February Free

[GingerDust]

February Free

Darn it. I lost three posts in a row.

Hi Nora, Bird, SD and everyone who I missed or will drop by (or who is lurking).

SL, monthly hormones made me crazy too. Since there's no outside stimulus and nothing I was doing to set off the craziness, it was not until after I was out of it that I could look back and see what was causing it all. I hope that knowing what pulled the rug out from under you will help when the hormone hell hits again.

I realized late last night that I'm not being lazy. I'm sick, but it took my husband pointing it out to me before I realized it. This is the first time that I've been sick and not also been hungover, so I guess I forgot what it feels like. I realized that I'm pretty quick to kick myself around without really thinking it through. Knocking yourself is not helpful in any situation. I know that but I keep doing it anyway. If I was my own best friend, I would defriend myself.

On not drinking, a lady who posts in the meds forum tells people to never stop quitting drinking. That is great advice. I think I found the right combo for myself with antabuse for NOT drinking and baclofen for anxiety. I hope everyone finds their way out into the sunshine (or thunderstorm) of sobriety.

Keep kickin' it, people.

[mylife]

February Free

Hello Guys.

Thanks for all the support as always. This is such a wonderful group. Ginger, I agree - I will never stop quitting. K9 and UW - yes I do still plan to take the antabuse - can't wait for it to arrive. And yes I will be sure to have at minimum 24 hours sobriety before taking one. Hopefully more than that.

I've been just feeling so depressed lately. I just keep shaking my head as I can't believe I have this problem. Of all the problems I expected to encounter in my life this one really blind sided me. Anyway, I hope that this time next year I can look back with relief that I no longer drink.

Have a wonderful day all.

[mylife]

February Free

Oh, by the way SL - I definitely think I'm going through hormonal problems as well. I think that has been a huge trigger for me. Just need to find a better way to deal with it!

[Unwasted]

February Free

Hey everyone,

Quick check in for me today. My Life - I feel the same way. I cannot believe how hard it was to quit drinking. If I had had a clue during the early years, I would have forced myself to pull back at that time. Suddenly you wake up one day with a major problem. It's still amazing to me that no one every warned me about alcohol. I thought there were people in the gutter, and then the rest of us. HA! Crazy!

[NoraC]

February Free

Hi everyone! How are you all doing? I'm still on vacation visiting my parents and having a wonderful time. Am going to hate to leave on Sunday. Wow - just realized that it is Day 15 for me. Hadn't even thought about it. Now - I just need to keep it up.

[scottish lass]

February Free

Hey girls - thanks for teh support. I had realised that my monthly hormones were a huge trigger and would map out my calendar and deal with it accordingly, I had been peri-menopausal for a while, then thought I was in full blown menopause (I was delighted that one side effect of not drinking was a huge decrease in hot flashes - they had basically dissappeared). The problem occurred when after 6 months my crazy body decided I was not in menopause after all and this past weekend I was apparently pre menstrual - did not realise, just thought I was having a terrible weekned and called it "really struggling" and broke down and drank. I think if I had realised, I might have managed to work thru it!
I am not sure if my change in status is due to my body healing, or what the heck all is happening, but those of you in a similar time of life, maybe watch out

[NoraC]

February Free

Scottish Lass - that is when my drinking really escalated. I was in peri-menopause for years and I had a horrible time. It is really amazing what those hormones can do.

[GingerDust]

February Free

Still a sickie tonight. I hope tomorrow is a better day. I'd rather be sick and sober than well and drunk though.

[scottish lass]

February Free

Nora - thanks! Thought I was going nuts - really!
Did you ever take anything (apart from Al :H)?
Anyone else have ideas??

[NoraC]

February Free

Ginger - I hope you feel better. :l Funny, I never get sick and I got sick too. What is this AF lifestyle doing to us???? :H:H

Scottish - I never took anything. The Dr tried to put me on birth control pills but that didn't work out for me at all. Hang in there. :l

[GingerDust]

February Free

NoraC;1263036 wrote: Ginger - I hope you feel better. :l Funny, I never get sick and I got sick too. What is this AF lifestyle doing to us???? :H:H l

LOL! Yes, but at least I could wallow in self-pity with a clean conscience! :H

Today is better and I am promising myself that I will start demolition for my next project. I am very confident of my ability to destroy things. It's the rebuilding part that I'm afraid of. :eeks:

[sunshinedaisies]

February Free

Good Morning everyone - yes, still Feb free!

Ginger and Nora - hope you both get better - I sometimes think that we get sick when we quit as the toxins are working their way out of our body..... which is a good sign - it means the body is trying to heasl itself after the years of AL abuse. I too, got sick after I quit and so rarely get sick!

SL - as far as taking anything for the hormone hell - I tried various over the counter stuff but I think really all you do is wait it out. I know that the hot flushes abated a lot when I cut down on the AL intake and dreaded going to bed some nights if I had had more than I usually did as I knew I was in for a miserable night. So at least with being AF, that will help. At least you went 6 months before things started up again so you know it is well on the way!! Not that that is much consolation when you are going through hell with the hormones! :l Just know that it DOES pass - truly! They still joke about me always being cold these days at work and remember when I used to go into our walk-in freezer 'cos I was SO hot!!

Mylife - when do you think you will get the antabuse? There is some stuff called rhodiola that is really good for depression - the best one to get is new chapter and get the Rhodiola 300. It is very subtle but works almost the next day - just takes the edge off things. it is a Russian shrub and I swear by it when things get me down, just taking it for a week or so.

UW - I so agree with you on the thinking about AL - you never think it will be US that has a problem - after all, we are normal people. Not the type that NEED AL. I used to watch my dad - and think I would never be like him - but then i didn't realise the extent of his problem either then.

Have a wonderful day everyone,

hugs, sun X

[mylife]

February Free

Hello Guys.

Feeling better today - no AL yesterday. I think I have another week or so before the antabuse arrives. Right now I don't feel like drinking at all but we all know how that goes...

Sunshine - thanks for the tip on the Rhodiola. I'll look into that.
SL and Nora - I have definitely been periomenopausal for several years now. No end in sight for me yet...anyway I have also noticed that not drinking helps a lot with the symptoms. Of course! Another reason why it's insane for me to drink but I continue to do so.

UW - you are so right about the lack of warnings. I think there should be labeling similar to cigarettes. The label should say "YOU ARE DRINKING A HIGHLY ADDICTIVE SUBSTANCE AND WILL LIKELY BECOME ADDICTED IF YOU CONTINUE" or something like that. If I'd had to see that every time I picked up a bottle of wine I probably would have thought twice years ago.

Anyway, glad to hear from everyone. Ginger - happy to hear you're doing better even though you're sick!

[mama bear]

February Free

Hi Peeps!!!
just a quick check in

[Unwasted]

February Free

Hey guys, just a quick check in for me........still Febbing but had a particularly bitchy night last night.......my poor husband!

Sending everyone peace and strength :lilheart: