February Free

[Unwasted]

February Free

Hey guys, I feel exactly the same - I've been drinking since I was 14 and I'm now 59. I used alcohol for absolutely everything except maybe as my breakfast beverage.:H

I'm determined though........just keep the term "euphoric recall" in mind.......a lot of what we remember about alcohol being positive is our alkie brain trying to trick us into drinking. If we're honest most of it was negative especially toward the end.

Ginger - thanks for that update.....all knowledge is good.......I learn so much from everyone's posts....this is such a great site......my life line when it comes to beating the beast!

:lHave a great day everyone.

[mylife]

February Free

:l:l Hi Ginger!

Yes, I think because maybe I'm not using just pure willpower this time I'm able to let my mind slide to all the problems I normally would experience and run to AL for. But I can't!! It's like I'm on a desert Island suddenly and need to retrain myself out of necessity. I read a post online about a man who tried antabuse for 90 days and he described many of the same things I'm feeling and you probably are too. He said that about 60 days and most of those feelings of missing his crutch vanished. I hope that's true. :h

Hang in there, we can do this!!

[mylife]

February Free

Hi UW - cross post!

I think these feelings will be in our lives for awhile. We just need to cope and move on - because 2 years will fly by pretty fast and I'd rather have them be AF than more drunken years wasted! :h

[Unwasted]

February Free

My Life -- too funny -- I think we xposted twice. Anyway..........

I promise it gets better, but you must give it time. You been drinking for decades, remember?! Stay strong because it is so worth it. I'm just over three months, but my life is infinitely better already. Sure I get wistful at times, but it passes. And, right, I think it's way better to struggle with a little nostalgic feeling for alcohol rather than the misery of what alcohol does to us!

:lilheart:

[mylife]

February Free

Thanks UW. I am counting on it!

[K9Lover]

February Free

Hi everyone!

We've almost completed February! I've been away for a few days. I'm on day 64 and still going strong. No cravings and very few thoughts...I'll knock on wood for that (my head will do). I had a busy weekend, and my washing machine broke...but that's life! I already found one on Craigslist for $75...so it's gonna be fine. Normally those types of things would have sent me over the edge...the "it's always something, so I'll just drink" attitude. Not this time. I've had my washer/dryer for over 15 years and I bought them used...so I'd say they've served me well!

I was all into an episode of Intervention last night when the electricity went out. It shocked me because that never happens...I sat there in the pitch dark for 15 minutes hoping it would come back on. LOL I ended up grabbing a flashlight and heading to bed with my book. It finally came back on around 9:30pm, then I had to go around setting clocks. The Intervention was about a woman that drinks to blackout point every night, so I was really interested to see it...guess I'll see it tonight.

Hope everyone has a great day. Have we come up for a name for our March thread yet?

K9

[mylife]

February Free

Hi K9! I was wondering what happened to you!

How great to be on day 64. I can't wait. And a used washer lasting for 15 years is FANTASTIC. Get that brand again LOL!

I need to start watching intervention. A lot of people here seem to really like it. Yes, we need to start a March thread soon - how about March Madness - or March Moodswings LOL. (just kidding - that's been me lately!)

Have a great evening all!

[Unwasted]

February Free

K9, I watch every Intervention - some I can relate to more than others. Great job not letting stuff get to you like the washer - 15 years was a good long run. I just replaced both my W&D.

Re name threads - we could extend March Madness to:

March Madness Escapees - Commitment to an AF Month. I thought that might keep everyone honest - in other words people who want to be AF for the entire month - not just a week here or there? I'm open to suggestion, though...........

Happy to have just about made it through February - yay US!

[mylife]

February Free

I'm all for committing to a full month.

[GingerDust]

February Free

Well, I really dislike the idea. If the same requirement existed for this thread, I wouldn't be posting here now. When I first started posting to this thread, I was drinking and was honest about it. I knew it would be a couple weeks until my antabuse arrived. mylife, I think you were in the same boat for a while there.

It just seems like a bad idea to be exclusionary. The more, the merrier.

[GingerDust]

February Free

Well, I like committing to the month of March. I also kind of dislike the idea of making a big deal about it though. If the same limitation had existed for this thread, I wouldn't be posting right now. I was drinking when I first started (and was honest about it). I knew that my antabuse would not arrive for a couple weeks. Mylife, I think you were in the same boat for a while there.

I think it's better to not be exclusionary. The more the merrier!

Edited to add: I made the same post twice, and deleted the one that didn't say what I meant as well as this one did. Sorry if anyone got confused.

[NoraC]

February Free

Ginger - I agree with you. I would hope that I could be honest and say that I drank but that I am back & committed again. Oh well - this is an individual journey and we all have to get thru it the best way for ourselves. I do want to thank you all for joining me. Tomorrow will be 29 days for me. It's been several months since I have been able to say that. I don't know what the future holds but I do intend on continuing to work on my sobriety.
Thank you all & let's kick this! :h

[Unwasted]

February Free

OK all - whatever you guys choose is fine. I get the point. I suppose that's why people who want to just post with others committed to afness post under the Abstinence Threads - I think there's a daily and also a weekly. Anyway, makes no difference to me.

[NoraC]

February Free

UW - I think you are doing such a great job!!! I hope that I didn't upset you. I have loved this thread where we all just keep fighting on - one day at a time.
I think that you should start a thread like you suggested. You are at a good place right now & I think it would be a great thread.
I just know that right now I need a place where if I fall, I can pick myself up, give myself a kick in the rear & get back to it. I carry enough guilt without adding to it because of failing somewhere else.
I hope that this made some sort of sense. I enjoy your posts and am really encouraged by how well you are doing. Thank you! :h

[Unwasted]

February Free

Hey Nora, not at all.......you guys just start whatever March thread you'd like and I'll stop by. I can always post in the Abstinence area if I want. Sometimes I think too many threads get going and then there isn't enough support on them. I post in different spots, so no worries. :l