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    One Step at a Time - June 2012

    Hey Zen, that's about the same way my mom left my dad when I was about 14 months old. I guess my dad landed himself in jail trying to find me, but then he just faded away and didn't keep trying.:l

    You know that's probably why I was perturbed with the ex mil pronouncing that way, I didn't want my kids sounding like they was just outa da holler. :H

    Nice to see you K9--I've fallen into the grumpies now too.

    Hollers and black moods made me think of this song:
    Swamp Witch ~ Jim Stafford | DJ Allyn – The Soundtrack for my Life

    I must say I was encourage by so many speaking out against the hypocrisy in that thread. Yes you too K9. It is sad that it continues to pop up and cause so much damage.
    Psalms 119:45


    ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

    St. Francis of Assisi



    I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

    :rays:

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      One Step at a Time - June 2012

      Zen I just sat here for five minutes thinking how I might explain the situation in a few sentences. I ended up crying....will have to save that it for one of those phone calls.
      Psalms 119:45


      ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

      St. Francis of Assisi



      I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

      :rays:

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        One Step at a Time - June 2012

        RingingCedars;1336877 wrote: Zen I just sat here for five minutes thinking how I might explain the situation in a few sentences. I ended up crying....will have to save that it for one of those phone calls.
        (((RC)))

        I am glad you have a friend in Zenners to share with. She is a wonderful understanding friend, as I know well.

        Love,
        Cindi
        AF April 9, 2016

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          One Step at a Time - June 2012

          Thank you ladies. I think me emotions are fried right now. Zen, no need to apologize. Yes, Cindi, she's fast becoming a dear friend indeed. Hugs to you both.:l:l

          Waiting for that pm Zen.
          Psalms 119:45


          ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

          St. Francis of Assisi



          I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

          :rays:

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            One Step at a Time - June 2012

            Oh well I be honest then. I had tears in my eyes again when I read both your posts, but I wasn't gonna admit it. So there. You are both lovely. xo
            Psalms 119:45


            ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

            St. Francis of Assisi



            I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

            :rays:

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              One Step at a Time - June 2012

              Oh good dinner and a story. I'll get my dinner tray and cutlery.:H
              oh how rude...I'll set the table Miss....
              Psalms 119:45


              ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

              St. Francis of Assisi



              I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

              :rays:

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                One Step at a Time - June 2012

                Now, now don't yell. I said I'd set the table. Sorry I forgot the table cloth. Must I re-set?
                Psalms 119:45


                ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

                St. Francis of Assisi



                I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

                :rays:

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                  One Step at a Time - June 2012

                  Well I'm not sure what that means and I don't normally eat chicken (I know I'll never be invited back) but I will enjoy the company. Actually I have dined on the Mediterranean back in '85. Had lovely sea bass and salad, can't remember veggies. It was sooo charming.
                  Psalms 119:45


                  ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

                  St. Francis of Assisi



                  I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

                  :rays:

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                    One Step at a Time - June 2012

                    I envy you your travels Zen. I don't do alot of envy but traveling is a life long dream. My ex got a basically free 14 day tour of Israel. We were in Tel Aviv at the time. I bit disconcerting with all the military about but it was the trip of a lifetime. The food was fantastic everywhere we went, even the little hole in the wall roadside stops.
                    Psalms 119:45


                    ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

                    St. Francis of Assisi



                    I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

                    :rays:

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                      One Step at a Time - June 2012

                      Whew!!

                      Past a big one here. My mama had called earlier today all happy and pleased with the new home health care person.

                      I get this phone call about an hour ago and what a difference!! She was white hot angry and accusing my brother and me of calling people and telling them she is crazy. Why have we made a prisoner of her? What has she done that is so bad. etc, etc, etc

                      I finally told her and my dad (he always has it on speaker) that right now I am trying to get well with my sobriety and my stomach and super stress is not a help at all. I explained that since I had done nothing wrong and I could not do one thing to make mom feel better that I needed to hang up and let them deal with it.

                      I immediately felt guilty after hanging up but knew it was the right thing for me.

                      I called my DIL over and asked her to spend just a few minutes with me until I calmed down, which she kindly did.

                      I feel better now and got myself through a bit of a crisis that could easily have ended up with me driving down the mountain to the liquor store.

                      Thanks for letting me vent, friends. I needed to write this down so I can see clearly what steps I need to take in order to get through some of these tough times. Considering my mama's good health and her late stage dementia, there will be many of these in the future and I must be able to handle them sober.

                      I also need to remind myself that even though she hurts me with the things she says, it is simply not her fault.

                      Thanks for listening.

                      Cindi
                      AF April 9, 2016

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                        One Step at a Time - June 2012

                        That must have been hard Cindi. So glad your DIL was able to come to your aid and you reasoned this out well. I have a little experience with dementia and you're right there will probably be more days like this to prepare for. You don't want to experience that pop in your stomach again for sure. Is there a back up person to your DIL in case you need them? Strength and hugs to you.:l
                        Psalms 119:45


                        ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

                        St. Francis of Assisi



                        I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

                        :rays:

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                          One Step at a Time - June 2012

                          Cinders....Big hugs to you! Wow...you are dealing with alot right now and I am so proud of you for doing it sober...your tummy thanks you too! Hang tough and know that we are all here for you!!!!! XO
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                            One Step at a Time - June 2012

                            Hope everyone is doing well tonight.
                            Mama you must have had a tiring day. Hope you get that award.
                            Night Sunshine when you get home.:l
                            Sweet dreams. Click!
                            Psalms 119:45


                            ?Start by doing what is necessary, then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.?

                            St. Francis of Assisi



                            I'm not perfect, never will be, but better than I was and not as good as I'm going to be.

                            :rays:

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                              One Step at a Time - June 2012

                              Cinders:

                              First thanks for your PM's again and RC and et al... Hugs :l

                              Cinders it sounds weird but your mom sounds a little like my 13 year old son . I posted in the nest so forgive me for not repeating it all but suffice to say he went off th edeep end over nohing and I did succumb to my old habits..for Saturday so....28 days almosy 30 but feel fine today. It was building and building and building and I really didn't have a plan. Just kept getting sadder and sadder. so..........

                              Just moving on however. Am getting a plan in place now. .
                              Congratulations on getting through your own crisis! :h

                              hugs and sleep well,
                              On My Own Way Out Since May 20, 2012
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                                One Step at a Time - June 2012

                                Hi everyone. Sorry that I haven't been posting more. Things are just so busy & hectic right now. I am thinking of you all and keep checking in as best as I can.

                                Kradle - I'm glad that you are back. Good for you for working on a plan to help during these times. That is one of my main downfalls.

                                I was having stinkin drinkin thoughts today. Nothing serious. But, just the fact that they are there is bugging me. Warning flags are going up.

                                I need to find some time to get back to my journal & get my own plan set better.
                                "Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.".....Carol Burnett
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