I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

[Scandinavian]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Red67: I see you have been AF a long time. What did you do to overcome any hardshipt during that time? And what periods were the hardest for you? I have had only 3 months AF before I slipped.

[red67]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Scan, one of my most terrifying thoughts about quitting was the thought of dealing with emotions. I drank thru all my emotions for 10 years (and i grew up with an emotional abusive father) so i had NO IDEA how to deal with anything.

Babysteps, first thing was to trust that drinking was not helping anything. Second, i read and posted here everyday. Third, i went to Smart Recovery. They taught me how to think and change my behavoir. Fourth, fake it til you make it. I never new what that meant when people told me that. For me it became "do the actions and the feelings will fall into place later" I wish i could explain that better cause it really is important to understand that you will not "feel" better immediately. BUT if you keep doing what you need to, and do not drink no matter what, you will find NOTHING is as hard as you made it out to be.

I have gone thru some very hard times emotionally, escpecially in the last 3 months and i cant believe how much easier i have been able to deal with it. Had i choose to drink it would have made it so much harder.

I promise you drinking won't help you get thru this. Please trust me on this. I do know how you are feeling and i know you are scared to deal with the feelings. Please lets talk tomorrow and try to work a new plan.

You are in my thoughts.

Lori

[Nelz]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Wow, Scan,

I can TOTALLY feel what you are going through....there has been 3/4 times this year I thought my relationship with my wife was over. Although she has depression and it was probably just some "acting out" in my mind I had to live with the fact that it might be over.

I did have the urge to drink, and a very strong one....but I figured in the long run, it was not going to help. It sounds like its too late to stop you "tonight", but I dont really think your drinking into oblivion idea is a very good idea.

Put the bottle down, get some sleep, and wake up tomorrow and kick its ass. Emotional pain hurts worse than any physical pain ever can....I really do feel for you, and hope you make tonight your last night with AL for a while.

Good luck my friend, my door is always open, if you ever wanna PM me maybe I can help, maybe not, but I can sure listen

[Scandinavian]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Thank you Nelz and Red, I could not read what all that you wrote because its not so easy to read so small text right now, but I will try. I see you both try to help me and for that I thank you a lot. It just makes it better to feel that someone understand me, and I know you two do.

[Scandinavian]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Anyway, I am 100% sure about staying completely drunk until april 4.th. And then I hope to start antabuse treatment which has helped me so much before.

God give me strenght to take my Antabuse when I sober up on April 4.th 2012. Thank you.

[red67]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

We all care Scan. And i know you want to find a way to get sober otherwise you wouldnt keep coming back here. Maybe when you get some sleep and come back and reread this in the morning you will find a hint of hope and strength to start sobriety again. I know my mind is always clearer in the morning (even when i was drinking). Tomorrow is a new day and i believe in you. Lets make a new beginning tomorrow ok?

[KateH1]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Scandanavian, I am sorry to hear about the bad time that you are going through. I am also sorry to hear that you have decided to drink. If you truly believe that drinking is the answer to life's problems, why are you trying to stop drinking?

Since you are not seeking support to not drink at this time. I do ask that you spare the ongoing dialogue of your drinking with us. Many people here are also struggling and trying hard Not to drink. This will not help anyone,and could be harmful. When you decide that you want to stop drinking, come back and you will receive a lot of support.

I am sorry if this sounds a bit harsh, but it is the truth.

[Scandinavian]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

KateH1: I understand and I was in a way waiting for this response. I will try to limit my posts here from now on until I stay sober.

[Pink Angel]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Have to agree with Kate. Repeating over and over that you are going to drink non stop till the 4th makes no difference. Is it attention you are looking for?

[Scandinavian]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

KateH1;1287667 wrote: Scandanavian, If you truly believe that drinking is the answer to life's problems, why are you trying to stop drinking?

As I have written here many times, I try to stop drinking because I drink too much all the time. In fact I drink 24/7. And that's not good. So I have decided to try to limit my drinking.


Thats why I went to my doctor and god Antabuse. Antabuse helped me stay sober for 3 months this year.

And I want to stay sober and take Antabuse from april 4.th and all of 2012.


Thats why I seek help here.


And I more and more think about staying AF forever, and not just for 2012.

[Scandinavian]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Pink Angel: Of couse it feels good to read posts directed to me that are supportive. I have none support from anyone else I know...

[red67]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Scan, you have my support. I understand what Kate is saying but i also hear your cry for help. I do not think you are trying to glamorize your drinking. I think you're in a lot of pain and need our help. If you feel more comfortable, please PM me or Nelz. I was in your shoes at one point and i got thru it. As i said before, i know you can do this and i know you want help. I am here if/when you need to talk no matter what:l

[SKendall]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Scan, I am so sorry about your relationship, I'm afraid it will hurt for a while whenever you think of her.

Starting Antabuse on April 5th sounds promising, however, if you plan to relapse to oblivion you will be on a bender and it is so much harder to get back.

Please remember about your time sober has been the best time in 5-6 years.

Good Luck.

[Scandinavian]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

I know I sound like a complete attention wh0re, and that I only come to mw.org when I have trouble etc etc. But I was really so happy during my 3 months AF, and without this site I would have never done as good as three months of not drinking.

For me it was a really really big thing,.

[Scandinavian]

I just broke up with my Girlfriend and I will drink myself stupid tonight.

Anyway, as my "mood" says, I am completely f***faced and will stay so until that date which I have said. After that I hope to stay sober. Last time this board helped me stay sober for 3 months. I hope you will help me again.

If there is anything I can do in return then please advice me.