Army Thread 21st February

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st February

Ah no I know that, I think what I am getting at is the fact of the choice to pick up a drink having been taken out of your hands. Dont mean to wreck your head with questions, you can tell me to politely go away

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 21st February

No you are completely fine KT - I don't mind.

I don't think that the baby has taken the choice for me to drink away, I did that years ago - when the baby is out I still can't pick up a drink as I sink back into my old ways too easily.
I hear a lot of preg ladies complaining because they can't drink - and I saw one at my friends wedding the other day who was drinking because she just couldn't face going to a wedding sober.

What I am trying to say is baby or no baby I still wouldn't be drinking.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st February

Well that's great to hear, well done.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st February

Sorry I am just in a bit of a funny mood tonight, what with the news here today and our discussing a program that a few of us watched last night where the narrator went back to modding after 10+ years AF. In addition I am trying to find my own place in all of this acceptance, denial and letting go. Sooooo I bet you are glad you popped in here tonight :H:H

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 21st February

When the RRC dumped me in 2010 I was so sad that the only way I knew how to get by was to drink (trying to forget the sadness). But all it did was make me dependant on alcohol again. In fact it was a year ago today that I decided to stop again (CHCH earthquake Anniversary). This time he dumped me because of the bubby I went through the same sadness but wouldn't drink because of the baby and because it didn't do me any good last time except to cover up the sadness with drunkeness.

I still miss him and occassionally I have a weep over him (I just blame emotional preg lady syndrome ) but I know that drinking won't bring him back and the sadness does go away .

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 21st February

sometimes I wish I could moderate and be 'normal' but it scares the shite out of me because I know how easily you go back to square one again.

Then I go to parties and watch people go from nice people to arseholes over the course of the night and think "do I really want to be like that again?" except I was much worse

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 21st February

KTAB;1266221 wrote: Sooooo I bet you are glad you popped in here tonight :H:H

I'm all ears KT - :l

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st February

Thank you for sharing, those were very heart felt posts. I am so glad you are living your life now instead of being trapped in a cycle of hiding our true selves away in a bottle.

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 21st February

how about you KT - how are you managing or are you not?

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 21st February

Unfortunately I hid away for over 15 years in a bottle (prob more like 20 if I was being completely honest).

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st February

Hun I am going to love you and leave you, there is a documentary just starting about alcoholism in Ireland which I don't wish to miss. Take care of yourself and your sweet bump and we will talk soon.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 21st February

Sorry xposts I am doing pretty well, haven't had a drop since last year (haha sounds so much better than x amount of days)

[Zeppie2]

Army Thread 21st February

take care KT