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[Cashregister]

Oh well, i've bitten the bullet and called my P-doc who has booked me in for an assessment with another doc who is an alcohol specialist. Have been having a really bad time lately and can't seem to stop - not for lack of trying.

Now getting withdrawal symptoms for the first time ever - the only way I control them is with sedatives - need help now so wish me luck - I am terrified, completely terrified.

Will keep you posted if don't end up in a hospital bed.

Fingers crossed for me at 3pm (Ozzie time).

Cashy
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[Waves 2]

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Hopefully you will be in good hands to help you handle this.

Good luck and lots of love and hugs.:l

[Cashregister]

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Thanks Waves - Just never thought it would come to this - but I refuse to just keep going the way i'm going, and I know that I need help now - better than before. Every time i drink I get really drunk and then beat myself up badly because there's something in the back of my mind that says "no this is not fun or relaxing - it's just stupid". My husband reckons that's a great leap forward.

Thanks for your really kind words

Cashy
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[betty boop]

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Hi Cash ...

Hang on in there Love...

We are all here to help and support you .... you CAN do this ..........

Listen to your husband, it's a great leap forward ....

Paula xx

[Cashregister]

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Thanks Paula,

I'm just so scared...don't even know why .I keep posting and reading to stave off that fear. Don't want to leave the computer...security blankie

Thanks

Cashy
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[betty boop]

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So let us be your security blankie ....

thats what we are are here for ...

[lushy]

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Cashy, sending huge hugs your way. You are making a very brave and important step in your life!

[Java]

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I am in on the being a security blankie..

[Cashregister]

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thanks Paula and thanks Kate...

I know wat you mean Kate - you feel better and then you think everything will be fine and thet you can control it all. I can't even control my bi-polar let alone this...and have tried to do it at home, tried hard. Need to do this for Sophie and Anthony and not end up like my Mother.
At leaset i have worked out I can't control things at the moment - i know i'd have a drink now given the chance - too doped up on medication to get out of the house. I just want to obliterate it all - but I can't for my little girl.

Oh I love fear, such a great thing - mix with panic and anxiert and what a cocktail - who needs a drink.

Cashy
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[Cashregister]

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Thanks Victoria and Lush too - I don't fell brave...but I know this is the right decision. I'm worried about missing work/money etc etc (no sick leaveleft) and all the other things..I have to focus on the fact that if I don't get better - on all fronts - I wont have a job at all.

C
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[sammys]

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You do what you have to do and we will be here for you. The beauty of this site is its 24 hours and anytime you need to post its here. I think you are finding your courage and are using it.


XXXXOOO
Sammys

[Accountable for Me]

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Cashy, good for your for getting help! Don't be scared. The professionals know what they are doing and will ensure you are feeling comfortable!! You will be in good hand. Trust me. This is a very good step, and you should be proud of yourself for doing this!! Much, much, love and best wishes, Accountable.

[Preciouspinot]

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Big hugs and good luck to you...I will be thinking about you..:h :l :h

[tawnyfrog]

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Hang in there, Cashy

You can do this.

[YoungAtHeart]

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All the best, Cashy. You are quite courageous, really. Courage isn't the lack of fear--it is doing it despite the fear. We are here for you!