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[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

Fen update: Apparently Pappy is lucid enough to agree to ceasing chemo and they're hoping to move him to hospice today. HOPEFULLY, this may give him a little more alert time. This stage of things is so unpredictable. Fen says J is so sad, but they may go home shortly. She appreciates all your prayers.

[ATLThrash]

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Mama-- anticipatory anxiety-- I have never heard it called that but I have felt that for awhile!! Wow. I am supremely peeved because I felt it all night, slept badly, got up, thought I do some treadmill before training, turned on my cell Phone and there was a message from the trainer canceling!! I did the cardio but we have no schedule for after vacation and I am pretty peeved to say the least-- Mark is paying alot for this. Hopefully the vacation will be relaxing though I do most of the heavy lifting there too if any gets done-- childcare, any cooking etc.

About your house- one thing to think of is that moving is stressful too (isn't it one of the top 3 stressful things) and you have lived there a long time so there is that too... So much to consider-- I would rather think of Henry Cavill.

Sun-- good luck with the roofers--and have a good day at work.
Rubes-- hope you are well.

Mark failed to wake Luke and now he will be late for his play date and I will be late for the doctor and I will be the one taking Luke to the playdate when Mark was supposed to-- I asked for one simple thing-- good Lord-- what if it was really important?? How rude

[NoraC]

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Morning all!

ATL - Don't you want to strangle your husband sometimes? I know that I do sometimes. :H:H

Hope everyone has a wonderful day. (And I won't really strangle my husband.......probably :H)

[NoraC]

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Mish - been thinking about you!! :l

[NoraC]

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ATL - back from the Doctor yet?? Anxious to hear. :l

I haven't heard anything more from Fennel.

How was court Mama?

[fennel]

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Hey peeps. Posting from my phone. Still in Chicago, waiting for Pappy's transfer to hospice. Thanks for your support. :h

[ATLThrash]

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They upped my topamax in the hopes this will lessen the pain from the headaches at least (it won't but oh well). Sun-- what is your topa dose? I tolerated 100 great. No problems at all. They want me at 150 to 200. MYy BP that was normalizing is back to crap again-- maybe because I was worried-- it was 130 over 100. Maybe I won't think of drinking with upping the topa. I have been thinking of it lately and that must be stress. When I told the neuro I was taking all the demerol with 2 headaches he was all pissy about it-- "I don't understand-- do you take all the pills at once or what?"-- I get 5 pills!! No no no. I worry about if I am going to have more headaches that are so bad than meds to deal with them. Right now I am just upset and want to cry, honestly I am really about to cry as I type. I am sorry. I need to pull it together. I am going to go, we are going to get organized for tomorrow I guess.

[mama bear]

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Cry sweetie...it is ok...it may make you feel better
The deposition SUCKED
I was practically called an uncaring racsit.
I was challenged about really caring for my residents. I am more concerned about profit. WTF????
It was not fun

[mama bear]

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and I feel WONKY from the the AD withdrawal, but trying to ingnore it

[ATLThrash]

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Screw all these jerks, you are not a racist-- they can kiss it. Now I AM Crying-- with the water on in the bathroom so Luke won't hear

[mama bear]

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PLEASE call me

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here so get YOUR ASSES IN GEAR!!!!FOR MAY

and.....I know Luke is young, but hiding your tears is HARD and stressful.....
that is the worst part about depression....faking it
don;t hide....let it out
when I hide it gets worse
I am so worried about you

[sunshinedaisies]

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Oh gosh - ATL - I am so sorry for how you are feeling. that really sucks....... and doctors that DON'T understand - makes it even worse. Mine is the pits right now too.... I am PM'ing you my phone number - that way if you can't get a hold of Jan I am always available too....... I have broad shoulders - trust me! I am always ready to listen if you just want to vent....... a good cry always helps too...... I am on 300mg of Topa, but even if your doc wants you on 150mg - 200, please go up slowly - don't just jump in there - it is best to titrate up. that way you do tend to not get SE's. What dose are you on now? Pm me - okay?? Hugs to you :l If you are on 100mg now, I would go up to the 150mg for a week and if you are good with that for a week, then you can go up in a week again to the 200mg level. If you have any SE's at the 150mg level, stay there until that SE abates.

Jan - dear Jan - I am sorry that you got the 3rd degree today - that is what the lawyers are paid for I suppose...... just know that it wasn't personal..... it still hurts though right? Like I said to ATL - I am around - feel free to call me....... you have my number - hugs to you too - EVERYONE needs hugs today!!!!! I have lots and everyone can have them and more...... How much of a drop did they drop you on your AD? If you are having SE's, maybe you should go up a tiny bit and slow down the amount you are coming down by..... it really is a big thing - as I found out. Take a long time and halve the amount that they dropped you by.......

Fen - Sending MORE hugs to you too - told you I had lots of them ..... thinking about you and worrying how you and J are doing.......

Nora - loved the "won't really strangle my husband.....probably". Made me smile......

Love to all....... keep your peckers up everyone - I am here if anyone needs to talk.....

Love, Sun XXX

[mama bear]

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I wish I had a pecker that was up!!!:h
I am much better. I know it wasn;t personal today, but it sure felt like it for a bit. Like you Sun, I take great pride in my job and the way I treat people, and after the third hour of the inquisition, I got MAD!
My dose has been cut in half. I actually took a full dose tonight and then back to half tomorrow.
Thanks so much for caring:l

[bird]

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Gosh, that is sucky MB...hope you are doing better ATL...Fenn, sending out good vibes and hugs..on a lighter note, we went to a Mennonite bakery today and got some goodies, the real thing and the real people, guess they have a community around here somewhere....just hanging out and finished mufflers today as far as I could go with what I have to work with, so told them I wont be in tomorrow hahaha...later