to me since I really canNOT drink (he doesn't get sloshed like me), but he's determined. What I said was the truth though. I didn't think a thing about him drinking. Feeling empowered by a lack of choice seems contradictory, but so far that's my experience.

Boy, am I drinking a lot of caffeine though.

I hope everyone has a good flea-free night.

[caper564]

February Free

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My husband finished the beer that was in the fridge and said he's not buying anymore because he wants to support me. He's such a sweet guy! I told him that it didn't matter to me since I really canNOT drink (he doesn't get sloshed like me), but he's determined. What I said was the truth though. I didn't think a thing about him drinking. Feeling empowered by a lack of choice seems contradictory, but so far that's my experience.

Boy, am I drinking a lot of caffeine though.

I hope everyone has a good flea-free night.
HI gingerdust,
wow my story sounds very similar. my hubbie drank way more when i did but now has cut back amazingly. he will go to the beer store and, god love him, try to pretend he only bought 2. teehee we all know he would never go to the beer store and walk out with 2.. hahaha. but i appreciate his effort. and as long as he keeps it limited it does not bother me. and WOW the caffeine i am drinking ! ! ! ! i seriously need to find a caffeine free website..

caper

[sunshinedaisies]

February Free

Morning everyone! Caper - love the story of your hubs buying two at the liquor store - yeah right ! We all know the secrets - he can't fool us!! My hubs wouldn't let me use his car once to go to a docs appt - mine had a flat - and I missed my appt he would NOT let me use his car - I know there was booze hidden in it. He thought I didn't know!! So pleased others' hubs are also cutting down or trying to - my hubs stopped about 4 days after I did and to my amazement, has thus far stayed stopped!

UW - congrats on your 3 months free today! Really, a job so well done! And yes, I am feeling really positive too thanks - I know this time is IT for me - just a totally different feeling - oh, I have to agree with bird - last time I quit, I started again after 8 months! So we (I) have to be totally vigilant and can never think I have it beat - can never think I can have that one - i know I can't now.

Aawww Nora, that dream must have been awful - what a relief to wake up and know it was just a dream - eh? How are your ears? Are you feeling better? Fancy Sudafed being by RX only in Oregan!

Ginger - so good that you found stuff to do - I think that is one of the main problems with folk starting again - they need to have a plan to fill the hours we used to spend drinking, with other stuff! It quite amazes me how much time I wasted - and I didn't even get drunk!

Off to get a second cup of tea - have a wonderful day everyone,

Hugs, Sun X

[bird]

February Free

Hi all
I get those drinking dreams too and think I am hungover when I'm not and then realize I'm not, what a relief....I am also getting the panic Ginger. Sat outside yest like I always do and just dreaded the sun going down when I would have to go in and do what? Clean house? Watch kid play game? Hide in room and read boards? Ended up watching movie after kid got finished with game.....one problem I am having is thinking about stuff that is painful, like people in my life who have died or lost loves. Then there is that terrible pain and cant drink to mask it. Trying to just let it all go, it is in the past and over with.....well, guess I need to straighten up around here..have a good day..