Army Thread 9th March 2012

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

Zenstyle;1277515 wrote: My, aren't we the intuitive bunch today...

Yep we are certainly in touch with our yings and yangs today.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

Jeez it must be something in the air tonight. Been in a serious funk all day and the little seed starts to grow at about 4pm.
I was saying to Molly last week how when people have a slip I always think to myself why didnt you post BEFORE not AFTER you drank and I know the answer, its because we dont want to be talked out of it, pure and simple. I am not judging anyone, only speaking as it is with me. So that said I have sat on the fence for the past two hours, gotten splinters in my ass and I was so so close to going to the pub but now I wont. Hope the next time has the same outcome.

[startingover]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

I think its the full moon bringing out all this funky stuff
I am a tad irritable too

[tiptronic_ct]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

Hiya Tabbers and :goodjob:

[anon]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

KTAB;1277536 wrote: Jeez it must be something in the air tonight. Been in a serious funk all day and the little seed starts to grow at about 4pm.
I was saying to Molly last week how when people have a slip I always think to myself why didnt you post BEFORE not AFTER you drank and I know the answer, its because we dont want to be talked out of it, pure and simple. I am not judging anyone, only speaking as it is with me. So that said I have sat on the fence for the past two hours, gotten splinters in my ass and I was so so close to going to the pub but now I wont. Hope the next time has the same outcome.

Well done. I agree with your observation about not posting because we do not want to be talked out of having a drink:l

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

Hi Starty & Tips. Kinda annoying the way the default setting on the button in my head is switched to get wasted when I know only too well thats the last thing I want and I know I cant drink safely. Obviously not as far along as I thought I was....jeez even the thoughts of a hangover tomorrow morning make me shudder.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

anon;1277541 wrote: Well done. I agree with your observation about not posting because we do not want to be talked out of having a drink:l

Hi Anon, I am just trying to be honest. Maybe I underestimate the strength of the freight train that arrives when we hit the 'f**k it moment'. The two most dangerous words in an alkies vocabulary.

[startingover]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

You are probably further along than you think Tabbers.
When we are tired or tense the first thing we do is think of drink, I still do, almost 4 years in. But dont get disheartened, it is much easier to take a dispassionate view

[one2many]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

The full moon can affect moods big time.

Anon, I think every one of us have regrets, shouda, woulda, coulda...........
It IS very hard to accept the amount of time we wasted drinking, it is also difficult not to look back and lament how our lives broke down, what we don't realise tho, is that we are wasting, good, beautiful, fantastic sober time doing this....more waste.

Quietly forgiving and moving on is a gift to yourself.

Anything Mr A does or does not do is NOT because of you...but a projection of his own reality.

Don't waste time rubbernecking your past, you don't live there anymore...

Big hugs xx

[one2many]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

Foxy, I knew there was something up hon, thats why I pm'd you. If I can help, please let me know.


Good on ya Ktab xx

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

one2many;1277545 wrote: The full moon can affect moods big time.

Anon, I think every one of us have regrets, shouda, woulda, coulda...........
It IS very hard to accept the amount of time we wasted drinking, it is also difficult not to look back and lament how our lives broke down, what we don't realise tho, is that we are wasting, good, beautiful, fantastic sober time doing this....more waste.

Quietly forgiving and moving on is a gift to yourself.

Anything Mr A does or does not do is NOT because of you...but a projection of his own reality.

Don't waste time rubbernecking your past, you don't live there anymore...

Big hugs xx

Nice post Oney, Anon I couldnt agree more with the sentiments expressed.

[Anjicia]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

Yeah i agree it seems like Mr Anon doesn't like the changes in you and you're in a tougher situation than me a he drinks at home and asks you to have a glass of wine. Posting before i drink? I guess i was too embaressed to say here i felt like drinking or controlling the urges to drink i don't know i can't explain i'm too sick and fucked up this evening to think straight. So going to get to bed early and tomorrows another day feelin so tired now. A lot of you here have a lot of sobriety under your belt and i just feel so weak and out of control this week its embarressing. Not sure if what kind of out patient treatment is available to me but see what dr says. Still reading Jason Vale's book but nothin happening so far its too like Alan Carrs. The easy way to stop drinking? Jaysis if it was that easy everyone just read one or either of the books. Sorry for rabbiting on.

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

anon;1277541 wrote: Well done. I agree with your observation about not posting because we do not want to be talked out of having a drink:l
I doubt if there is a human being alive or dead that could have talked me out of having a drink. I don't think I can say I ever 'slipped' I went all out for hammered.

one2many;1277545 wrote: The full moon can affect moods big time.

Anon, I think every one of us have regrets, shouda, woulda, coulda...........
It IS very hard to accept the amount of time we wasted drinking, it is also difficult not to look back and lament how our lives broke down, what we don't realise tho, is that we are wasting, good, beautiful, fantastic sober time doing this....more waste.

Quietly forgiving and moving on is a gift to yourself.

Anything Mr A does or does not do is NOT because of you...but a projection of his own reality.

Don't waste time rubbernecking your past, you don't live there anymore...

Big hugs xx

KTAB;1277549 wrote: Nice post Oney, Anon I couldnt agree more with the sentiments expressed.

Me too.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

FF I hope you didnt take my post up the wrong way, I was expressing how close I came tonight to drinking instead of posting, a hairs breath. It wasnt in any way a judgement or criticism and I dont have that much af time under my belt.

[anon]

Army Thread 9th March 2012

Oh Foxy Thank you for your kind thoughts and post.
I really feel for you tonight.
I hope you have a good nights sleep.