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[mama bear]

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thanks Sun...I am so lucky to have friends like you and Nora and Mom....

[momof3]

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mama bear;1302141 wrote: Thanks Mom
I talked to my hubs and I am going to tell them I am on meds that don't allow me to drink. I really have no problem being honest about my problem, but Corporate America is not very forgiving these days and you know how everyone LOVES to gossip....I have found that one out the hard way!!!
Yes...I can go to my room and read.....I will plead headache or something....plus I look forward to wallowing in a big, soft, Hilton bed....ALL BY MYSELF!!!!

Great! The meds is an awesome explanation and it's the truth! And, I agree about being selective around whom you tell. No one whom I have a business relatioship knows of my drinking past.

Enjoy "Me" time in your hotel.

[mama bear]

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I plan to Mom!!

[Unwasted]

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Mama, sending you peace and strength for your trip. Great advice here already. YOU CAN DO IT!! :lilheart:

XX,
UN

[K9Lover]

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Good luck Mama! You can do this. Enjoy the comfy bed (alone) and take some good books. Don't worry about what others think, it none they bizness! LOL

You are doing this for YOU...don't let AL mess with those looks you were blessed with!!!

:h
K9

[mama bear]

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K9.....if I am AF do I have to in bed alone???? Can't I lure the cabana boy into my room???
Dang - you spoil all my fun!!!

[hillsidetime]

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Mama,
I sure hope that you are feeling better. I wish I could pop over and give you a big hug.

I am not sure that I can give sage advice, however I will say that my life is so, so much better now that I am sober. My confidence is back, my brain is back, my perspective and certainty about who I am is back. My parenting is better, I am a better husband, I am a better teacher, I am a better volunteer for our community - you name it. Every day I wake up ready to have a great day. I sleep better. etc etc etc.

If you were looking for a reminder of why you should battle through, I hope this helped a little. You can do it. Fight. It is so worth it.

Take care dear one,
Hill

ps Urge surfing, saved me many times - I learned it here from our friends of course - it gave me some power over the craving knowing that it will pass, as all waves do. It is normal for urges, waves to come along, and we can expect them. We can mentally surf them, and they will pass.

[KittyKatLost]

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Hugs to you Mama

Hillside great post! I am keeping this in mind when those cravings start. This has to be done,

I did get some lab testing done a few months ago and my liver enzymes were normal, I wonder if there is something else that can look for damage. I am afraid of all these years of drinking I may have did something to my liver.

[mama bear]

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Hi KK and sweet Hill....
I miss you buddy!!
After three sober weeks I blew it last night. Made it through my business trip and everything. Stinkin thinkin started around 4 or 5.....tomorrow is my day off......it's been a crappy day.....there has been some viciousness here on MWO that upset me......and I drank.
I was so wound up and anxious that I could not sleep, so I got up and drank.
A new part of my plan is to manage insomnia and anxiety. I have an elliptical machine that I am going to use when i am "racing"...that's a strong word...but it fits...and I will have images of Mom of 3 in my head.....
I used to be very fit....but as I have aged I have gotten lazy...
ok.....that's my latest update.
x0x0

jan

[Nelz]

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mama bear;1302859 wrote: K9.....if I am AF do I have to in bed alone???? Can't I lure the cabana boy into my room???
Dang - you spoil all my fun!!!

Cabana boy............LMFAO I bet those guys have some WILD tales to tell.....Hope everything is goin ok with ya Mama.....we are pullin for ya


EDIT: I should read the "whole" thread before posting....DOH Too bad to hear about the MWO issues

[mama bear]

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thanks Nelzy...

[mama bear]

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I am just blabbing here for my own records...and it feels good
things I have recently absorbed
1. don't expect my husband to be a cheelerleader.....I have seen this posted repeatedly. I have to be my own cheerleader. Hubs expects "normalcy". Maybe that's the difference between men and women. Not sure
2. I love the phrase "kindling effect"...if you drink...you stoke the fire....thus making it harder...
3. everyone here at MWO has the same problem....we are alkies in the battle of our lives. Some are further along than others.
4. I don't have to choose to attend every argument. Let it go. Ignore it. I am fierce with those I love, but I am emotionally fragile and immature right now.

[stirly-girly]

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MB, just for what it's worth, I think we expect too much from others when we expect them to praise us for not drinking. Since they don't have a problem with AL, since they are not addicted to AL, they can't possibly know how fecking hard it is not to drink, especially during the first while. It is up to us to be our own biggest supporter because only we know how very hard our battle is and how we have to fight diligently every day to stay sober. We need to use every tool available to do this, whether it be Antabuse or something similar, getting outside supports such as counseling or AA meetings, changing our daily "drinking time" routines, whatever it takes. Most importantly tho' we have to change our thinking about AL. A few things were mentioned by Mario a couple of days ago on the Journey thread and I saw you and Nora responded to them. I have seen many times on this forum the idea that AL is not something we reward ourselves with but rather something we poison ourselves with. And I like that "kindling" reference as well. Instead of fanning the fire, we need to pour a big bucket of water on it and put it out once and for all. Again, best of luck.

Here you are - now you're all ready to be your own cheerleader....

[NoraC]

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Hey Mama - I see that you are using my mantra now. :H:H:H

I don't have to attend every argument that I'm invited to. (I've had to use that one with my brother many times)

[mama bear]

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Nora...I love that...I really do
and since I can be fairly feisty...I need to remember that
I think Sun has given up on me.....:H
she is so classy and serene......