The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

No sleep for the wicked, Fen. I have to shower and dress for my big 'replacement' today, and I'm gonna tell that dentist it's either my teeth or his. :H Yes, sleep has been screwy all week. Didn't help being high the first half and NOT enjoying either the pain or the feeling you're supposed to get on drugs. I looked it up on Google and some guy had posted a question. He had chronic back pain, took THREE of them every 4-6 hours!! OMG!! I'm sure he didn't know who was president! Replies came from lots of people, some who were completely ignorant about the life of a severe chronic pain sufferer and were critical, but most who seemed knowledgeable were astounded by the amount his doc gave him. They cautioned of, among other possibilities, the damage to his organs from the sheer amount of Tylenol that had in them. I have my own theories on chronic pain, as a victim of it, but I'm as scared and cautious of the drugs as the condition. I'll be fine now and get straightened out (and able to appear in public. I know I'm no beauty, but I scare the dogs right now!)
Just talked to Jan, and, of course, she feels lower than whale poo. We discuss how this happened, and things she can do. We can just hope this was the last 'experiment'. She has enough to face at home right now without getting chastised by us, so let's just all give her HONEST support and care to get through today.
Thanks again to everyone who's been calling me. I love you guys. But PLEASE, remember, if you have my cell # I can't answer it at home, OK? I get so many calls on it I can't identify, and I hate to miss my friends. I won't be back again till maybe late tonight, but thanks for being your honest, loving selves.

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

be safe out there

[ATLThrash]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

Thanks everyone for thinking of us and wondering how the party went. The boys had a blast! I was somewhat ticked off at the place-- its one of those deals where they are supposed to provide a party host to do alot of it but you know that never happens-- the host does nto do much-- and of course they are 6 and 7 so we need to be responsible-- but they were supposed to bowl, do laser tag, bumper cars, and balladium. They were to bowl first. I had given her a typed list of names pre-party to program htem in and put bumpers up. That was not done. Mark ended programming the lanes and the bumpers would not work-- we had to keep going back and eventually they had to just have several kids bowl on a lane without bumpers which is such a gyp for them. So I pithced a fit and got the entire party half price, I had to get something! Mark and several of the dad's bonded in the bar but that was okay with me as he needed to at least know those guys, they are a little intimidated by him as he is so tall and athletic but they seemed to get on well, the moms who came were actually some of the more tolerable ones. Then we took Luke to Fox Brothers BBQ and he pratically ate a half rack of ribs. I spent most of yesterday putting up Luke's new stuff and I have to say it always astounds me at the stuff you can tell is just re-gifted to you at the kids parties-- including from his best friend (that sort of peeved me actually).

Today I have been in a funk, have put off posting as it started yesterday and I just have no one to speak to about it and don't want to burden you all, I actually woke up feeling really depressed, flat out depressed actually, as bad as I used to when I drank a bottle of wine a night though I didn't drink-- I had to think about whether or not I did or I didn't I felt so despondent. Before I go off half cocked I am going to go to the gym and go outdoors and see if that helps. My birthday is tomorrow and I would give anything to just skip it-- Mark woke up all talking about where we were going to eat on Saturday to celebrate it and I just thought-- yuck, forget it. I have about 5 hours to at least get a good fake attitude on when Luke gets home and I am sorry to bother you all with this. Maybe moving will help.

MB-- just get back on that horse, lady. I know the feelings of wanting to just go back to sleep and escape the day. I am having them now myself. My thoughts are with you.
Rubes-- take care of those toofs!
Fen-- sounds liek you all have a great time planned!
Nora--glad you replaced the red sofa (hee!). Thanks for asking after me.
Sun-- thnaks for the empathy-- by the way, one of the women at school that I reallly don't care for was pratling on and on about 50 shades of Gray-- I know of this phenomenon -- the fact that it was her has made me not want to get near the book-- is my instinct right?

Onwards and upwards-- in the words of one of Luke's heros-- to infinity and beyond

[paula]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

Hi everybody, I have managed to have a lovely sober weekend, much to my surprise I feel quite at peace with myself. Sorry you slipped MB, so easy I know. Hope your pain is better Ruby. Hope your ok ATL depression is so awful, excercise is good for it, releasing endorphins lifts the mood.
I decided to take the AA approach to drinking and stop trying to use willpower, just admitting that I have no control seems to help as does the kudzu, I have also been saying the serenity prayer, which seems to help. I went to AA afew years ago and didn't get on with the meetings, but I still have the literature which I find helpful. Hope everyone has a good day.

[sunshinedaisies]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

Hi all - back from meeting - Rubes hope dentist goes well - so happy you are finally getting teeth!! Life will be much better for you not having to worry them them falling out all the time !! And being able to eat anything too! including veggie burgers - LOL

Jan - hope you are feeling better.... :l

Paula - glad you are feeling better today - just take it all one day at a time eh? glad the prayer is helping you - whatever helps us is good......

ATL - glad you survived the party - had to laugh - shades of grey is one of those books that I am amazed everyone is reading - JUST my opinion - it is a load of twaddle. CANNOT believe how well it is selling. I would never ever read it - poorly written, just basically a porn/romance/domineering type novel - not my thing at all - but we cannot keep it in the store.

Got to go and fit daisy with her no-bark collar - poor girl, but the barking has to stop....

Hugs, sun XX

[fennel]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

Thinking of you, Rubes! :h

Sun, I saw somebody reference that Shades of grey book in "Savage Love"...one of my fave sex advice columns. I looked up the reader reviews, and none of them were good. As you said, peeps said it was poorly written and just awful all around. Just goes to show you, just because something appeals to the masses doesn't mean it's good. I feel that way about most top forty music as well! :H

Glad you survived the party, ATL...sorry they screwed up the bowling for the kids, though. At that age, bumpers are a necessity.

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

still here....feel like crap.....
sorry about the party ATL.....
I am even more sorry you are so blue....any idea why??? Do you take antidepressants??(sorry if too personal)
I am ashamed to admit I have Shades of Grey...I have not read it though................a girlfriend loaned it to me
back to the couch......
Hey Fen and Paula.....get I need to get my butt back to AA....the ladies group is nice but they are little "preachy" for me
and you are right....I have no control...thanks Paula!!

[fennel]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

mama bear;1320322 wrote:
Hey Fen and Paula.....get I need to get my butt back to AA....the ladies group is nice but they are little "preachy" for me
and you are right....I have no control...thanks Paula!!

Mama, I like the idea of being in a room of people with the same problem...but I really hate the whole "following the steps" thingy, and I hate the slogans. Also, no matter how many meetings I have tried, there's always one psycho who goes off the deep end plotting his ex-wife's murder for half an hour. There's a meeting for business peeps on the west side of town...maybe that one would be less crazy.

Anyway, I hear ya.

[NoraC]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

Hey all - so busy at work. But, wanted to check in. Sorry Mama. Feel better & swallow your pill. ATL, you feel better too. Will post more when I can but thinking of everyone. :h

[ATLThrash]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

Sun-- this may be why these moms don't like me ( not that I care) but when this woman brought the book up-- and don't get me wrong-- I am all for escapist fun in books-- not every book must be War and Peace I said "oh come on-- it's not like we are going to create feminist themes with books that are essentially a load of soft porn". I realize I should not have done that since I haven't read it and also since she clearly was into it, but I do get sick of the tendency of folks taking books like say the Twilight series ( which you know are perfectly entertaining but are not Pulitzer winners) and acting as if popularity equates them with importance. I do think it is great that peoPle read and anything that encourages them to do so is great but let's not act as if these books are getting the National Book Award.

Mama-- you are not too personal, I appreciate you asking after me. I am not an ADs. I used to be-- I went through so many and actually found I do better the majority of the time without them. I could not feel anything with them at all and still got low from time to time. I am hoping that the rigorous exercise is going to help. If it doesn't I will revisit it. And the party was great for the one person it needed to be for-- Luke-- he had no clue it was disorganized-- the boys went wild and ran crazy so they had fun.

I just wish i didn't feel so down on right near my Bday. Okay, mark just called wanting a medal because he said he had remembered to ask what night we were going out for my Bday before making arrangements to golf and do some stuff with his hockey buddies. Then he tells me that he is going to be golfing June 1st since we are going out on June 2 for my Bday. Interesting since we will be in Gulf Shores on June 1st and my Bday is tomorrow and is being celebrated on May 26-- good thing I got the sitter and the car for my own Bday. I was already feeling a bit down and that made me feel totally forgotten-- how clueless. I am fighting the impulse to call him and go off.

Sorry y'all. I am taking too much of your time. I need to just go hide!

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

Oh ATL....hugs sweetie

[paula]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

I agree AA is a little bit preachy, and I always found it odd that people who shared would still be talking about their drinking years later,as though they still were. But as afriend of mine in AA said take what you agree with and use it, ignore the rest. Hope you are feeling better Mama, you are such a supportive and kind person, be kind to yourself.

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

thank you Paula.....and I stilll feel horrible.......actually starting to wonder if it's something else......
Bret was understandably upset, but he being sweet cause he feels sorry for me
what a dumb ass I am!!

[paula]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

No, no, no, you are a kind thoughtful lady. I like to think that the mistakes we make are all for learning purposes, and your honesty is a comfort to so many people, just remember how many folks will say if MB can slip and get back on track, so can I, that's how I see it,x

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

THANKS....I really need that today Paula