I have my wonderful wife to thank for a lot of things, marrying me for one, and two wonderful children as reasons two and three.
One other thing I have to thank her for, is discovering my stash of empty, 20ml, whisky bottles. It nearly ended 15 years of marriage, but it finally made me realise I had a serious problem.
Let me put that another way, it made me realise that other people now knew I had a problem. I have known, for some years, that I am dependent on alcohol, it is not until someone close to you realises it, that you finally go for help.
I have managed to disguise my dependence pretty well, sharing a bottle of wine in an evening, maybe with an additional 330ml bottle of beer on top. Two large glasses of wine a day with the occassional beer thrown in for good measure, nothing too excessive. However most nights I would also down a secret 20ml bottle of whisky.
Not good.
Anyway, I am on my second night of abstinance, and after some pretty weird dreams last night, and my brain feeling like mush today, I feel ok, without too many cravings.
Off to bed now, with one final pang of guilt, hanging over me, my local off licence is probably going to go out of business. Shame he is a nice chap with a very nice family, if he needs to drown his sorrows, he will have plenty of bottles of 20ml Bells on the shelf.
One other thing I have to thank her for, is discovering my stash of empty, 20ml, whisky bottles. It nearly ended 15 years of marriage, but it finally made me realise I had a serious problem.
Let me put that another way, it made me realise that other people now knew I had a problem. I have known, for some years, that I am dependent on alcohol, it is not until someone close to you realises it, that you finally go for help.
I have managed to disguise my dependence pretty well, sharing a bottle of wine in an evening, maybe with an additional 330ml bottle of beer on top. Two large glasses of wine a day with the occassional beer thrown in for good measure, nothing too excessive. However most nights I would also down a secret 20ml bottle of whisky.
Not good.
Anyway, I am on my second night of abstinance, and after some pretty weird dreams last night, and my brain feeling like mush today, I feel ok, without too many cravings.
Off to bed now, with one final pang of guilt, hanging over me, my local off licence is probably going to go out of business. Shame he is a nice chap with a very nice family, if he needs to drown his sorrows, he will have plenty of bottles of 20ml Bells on the shelf.
. I thought the house was clean of empties.
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