I'm giving up

[Bella]

I'm giving up

Dont give up. X

[scottish lass]

I'm giving up

Ann - don't give up - I am really struggling too and don't like myslef for not being able to make this work, but I am going to hang on because I know something will click sometime, and I want to be ready when I sort myself out! Stay with us, there are a few of us in this place of one kind or another...

[Nelz]

I'm giving up

scottish lass;1280995 wrote: Ann - don't give up - I am really struggling too and don't like myslef for not being able to make this work, but I am going to hang on because I know something will click sometime, and I want to be ready when I sort myself out! Stay with us, there are a few of us in this place of one kind or another...

It will happen, I promise you all that are trying, something will snap, something will happen, and you WILL be able to quit. No one quits the first time, or maybe first hundred times.

Hang in there, and keep trying, you'll be so happy when you do it. This goes for the both of you

[starfairy]

I'm giving up

ann!!!! what is going on? you have helped me so much through my own struggles. please do not give up. PLEASE!

[dixon]

I'm giving up

Just give up for not any reason..

[Struggles 106]

I'm giving up

Thank you to everyone. I'm OK and I won't give up. I ordered antabuse today and I just wish I had it already. I'm considering asking my doctor to prescribe it but since he wouldn't prescribe Naltrexone I kind of doubt it.
Nowhere to go from here but UP

[LibraryGirl]

I'm giving up

Ann:l don't give up honey. There's always hope, as long as you keep striving. All of us are here to prop you up, and to help you on your journey.

None of us are promised another day, we all have to go on faith. I don't know your situation, but AL can't ever help, no matter what the circumstances. Remember that, and stay close to this site and to the people who care and want to help you succeed.:l

[sunshine_gg]

I'm giving up

Ann 221;1281079 wrote: Thank you to everyone. I'm OK and I won't give up. I ordered antabuse today and I just wish I had it already. I'm considering asking my doctor to prescribe it but since he wouldn't prescribe Naltrexone I kind of doubt it.
Nowhere to go from here but UP

'Atta gurl! That sounds much more like you :l
The Antabuse does give you a bit of relief from the old Alkie brain... best to you!

[Guitarista]

I'm giving up

Hiya Ann,

Good to hear you are not giving up. I don't know how you feel, but i know EXACTLY what you are talking about when you speak of giving up, as i know many here do. Like you, i'm a working musician, and it can seem to be more difficult for us to stay off the poison because it is everywhere in our workplace, morning, noon and night. This does not mean we cannot stop, and happily stay stopped. My best gigs, performances, and experiences have been sober. But if i start to feel and believe i am missing out on something, then that's when i can get into trouble. In my experience, even when sober for weeks/months/years, negative thinking and drinking thinking have a huge depressive affect on me, and even though one might be sober, the thinking becomes negative, hopeless, self pitying, and we begin another downward spiral emotionally, spiritually, and intellectually. Our whole being even though sober, will open up our negative alcoholic thinking and mind set, and we will follow it back to the bottle as we check out of life and responsibility once more. BUT. Fact is, these thoughts and negative mindset do pass eventually. The trick is for us to help them bugger off sooner than later. For me, i acknowledge them, let them flow through, and let them be, and they let me be. The sober life takes a little bit of work. And i say, no reason why we can't enjoy the process and the journey with all of it's challenges.

My thinking is my biggest challenge. It can be my friend, or my enemy. Cool thing is, i can control where it goes.

Here's some light reading on gratitude thinking vs. deprivation thinking.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/477897-post13.html

Ann. I've given up and checked out of life before, and for me it felt good, but only for a short time. Then, the boring routine of nothingness, and the self loathing set in daily, as with each drink, i knew i was cheating myself, and committing a great universal crime. Here i am, i'd think. A gifted musician and person, drinking away his gift. Numbing himself senseless so as not to be willing or able to ply his craft, and share it with the millions of people far, far worse off than him. If we look within, i reckon most of us know our true, real path.

Think positive, acknowledge and accept your feelings (all of them), no blame, no shame, and go kick some arse friend. You're a star.

G-bloke.

[daisy45]

I'm giving up

Guitarista;1281098 wrote:

Ann. I've given up and checked out of life before, and for me it felt good, but only for a short time. Then, the boring routine of nothingness, and the self loathing set in daily, as with each drink, i knew i was cheating myself, and committing a great universal crime. Here i am, i'd think. A gifted musician and person, drinking away his gift. Numbing himself senseless so as not to be willing or able to ply his craft, and share it with the millions of people far, far worse off than him. If we look within, i reckon most of us know our true, real path.

Think positive, acknowledge and accept your feelings (all of them), no blame, no shame, and go kick some arse friend. You're a star.

G-bloke.

Guitarista, absolutely top class post - really hit home with me - thank you!
Ann, glad to hear you've had a change of heart; stick close and keep posting. Wishing you all the best; you can do it and you are worth it!!!

[scottish lass]

I'm giving up

yahoo Ann! So happy you will stay around.
Thanks Guitarista for your wisdom and your acceptance!

[Unwasted]

I'm giving up

Ann, I PM'd you last night - just want to make sure you received the message.

Mr. G. - lovely post.

[greeneyes]

I'm giving up

Ann, I love G's post. It really rings true for me. We are all a part of the universe. Just showing up as an authentic you is the best gift you have to offer. Be kind to yourself. Be true to yourself. Keep working towards showing up everyday as your best self, no matter what happened the day before. Use the tools G referenced. You WILL get where you want - I too have seen it in you. :l

[Tipplerette]

I'm giving up

Glad you are back and reading our posts. I can't count how many times I've been too down on myself to come back here. It's so discouraging when we have to go back to day one. But even at day three you start to feel good again both physically and emotionally. Short term goals equals long term gains. I think our alkie brain needs really short term plans (like moment my moment). You know what Ann, before you know it you will switch from feelings of deprivation to feelings of pride. Really.

[Nursie]

I'm giving up

Ann, so happy you upped your ammo.
G-bloke- you rock- literally lol