February Free

[mama bear]

February Free

Morning febbers
back at work after four days off and feeling sluggish..I love being at home
I cleaned and cleaned too...seems to be a trend here
still AF after f-ing up last week
yay!!!

[mylife]

February Free

Hello Again guys -

I'm feeling a lot better for some reason - even though I woke up at a really early hour this a.m. I went to a spinning class yesterday afternoon - something I used to do a lot and haven't done in years. The instructor was a man who must have been in his 70's and he was great! He had a microphone and every song he put on - (he preferred old disco hits which was actually quite fun) he would sing along to some of it and actually had a really good voice! I thought to myself - I really hope to be an active person who's enjoying their life when I'm in my 70's rather than a slowly dying alcoholic - and I almost started crying.

It was a real insight for me and I feel a really strong committment to beating this thing. I don't want my life to be about alcohol for one more minute. I also ordered another Jason Vale book about juicing for a healthier life. I'm already juicing but he was so inspiring about Alcohol, I thought I'd look at some of his juicing books as well.

UW - thanks for the long thoughtful post. I agree with Sunshine it's so nice to get some insights from another's point of view! Really nice.
Sunshine - good job getting at the closets! LOL. I've got my trunk full of things to donate at lunch time today.
Ginger - it's going to take time but we'll be getting happier and healthier each moment that we're free of this poison. So it's OK with me, too!

Have a fantastic day all.

[mylife]

February Free

Mama- cross post. Good morning! Hope you're enjoying some Florida sunshine - I know I am.

[Unwasted]

February Free

My Life, I'm so proud of you for stepping up to the plate. Taking the Antabuse is a real testament to your seriousness about being sober. I agree, I don't want to be a 70 year old drunk, riddled with health problems, slogging along, just white-knuckling through my hangovers. I want to be vibrant and alive. We're so lucky to be healthy; let's appreciate what we have and not screw it up again!

[mylife]

February Free

Thanks UW - I have to say the only SE I've had from the AB so far is the "bargaining" in my head has come to an abrupt halt. There's nothing more to bargain about - it's just plain and simple. I CANNOT drink ANY alcohol! What a relief!

[mama bear]

February Free

I am proud of you mylife
where is Florida are you again??
it's chilly and grey here

[Unwasted]

February Free

I have to say the only SE I've had from the AB so far is the "bargaining" in my head has come to an abrupt halt

That's absolutely freaking wonderful! You know, when I read Greg's post on the meds thread, I was really "awakened" about AB. Nothing else worked for him and he'd been trying a very long time -- and had tried lots of different things if I remember correctly.

So happy for you!

[bird]

February Free

Hi all
I dont get and side effects from ab either except headaches at the beginning. I dont really know how long Ive been on it. I go on and off it. Maybe a couple years. First I went 6 months. Then I drank some but not often for a long time. Maybe drink once a month or twice. Then I went back to work about a year ago and really started drinking more and more closer together. Would get time off on antabuse and then bouts of trying to quit without taking it. I would really like to get in the frame of mind where I dont take it....well, I dont feel we need a lot of social time either. Sometimes I go a couple months without really talking to anyone except just at work, work related. I've been like that for many years though. I've always spent a great deal of time alone. Gonna try and watch tv awhile since my kid is giving the drums a break...later

[scottish lass]

February Free

Very quick checkin, am reading daily and hanging in - thanks to all those posting, it is much appreciated by us lurkers! Day 10 today and doing fairly well....glad the days are starting to mount up, it seems awfully slow this time, counted a few times as I was sure it was more than 10 - oh well!
Night all.....

[NoraC]

February Free

Hi there.....a quick check in for me. Sounds like everyone is doing great! Good to see you Scottish Lass.
Games starting up in my head again. Damn it, I really wish hubby wasn't leaving next week. Oh well, took my antabuse today & will try to keep with it.
UW - You asked about why I don't want to drink at my parents......
I don't really have an exact answer to that. I am so happy with them. Unconditional love No stress (except the stress of worrying about my parents health). I know that it would break their hearts if I drank. But, I don't even feel tempted there. My Dad was/is an alcoholic and hasn't drank for about 10 years. But, that doesn't explain everything because my husband loves me unconditionally. And, I know that it does break his heart at times when I drink heavily. I know that I use the alcohol to try to deal with my stress many, many times. Stress from work/from home, etc.
Anyway, I can't answer your question. It's all mixed up emotions. I would move up to Oregon if I could. So far no luck finding a job. My husband doesn't work so I have to be sure to have a steady job with medical insurance. He has many medical problems and the medical insurance is a necessity.
Oh - and thanks for asking about my ears. I think they are finally getting better. Really hurt on Sunday when I flew home but haven't had to go back for more antibiotics.

Ok - enough of my sob story. :H:H

Keep it up everyone!! Thanks for all the support. :h

[mama bear]

February Free

those stinkin thinkin thoughts can get us, huh Nora??
keep on popping the AB if it helps

[Unwasted]

February Free

Good Morning Febber Friends,

Day 100 here and feeling fantastic! Woo Hoo!! I am so glad I've stuck with this. The startling thing to me is this: a year and a half ago I absolutely COULD NOT have imagined my life without alcohol. Now, I cannot imagine it WITH alcohol. Life is profoundly better this way and I feel deep in my heart that I'll never go back. Finally, I think it's sticking - that fundamental truth that life is better without alcohol. I'm so thankful to feel this way - the mental battle has diminished to almost nothing - certainly nothing I can't handle. Of course, there's always that caveat that we have to throw in about the sneaky bastard AL -- we can't get complacent because something can pop up out of the blue - when we least expect it. But, you know, that phenomenon must diminish too because it's happening so infrequently that I can't remember the last time I felt truly tempted.

Keep up the good work all, because I promise life is better this way if you can just give it enough time. Amazing really! :lilheart:

[GingerDust]

February Free

Hi all.

Good job, SL!

Congrats, UW!

I have a busy day ahead. Unfortunately, I'll be busy waiting in line for most of it.

I'll add more when I have more time.

I hope everyone has a good day.

[mylife]

February Free

Hello Febbers!

UW - CONGRATULATIONS!!! You have been such a great support and inspiration for me here. I'm so happy for you and I plan to be there joining you in the AF life this year. :wave: :greatjob2:

Mama - I think you sent your clouds this way. Its' grey here today - I'm in Central Fla.

SL - so happy to hear you're sticking with it. I was just thinking of you yesterday and wondering how you were doing. Isn't it amazing how slowly the days seem to crawl by when we're counting AF??!! LOL. Hopefully it won't be that long and we'll be celebrating 100 like UW.

Nora - I can definitely relate to various triggers. And I can also relate to needing a steady job with insurance for a DH with medical problems as I'm in the same boat. I sometimes wonder if it's not the underlying stress of worrying about his health that brought this on in the first place. Who knows - all I know is it didn't make anything better! My hubby is going out of town this weekend and I'm popping my antabuse! That's all I know for sure at this point!

Ginger, Bird - great to hear from you!

Have a great AF day all!

[mylife]

February Free

By the way guys. I used the hypnosis CD's last night and I slept SO soundly. I highly recommend them.