Hi Groovy Guys and Groovy Gals...been a long time. I'll try to stick to two points in this long rant:
1. Is this my bottom?
2. Is "faith" interacting with my bottom?
Synopsis: I've been unemployed with no unemployment now for a year. I'm several thousand dollars behind on my rent. Just spent every dime to my name today to not have our heat/electricity shut off. I suspect that despite applying to hundreds of jobs and having five or so interviews, my ex-employer is "black-listing" me; he has a lot of 'pull' in our region's industry.
And so, I drink, despite the fact that it takes away precious money from rent, from food, and from my sanity.
1. Peoples' bottoms are very different. Peoples' drinking habits are very different. Would my life be different, if a year ago, I quit when catastrophe struck?
Yes.
Would we have more money to pay for rent and bills if we didn't get *at least* a 12-pack every day between the two of us?
Yes.
I could go on and on with point one, and perhaps with your help, I can expound some more if you wish.
2. Faith. Hmm. I have put on 40 pounds in the last year. I do not believe in myself. My self-esteem is zilch. I have friends who tell me how talented I am, how *good* I am, how intelligent I am. I see none of that. I've let myself go...my house, my marriage...I'm just...gone.
I *used* to be spiritual. I *used* to believe in my abilities. I'm so lost. And then...on my way back from the South Bend airport, dropping my brother off for his flight back to L.A., I got a phone call. It was a friend of mine who had a session with a Bible-thumping counselor (no disrespect intended), and she mentioned that I was a graphic designer. He said he needed a graphic designer.
Today I met with him, and while I'm not Christian by background, I believe that the "message", no matter what faith you're in, is the same. There is a higher power; even, coming from my scientific/questioning (UU) background.
He's got TONS of work for me, if I can get out of my funk...
Questions or comments, my sage friends here?
Thanks?Nichau
P.S. Please feel free to chortle and guffaw on my use of the word, "bottom".
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