Not coping...

[blondie]

Hello old friends and new
I was here before and managed to do 40 days AF, but have fallen off and can't seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel again. I read your stories every day and still get such inspiration but I fear that things in my life transpire to keep me in this trap. I considered posting to say how I don't think I can do it and I might as well be an alcoholic till I die, but I know deep down there is something more; just at this stage I am unable to find it. But I know with your support I shall.
With much love to you all
Blondiexx

[irishlady]

Not coping...

Hi Blondie,
Going 40 days AF takes some strength of character to do, and you did it..
You don't say what the things are which are transpiring in your life right now, but if you could manage to deal with them one by one that will help..
Please don't give up, as you said, " I know deep down there is something more ". Don't stop looking for it if you know its there...Ok, so right now you are in a situation which may seem hopeless but do keep on reading and posting on here, even if you are having a bad day, don't keep it to yourself, share it with us, we all help each other carry the burden, so hopefully no one carries more than they can cope with..

I'll be thinking of you,

Love, Louise xx

[blondie]

Not coping...

thank you Louise...

Thanks for your pertinent and kind words again
I know I shall get through this again; I just seem to isolate myself and think I can do it all alone. Bugger; ain't true
Just can't seem to get back in that same mental place.
thanks again
was up till after 10pm last night (way after bedtime for me )without a drink but someone annoyed me so I drank
Everything happens for a reason (but it doesn't mean I can't take responsibility at times..!!)
Love
blondie

[AAthlete]

Not coping...

Blondie, it might help to put together some type of plan that you can try to stick to.

You could pick a date when you want to stop drinking. Before that date arrives develop a list of triggers that you are aware of that make you drink (mad at someone, bored, etc.) and have an action planned for when the occur (i.e. if I'm bored I'll head out for a walk around the block).

Having a gameplan in place to deal with some of the excuses (I hate to call them reasons) you use to drink may help you be stronger when they happen. Just a suggestion...

Take comfort in the fact that YOU KNOW you've done it before. I've been the same way - I just didn't think I would be able to control it and was very depressed. I took the above steps and have now managed 22 days AF and counting - and if I can do it so can you! CHIN UP - YOU CAN DO THIS!!:goodluck: :goodluck:

[Rocky]

Not coping...

Hey Blondie..

That's why we are here and you are here... To keep working on the goal...

What methods are you using or going to use? Sups, CD, Topa...?

[Rags]

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Dear Blondie,
It's that thing deep down that you need to strive to keep going, to nurture. You know it's there, even if you can't find it at the moment.
Forty days is a huge achievement, one day is merely 1/40th. We seem unable to give ourselves the same degree of love and encouragement for every day AF as we give ourselves a bad time when we falter. So change it round and give yourself a big hug for 40 days. If we keep emphasising those times we slip, they will keep looming larger and larger and and more threatening and overpowering. You have the power to take the power away from booze. treat it with disdain , disrespect and hatred, not yourself. Rocky said it so much better in one of his posts last week. Do like RJ says, regard it as butter. The light is there, turn round and you'll see it, waiting for you. It never goes out.
Rags