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[rubywillow]

I need some encouragement

Jan, love. What can I say you haven't already heard? And you KNOW what will happen - that's what tears it. Maybe you haven't gotten to 'that place', hon, we all have to reach when we just know, that this is a life or death point. I'm not gonna beat up on you, sure you'll get plenty, but I SO want my silly friend back in control of her life. Drink gallons of water today, relish the physical and mental pain, and really think about what you want, what's important, how you lost this battle,please. Recovery is usually one of many small battles. I was losing my family, my health, my will to live. Rest, then we'll get back on the horse together. So many people care about you, here and in your family. I really love and enjoy you, Jan, and I want my friend back, healthy and happy. I'll wear my good luck earrings today for you, OK?
K-9, I'm with you about JP. He is a great screen presence, has wonderful depth. I had no idea who he was when I first watched him in 1998's 'Clay Pigeons' with Vince Vaughn. Unfortunately, he has demons, even worse than most. He watched his beloved brother die, from the same thing. If THAT doesn't do it, what will? I try to idolize only the characters I love, not the actor, because we're ultimately disappointed 99% of the time. Oh, and there are legendary bad actions in so many of the big stars' pasts. I'd hate to see MY life told on TV and in the tabloids! :H
I'll check on you later, Jan, OK?

[mama bear]

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Thanks Ruby. I appreciate the phone call. I really do

[one2many]

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mama bear;1318679 wrote: nope.....we'll see...not too worried....but I will keep my guard up....if I drink....it will be in moderation.....I promise

Hey MB,

I think it was a foregone conclusion that you drank this weekend, you knew in your heart you would and so it happened.
I think we are all guilty of this, I remember saying out loud "Oh I won't drink tonight", while I honestly knew in my heart that I would.


It's a good thing that you realise that it did not enhance your life, your persona, your character or your personality any. Use that as a tool. The drinking was in vain, it gave you nothing but a headache, a back to day one a good dose of the feeling wanks.


I KNOW that you really want this, I can see that and I love how you never stop trying. Good on you for coming back here for support and laying it out there.

Maybe it may be time to get serious with the Antabuse, ya know, take it religiously, every day so your choice to drink is taken from you, there will be no maybe's, perhaps and what if's, there will just be NO DRINKING!

You WILL get there, I am sure of that.

Big hugs to you x

[mama bear]

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Thanks Oney. I romanticized the bottle...that's for sure.
I so angry with myself......but I am going to use this day off to think and read and write here.
argh.......

[one2many]

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We all did MB, everyone of us, that feeling like we are missing out (which we know we are not)

Use your anger to be proactive, write down how wank you feel, set yourself a goal(maybe a 30 day challenge), we will all be behind you.
Take the feckin Antabuse. I know it is hard just to down it and then KNOW you cannot drink but better to be fed up because you cannot drink that utterly depressed and sick because you did.

And another thing, yesterday is over with, gone, finished, in the past....today is a brand new day and one that you won't drink! That is something to be happy and positive about.

Turn that frown upside down, your new AF life is waiting for you xx

[mama bear]

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you just mad me cry!!

[one2many]

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Hey, that was not meant to happen lol!!!

Just be optimistic, happy and grateful, you have another chance, another go to make it work and to get the life you want.

YOU GO GIRL!!!

[mama bear]

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that is a great way to look at it!!

[mama bear]

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note self...remember how upset you are......remember how bad you feel...remember how much you have disapointed your family.....AGAIN.......remember that AL is not your friend......

[Destiniey]

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I am back with my tail between my legs and my head hanging low. I gave in to the beast this weekend and I am totally disgusted with myself!!! Ugh! Back on day 1 AF. I was embarassed to come on here and post that I failed...yet again....but then I saw that Momma Bear was in the same position and it gave me the courage to admit my faults and post on here.

[mama bear]

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it helps doesn't it....to get it out....
we can do this Destiniey

[Destiniey]

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It does help....I thought I could drink in moderation....why I even went and bought that bottle of vodka is beyond me. Ugh! I was so embarassed to come on here and admit failure....but after reading your posts I realized that I wasn't alone. Thanks for giving me the courage to post...I have to keep up with it again. Good luck on day 1 for you....I will be thinking of you!

[mama bear]

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you too!!!

[K9Lover]

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Oh Mama!! :l:l

I'm so sorry you feel bad today, but embrace this feeling and remember it! This is what you (and I) hate about drinking, the aftermath. I have had some wicked thoughts myself lately. I even planned on not taking my Antabuse this week so that by Sunday night I could have a "couple" (I am off on Monday). But this morning I downed the AB, I'm just NOT going back down that road. A couple would turn into 15 and my daughter would end up in tears, and I would be a blubbering mess stumbling all over the neighborhood in my ripped up pajamas. That's the truth of drinking for me. Probably driving too, which is stupid, illegal and dangerous. Try to remember the TRUTH about drinking...not the fairy tale. You can do this Mama, and I am here for you. Now take the feckin AB (as Oney says!!)

Love,
K9

[mama bear]

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thanks K9
I cannot belive how sick I feel.....like the flu.......yick
I am proud of you