I need some encouragement

[RingingCedars]

I need some encouragement

aerojef;1332841 wrote: Huh? lol, no, unless you count the local fire department and various private companies "government".

oh dear do you know they were private?

[aerojef]

I need some encouragement

Um, now I'm really confused.

Here in the US I'm pretty sure they were private. The fire department answers to the board of supervisors but I wasn't a county employee.

[RingingCedars]

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They are all corporate entities. The individuals volunteering are ? whatever they deem themselves to be...

[Destiniey]

I need some encouragement

Opps...my bad Aero.....I guess I was too loud with my woot woot! HeeHee Just me being silly!

[aerojef]

I need some encouragement

Oh, OK. I was just being facetious and saying, "shh" don't tell everyone on the board what I do for a living

LoL, no worries.

Almost done with Day 3! Off to a great start. 4 more days to my first goal.... And I start exercising tomorrow again. SOOO not looking forward to that, but it'll get me started in my regrowth.

As my old fire captain used to tell me, "Pain is weakness leaving the body". How true is that, in so many ways?

[RingingCedars]

I need some encouragement

aerojef;1332852 wrote: Oh, OK. I was just being facetious and saying, "shh" don't tell everyone on the board what I do for a living

LoL, no worries.

Almost done with Day 3! Off to a great start. 4 more days to my first goal.... And I start exercising tomorrow again. SOOO not looking forward to that, but it'll get me started in my regrowth.

As my old fire captain used to tell me, "Pain is weakness leaving the body". How true is that, in so many ways?

My Uncle was a fire chief of a large metro area til retirement. No judgements from me aerojef. Must shorten that name. Aero?? Don't think there is another here.

[Destiniey]

I need some encouragement

Yes....we are both done with day 3! Onward and upward to day 4!!!!!! I have started riding alot more so that is my exercise right now....maybe after my 7 day goal I will take up Sky Diving....just kidding! Ha! Have a great AF night...it will be so nice to wake up feeling good tomorrow! Congrats on 3 days! BTW..I agree with your fire capt!!!!!!!!

[Kradle123]

I need some encouragement

I think I nees an EMS because I almost had heart failure when my 13 year old did not check in from his sleep over. The mom never called . The numbers didnt pick up. Couldnt fricken find him. AH no help. He's not worried. Matt kind of crap
Anyway with my Son this was one of the last straws. He's about to be asked ot leave school for tardy's, his grades are terrible he is ODD and THAT is no fun let me tell you.
He is Super smart and Super imature.

Anyway, he finally called at FIVE O'CLOCK. He'd been gone for over 24 hours and I exploded. I know, I know not the best way to handle it. The fucking mother thoygh. What a ditz! "Well, I could hear you screaming from 2 doors down..I was 'lying down all day and forgot to have Matt call' Drop dead.
I am Soooooooooo upset. Once agian Matt and I are at Odds. I do NOT want to ruin my relationship with my baby boy. He rally is so sensitive. He was crying o the phone. I felt sick.

But the he comes home and tells me how the mom thinks I'm crazy now which doesn't feel great and is made more uncomfortable because these are all dance troupe parents and I was trying to cultivate friendships here...
Damnit! AH leaves too right when Matt is in my face. I can't eve remeber what he was syaing even though it oly a short time ago. The he's out there mowing ad cring and spitting up. I had to stop him. Bring him in. Tell him it was going to be Okay. We would get through this... Well he will but honestly I don't I can...

I don't think I can DO THIS! :no: I just wat to have a small edge taker offer...
My head is killing me. There is NO END IN SIGHT to THIS. We are in teh thrid year of this, The ODD schools, the camps are thousands of dollars. I know none of you can physically stop me. No reaching out from the compyer for a slap.
I simply do not know what to do. I am trying to follow The Total Transformation System with Dr. Lehman but Jesus it is so slow and the initial enthusiam and working togeher with my husband has worn off.
Now back to square One.
Sorry to vent and vent and vent bu I need ot be here becasue if I am not here I will be in my car going to the super market to get a bottle of Rum...oke::

[Destiniey]

I need some encouragement

Kradle.....wow girl....that's rough! What an ass the mom is for not reminding him to call you! She's a mother..she should know that horrible feeling that you get when you don't kow where your kid is! Grrrr.....people suck sometimes! But just think....it's 7 where you are....hang tough just a little bit longer and soon the liquor store wil be closed. The craving will stop....I swear to you it will!

[Kradle123]

I need some encouragement

I hope so Destiny. I feel pretty crappy.

Thanks for being there. :h
:l

[Destiniey]

I need some encouragement

Just think...if you were here at my house it would be 11 PM and time for bed and you would've gotten through the day AF!!!!!!! Think how great you will feel in the morning when both you and Matt have had some time to calm down and can talk about what happened! As far as the mom goes.....she thinks you're a nut because she could hear you yelling. Seriously....I would've wrung her neck. Take a shower...or something...but don't go for a ride in the car because that's too tempting right now.

[Destiniey]

I need some encouragement

Do you have L-Glut? If you have the powder...put some under your tongue. If you have the capsules, open one and pour it under your tongue. I had a nasty episode with wanting to drink and that helped me.....plus I paced and paced...almost wore a path on my hardwood floors...LOL......but I was soooooo happy when I came out on the otherside of the craving!

[RingingCedars]

I need some encouragement

Kradle123;1332860 wrote: I think I nees an EMS because I almost had heart failure when my 13 year old did not check in from his sleep over. The mom never called . The numbers didnt pick up. Couldnt fricken find him. AH no help. He's not worried. Matt kind of crap
Anyway with my Son this was one of the last straws. He's about to be asked ot leave school for tardy's, his grades are terrible he is ODD and THAT is no fun let me tell you.
He is Super smart and Super imature.

Anyway, he finally called at FIVE O'CLOCK. He'd been gone for over 24 hours and I exploded. I know, I know not the best way to handle it. The fucking mother thoygh. What a ditz! "Well, I could hear you screaming from 2 doors down..I was 'lying down all day and forgot to have Matt call' Drop dead.
I am Soooooooooo upset. Once agian Matt and I are at Odds. I do NOT want to ruin my relationship with my baby boy. He rally is so sensitive. He was crying o the phone. I felt sick.

But the he comes home and tells me how the mom thinks I'm crazy now which doesn't feel great and is made more uncomfortable because these are all dance troupe parents and I was trying to cultivate friendships here...
Damnit! AH leaves too right when Matt is in my face. I can't eve remeber what he was syaing even though it oly a short time ago. The he's out there mowing ad cring and spitting up. I had to stop him. Bring him in. Tell him it was going to be Okay. We would get through this... Well he will but honestly I don't I can...

I don't think I can DO THIS! :no: I just wat to have a small edge taker offer...
My head is killing me. There is NO END IN SIGHT to THIS. We are in teh thrid year of this, The ODD schools, the camps are thousands of dollars. I know none of you can physically stop me. No reaching out from the compyer for a slap.
I simply do not know what to do. I am trying to follow The Total Transformation System with Dr. Lehman but Jesus it is so slow and the initial enthusiam and working togeher with my husband has worn off.
Now back to square One.
Sorry to vent and vent and vent bu I need ot be here becasue if I am not here I will be in my car going to the super market to get a bottle of Rum...oke::

Not sure I understand it all--but please don't go for the Rum! You have real family in your immediate future to communicate with and Rum abstinence will facilitate a better outcome.

[Kradle123]

I need some encouragement

You're alll right of course. I think I will get my PJ's on and just get into bed and cry.
Take a Topa too.
The L-Glut isn' here yet destiney. I Ordered it last week.
Wish it would get here.

:l

[Kradle123]

I need some encouragement

Destiny when you got thru that bad craving that day did you have it the next day?
Part of me thinks even if I make it tonight, tommorrow I'm done for...
Future tripping?