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[mama bear]

I need some encouragement

thanks Nelz...and I am truely practicing that mindset!!

[Wildflowers]

I need some encouragement

Hi Mama Bear,

I remember lurking here back in 2007 off & on. Then a couple yrs later, then a few yrs later, now I'm here today posting. Tho In honesty I did post a few posts, but don't know what yr it was. I sure wasn't serious about my sobriety then!

I came back cause of the support & so many different ways out. I also remembered a few posters who really touched my heart & u were one of them. Plus I specifically remembered one avatar that I busted up laughing & it was that squirrel with undies, tho I think it had a bra on at the time & was dressed in leather. Yeah, I still have some brain cells left

I'm also a Mama Bear. I've been married for 28 yrs. Our kids call me Mama Bear. There is a Papa Bear, Honey Bear, Baby Bear & Mr. Mc Gee (Aka Gee Gee Bear). Mother of two grown daughters. Soon to be an empty nester this June. Our Rescued Cat. I'm more of a dog lover, but can't bare losing another one. Yet, I need a fur baby bear to love. Cats invite u into their world. So, I don't get as attached to them.

My hubby quit drinking to support me. Tho he has never had a problem like me. So, I concur with the others that taking him up on his offer would be positive. Journaling is something I use to do & when I get a bit stronger I will begin this again. I'm trying to figure out where I fit in at this site or feel comfortable. I'm thinking newbies, & monthly abs boards. Tho I've posted on Topa board as I'm currently taking low dose. I do try & read daily. My goal is AF!

Have u read the thread about Emotional Sobriety? KateH1 & others hit on a few key areas that I believe are worth exploring, pursuing, going deeper into this. Just as someone on this thread said getting sober is the easy part, staying sober when life is "Lifeing You Is The Difficult Part". I'm thinking the area of nurturing one self is another key point. Something I lost track of over the years.

Triggers come from physical, emotional places. Sometimes they come from places we don't even know where, why or how they arrived. I know many of mine come from my own mind. So, that's why I have to have a plan. I have to divert myself & get busy. It does take alot of work, but I've found it takes more work being a drunk.

Also as someone here said life isn't always going to be happy & it's not meant to be. Were not meant to handle all of life's emotions whether they be good, bad, or indifferent with booze. It's a crutch for people who can't live in reality.

The part mentioned about being sober, those highs are higher & they aren't fake. The lows aren't as low. I've found this to be true with my past stints with sobriety. I've also found that being newly sober it's normal to have my emotions be somewhat all over the place some days. As part of learning to nurturing myself, I've given myself permission to say it's OK. My brain, my body, my spirit, is healing. I just have to get pass this. It won't last 4ever. It's still far better then being drunk!

Now when I'm having one of those bad days & I know they will come I will have to re-read this & hope I have the courage like you did & reach out to strangers & say please help me. Not only am I an independent woman, I admit having trust issues. Both can be positive & negative. Something as time go's on I need to work on.

Anyway, I'm blabbing on now. I do so hope your headaches subside, if not maybe a call to your Dr is in order?

I just wanted to let u know that I'm cheering u on & believe in you!!!!

Thank you, for reaching out for help Mama Bear, as it helps others here too.:thanks:

Take Care Mama Bear

[mama bear]

I need some encouragement

Oh Wildflowers...your post really touched me....I am there for you as well and best of luck and strength to you!!

[Coco-Nut]

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OOOh look at you and your peepers! Lookin' good Mama - and doing' good too! (Lovely grammar, isn't it?)

[fennel]

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I agree...mama looks HAWT with those readers on! :H

[mama bear]

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ya'll are makin me blush!!
Welcome back Coco

[one2many]

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MB, i was on my phone the other day and could not reply properly.

I think it is fantastic that you started this thread and are looking for help and encouragement and it's great to see so many responses and advice.

Maybe you could map your journey here, let us know how you are getting on and report in daily. It REALLY does help and gives you accountability, maybe you can invite others to join you and support you in this.

Again, I applaud you for reaching out and the very very best of luck on your AF journey. Keep us posted and you CAN do this xxx

[mama bear]

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Thanks Oney!!
I had some cravings tonight, but they quickly disappeared. I had a horrible headache yesterday that sent me to bed with a heating pad, so this morning I did not take the AB. I cut one in half about 30 minutes ago and now I have a mild headache, so I know it is the AB. But if this is as bad as I gets, I will keep taking it. I cannot believe how sweet everyone has been, and I feel proud for reaching out. I have farted around about doing this, and I know it is time. It's noce to wake up three hours earlier than usual and get to work early.
After a bit of sober time, like 90 days or so, I plan to wean of anti-depressants under my doctor's care. I was PROFOUNDLY depressed about 20 years ago and actually suicidal at one point, so I am bit afraid of this step, but I think I will be fine. My drinking has only escalated the past five years or so, so AL was not an issue with my earlier depression. As I age and become more reflective and less impulsive, I see that I want to start more of spiritual journey and work on the inside me. My kids are almost grown, I have had a good career, despite recent financial stresses due to the loss of my husband's business, but I am over the "poor me" phase. A several year-long pity party has gotten me nowhere. I want the be the best wife, mom, employee, friend and person that I can be.
Gosh- I feel like I am blathering on....
Again....much love and thanks to all of you and I will check in daily and probably bore you all to tears!!
xoxoxo

[momof3]

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Mama Bear,

Don't forget to drink LOTS of water, herbal teas, etc. The antabuse can be a bit taxing on the liver and your liver is probably already working hard to flush out toxins.

I went off of antidepressants about 1 year after I stopped drinking. Like you, I wanted to be careful about weaning off too early because there is such a serotonin drop when you quit drinking. I was very slow in weaning off. Went down to 1/2 a pill for 2 weeks, then 1/4, etc.

You sound good. Keep up the good work.

:hM3

[mama bear]

I need some encouragement

thanks Mom....I have never been much of a water drinker, so I needed that remined.
Icannot tell you how much your personal support means to me. I feel like I have a guardian angel.

[one2many]

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Keep going MB, you are doing great!

[mama bear]

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thanks oney butt!!

[K9Lover]

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Hi Mama,
Me again, chasing you around the boards! I wanted to say I'm VERY proud of you for reaching out. I know this has been a long journey for you, like it has for me. So many ups and downs and re-starts...but we are BOTH here and doing well....isn't that great? (YAY for us!) People like you have kept me here and brought me back when I stupidly left. I find myself thinking of all my "friends" here in the evenings, and smiling to myself. I can picture Mama's pretty face, and Lav's Stella chicken lookin' right at me! You guys keep ME going. Anyway, I'm getting very long-winded here, I just wanted to say that I'm proud of you, I love ya, and keep it up you hot Mama!
:h
K9

[mama bear]

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I love you too girl....and YOU keep me here as well....

[mama bear]

I need some encouragement

ps...how's your tummy??