April AF Attitudes and Aspirations - Let's Be Good To Ourselves
Alls, I don't ever want to have to start again either. That's what's keeping me honest. And it seems like everyone talks about how much harder it is to get back on track. I think it's Sausage who quit for 8 months and also Nice Life (6 years!) - really, everyone who started up again remarks about it. I've read that it even has a label - called the "Kindling Effect." If you think of kindling wood and stoking a fire, I guess you're adding more small wood and the kindling gets hotter, i.e. our brains get deeper "grooves" for lack of a better term.......like more memory for the alcohol. That's my rudimentary take on it.
Nora, I know eventually you'll have to stop the AB but I think it's a great way to get going. I think of it like using nicotine patches or gum to stop smoking........those aids help you get past the initial habit of having to have something in your hand and then you move on without them.
Re the meetings.......if you guys knew me personally you'd understand how UN AA I am geared. It took every ounce of courage I had to do it. And to actually utter the words "I'm an alcoholic" took everything I had because I'm not sure I even believe in the definition. But, I decided, F*$k it......if this is what it takes I'm giving it a try. Also, the higher power is an issue for me. But, I'm thinking of it as the power of the group - the collective good that comes from being with that group of people. Maybe I can even go beyond that some day but for now it's a helpful way for me to think about the higher power.......If you happen to be religious, that part will be easier for you. Interestingly, though, it seems like so many of us here are not..........and there's an argument that alcoholism is a spiritual disease at least in part. Anyhoo........what do we have to lose? The bottom line for me is that I know I'm with people who understand how hard it is not to drink and they're there to support me if I just ask for the help.
Not much else happening in my world.........lazy day, beautiful weather here.
Have a nice evening everyone..........:lilheart:
UN
p.s. thanks everyone for your compliments on my pic........you made me blush! You should see me without makeup and dirty hair.......LOL but true!!!
Alls, I don't ever want to have to start again either. That's what's keeping me honest. And it seems like everyone talks about how much harder it is to get back on track. I think it's Sausage who quit for 8 months and also Nice Life (6 years!) - really, everyone who started up again remarks about it. I've read that it even has a label - called the "Kindling Effect." If you think of kindling wood and stoking a fire, I guess you're adding more small wood and the kindling gets hotter, i.e. our brains get deeper "grooves" for lack of a better term.......like more memory for the alcohol. That's my rudimentary take on it.
Nora, I know eventually you'll have to stop the AB but I think it's a great way to get going. I think of it like using nicotine patches or gum to stop smoking........those aids help you get past the initial habit of having to have something in your hand and then you move on without them.
Re the meetings.......if you guys knew me personally you'd understand how UN AA I am geared. It took every ounce of courage I had to do it. And to actually utter the words "I'm an alcoholic" took everything I had because I'm not sure I even believe in the definition. But, I decided, F*$k it......if this is what it takes I'm giving it a try. Also, the higher power is an issue for me. But, I'm thinking of it as the power of the group - the collective good that comes from being with that group of people. Maybe I can even go beyond that some day but for now it's a helpful way for me to think about the higher power.......If you happen to be religious, that part will be easier for you. Interestingly, though, it seems like so many of us here are not..........and there's an argument that alcoholism is a spiritual disease at least in part. Anyhoo........what do we have to lose? The bottom line for me is that I know I'm with people who understand how hard it is not to drink and they're there to support me if I just ask for the help.
Not much else happening in my world.........lazy day, beautiful weather here.
Have a nice evening everyone..........:lilheart:
UN
p.s. thanks everyone for your compliments on my pic........you made me blush! You should see me without makeup and dirty hair.......LOL but true!!!
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