I don't want to admit I have a problem..

[Sigh]

I don't want to admit I have a problem..

For those who have been AF for some time now, does it ever get easier?

Around this time of night I really want a drink. Lately with long days it's been worse. I've been able to hold myself back but I really do want to have a drink (+ more) in the evenings. I've been thinking to myself stuff like:

• Just one glass of wine
• One night won't hurtA shot of votka would be great right now to help you sleep.

Am I physically addicted still or is it all mental? Will there be a point where I've forgotten it and won't desire it anymore? Or am I going to be struggling with this for the rest of my life.

[sri]

I don't want to admit I have a problem..

Hi Sigh,

Welcome...I'm new too -- and have found such support in these people who are farther down the journey than we are...I am only 6 days alcohol free, but that is six more than I have done in the last two years. Keep reading, confide the truth in a doc who can support you...start the journey. Maybe, just maybe we can do this!

[Accountable for Me]

I don't want to admit I have a problem..

Sigh, it does get easier believe me. I am on day 48 now. You will have ups and downs - no doubt about it. You have to ride through them.

I did not want to have to go through the withdrawal symptoms again, they were horrendous. The lack of sleep, irritability etc... lasted for a couple of weeks. I have only had one serious bout with depression (the last couple of days). It has started to subside. Believe me if you are determined to kick the sh** out of this beast, you will, no matter what.

I would suggest reading the section of "Long Term Abstainers". You will see this fight is truly worth it. It can be a bumpy ride. You will see how these people are feeling now compared to when they started, it will give you the strength to continue on. Keep fighting is what I say. You wont regret it!!! Also the posts by IrishLady are worth checking out as well. She really puts the perspective on things in a different way. You will find so much here all over the boards, keep on reading!!

[Breez]

I don't want to admit I have a problem..

That craving voice is very loud in the beginning. Actually more like screams. Screams so loud you whiteknuckle every second that voice screams every reason to drink.
Eventually they become whispers of suggestions that you can do as you please with them. So yes, it does get easier. Do the cravings go away....no. But they do get few and far in between. Be patient & stay focused.

[Rocky]

I don't want to admit I have a problem..

Sigh

If you are not, you need to get going on the supplements. They do help... The Kudzu and b50's late in the day take the edge off. Also Gaba and LGut...

Use the tools ... you need a complement of things to help you succeed..

[Debh]

I don't want to admit I have a problem..

Hi Sigh

And welcome. You aren't alone. You have taken a huge step. We are all here to HELP each other. So keep posting and reading

Take Care
Deb

[aquamarine]

I don't want to admit I have a problem..

Sigh, Welcome , you came to a great place. The fact that you are here and questioning your relationship with alcohol probably says that you do have a serious problem. But it is so wonderful that you are willing to want to even question things. You are still very young . I'm in my early forties but was at about the same point as you 10 years ago. I really had no clue what a difficult and serious problem I was dealing with.What I truly did not know and believe to be true is that once you get this "addiciton" or "disease" or whatever you want to call it, started if you keep feeding it, it progressively gets more ingrained in your body and your whole psychological being. Time goes by and you can almost unknowingly get yourself in a situation that becomes extremely difficult to get out of. Ten years ago I knew I drank too much but really thought I'd stop whenever I wanted to and it was as simple as that. It's kind of like having a really bad diet and lifestyle for years but always thinking you'll get your act together and then all of sudden you develop diabetes and you are left with a serious chronic illness that you possibly could have warded off years earlier. Anyways- I wish I had that knowledge when I was your age. The good thing is anyone can recover from this. Although I am still struggling I am optimistic. I'm really happy you found us , everyone here wants to help, keep coming back.